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Silence
Silence
Silence
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Silence

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Soon to be a major motion picture!

The third book in the breathtaking New York Times bestselling Hush, Hush saga, featuring exclusive content.

Nora Grey can’t remember anything from the past five life-changing months. After the initial shock of waking up in a cemetery and being told that she has been inexplicably missing for weeks, she tries to get her life back on track. So she goes to school, hangs with her best friend, Vee, and dodges her mom’s creepy new boyfriend.

But there is this voice in the back of her head, an idea that she can almost reach out and touch. Visions of angel wings and unearthly creatures that have nothing to do with the life she knows. And an unshakable feeling that a part of her is missing.

Then Nora crosses paths with a sexy stranger, with whom she feels a mesmerizing connection. He seems to hold all the answers…and her heart. Every minute she spends with him feels more and more intense until she realizes she could be falling in love.

Again.
LanguageEnglish
Release dateOct 4, 2011
ISBN9781442426665
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Becca Fitzpatrick

Becca Fitzpatrick is the author of Black Ice, Dangerous Lies, and the Hush, Hush saga, including Hush, Hush; Crescendo; Silence; and Finale—all four of which debuted as New York Times bestsellers. She graduated college with a degree in health, which she promptly abandoned for storytelling. When not writing, she’s most likely running, prowling sales racks for shoes, or watching crime dramas on TV. She lives in Colorado with her family. Find out more at BeccaFitzpatrick.com.

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  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    The noise between Patch and Nora is gone. They've overcome the secrets riddled in Patch's dark past...bridged two irreconcilable worlds...faced heart-wrenching tests of betrayal, loyalty and trust...and all for a love that will transcend the boundary between heaven and earth. Armed with nothing but their absolute faith in one another, Patch and Nora enter a desperate fight to stop a villain who holds the power to shatter everything they've worked for—and their love—forever.We first meet Nora in the book as she is waking up in a cemetery at night. It is quickly obvious that she has lost her memories and does not remember anything past April, despite that it is now September. She returns home to find she has been missing for eleven weeks and many people have been looking for her. Nora tries to pick up where she left off and live her life as normally as she can, but she feels things have changed too much.Nora's ability to get into dangerous situations without trying is yet again evident. Nora discovers her mother is dating Hank Millar, the father of her nemesis Marcie, and is understandably very upset. However, her childish behaviour annoys me - she attempts to walk home after a dinner with Hank, recognising it is dangerous but continuing anyway. In a trademark unrealistic plot twist - Nora happens across a group of fallen angels terrorising a Nephil. A mysterious character named Jev (whom the reader knows to be Patch) appears and saves her.The events that follow this clumsy reintroduction of the fallen angel world are remarkable similar to the first book of the series. Despite believing Jev is dangerous Nora begins to trust him and rely on him to save her in dangerous situations. She begins to have feelings to Jev, but is confused when she learns that she was dating a mysterious boy named Patch before her abduction. Nora's inability to make the connection between Patch and Jev made me very frustrated. However, there were some very nice moments when dialogue from the first book between Patch and Nora was repeated - adding a sense of sweetness to their renewed courtship.Due to Nora's amnesia, her mother and and best friend Vee attempt to conceal Nora's past with Patch. I thought this was a great plot device with a lot of potential. Nora's mother kept mentioning a man who wore all black as a possible kidnapper/stalker, and it took Nora a long time to realise that her mother was describing someone specific rather than generally guessing. Once she found out about Patch, Nora was understandably upset at Vee for keeping the secret from her. I found Vee's comment about Patch ruining Nora's life since she met him hypocritical since she herself has dated dangerous boys in the past. Otherwise this was a well executed plot device which I enjoyed. In previous works the author has set up Patch's home as a mystery, never allowing Nora to see it. Thus Nora's induction into Patch's home was a lovely symbolic part of the book which I really enjoyed. I thought it signified that Nora was finally worthy of Patch's love, and I liked reading all the scenes which were set there. The space also seemed very 'Patch' and was described beautifully. The third book of this series is by far the best - with Nora finally growing up and taking responsibility for her life. The relationship between them has also matured over the course of the books. I am looking forward to the fourth and final book, with Patch and Nora taking on archangels together.My review of Hush, Hush (#1 of the Hush, Hush series)My review of Crescendo (#2 of the Hush, Hush series)
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Once again, Becca Fitzpatrick has created another outstanding novel. Silence is an amazing read that had me entrapped in it's pages from beginning to end. Nora's struggle to remember the last five months of her life that had just magically been erased after someone escaping from her mysterious kidnapper is riveting. I can not imagine what it would feel like to all of a sudden be somewhere without knowing how I got there, let alone to find out that five months of my life had passed without even knowing it. The empty gap that Nora must have felt would be unbearable, not to mention the fact that trouble keeps popping up whenever she tries to find out the truth. Some things just can't be erased though- like love. Even though Nora can't remember Patch, who changed his name to Jev, she still feels that alluring draw to him, even if he would like nothing better then to have her forget him completely- it's the only way he can truly keep her safe. But all rules are thrown out the window when Hank doesn't keep his end of the bargain. Hank who will do anything to free himself and the rest of the nephilim from the fallen angels. Silence is filled with passion, danger, friendship, and adventure.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    Silence is the third book in the Hush, Hush series. I really liked the first book, Hush, Hush but the second book, Crescendo, fell short for me. It was an okay book but Nora was a bit too whiny and insecure. So did Silence measure up? For me it was a lot better than Crescendo. In this book, Nora has amnesia after she's been missing for months. She can't remember the past five months of her life. This leaves Nora feeling confused and angry. She takes her over-emotional state out on everyone around her. She has the feeling that the people in her life are purposely keeping things from her. Nora doesn't know who to trust. On top of all that her mom is dating her arch-nemesis's dad, Hank Miller. Nora tries desperately to recover her lost memories. I like Nora's character better in this book than in Crescendo. Nora was angry for a big part of this book though. I could understand some of the frustration. I can imagine how frustrating it would be to lose a chunk of your memories. The story line was good. Nora is on a quest to find out what happened to her and to regain her lost memories. She also wants to find out what's up with The Black Hand. Her journey brings her in very close proximity with danger. However even though she can't remember Patch, he's always around to save her. This book has excitement, adventure and romance.Overall this is a good read. If you're a fan of this series you won't want to miss this book. Silence is not as good as Hush, Hush but better than Crescendo. Also originally I thought this series was a trilogy but there will be a fourth book. Becca Fitzpatrick leaves the door wide open for the next book in this series. More Patch? Yes please!
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    As my first real romance saga, I thought this was amazing! This book wasn't as suspenseful or dark as the other two books before, but there was still a good twist in events. I will finish this book and make a romance shelf because I loved this book!
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    ******Mildly Spoilerish******When this first came out, I was angry. I thought it was supposed to be the last in the Hush, Hush series and I wanted my HEA for Nora and Patch. I refused to read it. So it's been sitting for a couple of months. But all of a sudden this week, I wanted my bad boy Patch and I wanted to see if he could redeem himself, yet again. So I picked it up and read it in one sitting. Yes, it's that good! I think Becca Fitzpatrick has improved as a writer because this book was by far the best in the series. It's much better at character development and plot lines and all the things that other people complain about with the other books. Not me. I've loved the story from the beginning!So, what sets this one apart so much? We get to see so much more of Patch for one thing. That makes it all worthwhile. We are actually sure which side he's working for and what his feelings are. And Nora is not the helpless female that she's seemed to be before. Of course, she makes some dumb mistakes, but her heart is in the right place and she's actively pursuing the bad guys. The whole story felt more like Patch and Nora working together against the enemy. That's what I loved about it. So, it didn't end. No HEA. There's still more story to tell. And you know, I'm really, really glad. I want more of Nora and Patch like this. Together, sure of their loyalties. I can deal with several more books if I just don't have to deal with Nora doubting Patch and Patch brooding and disappearing and paying other girls more attention than his own girlfriend. I say bring it on!!
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    I remember the first time I read Hush Hush, it wasn't just that the cover was breathtaking with silver, black, white and red, it was filled with thriller, sexiness (Patch!) and edginess Vee and Nora. I loved the first book so much that I read it 3 times. I can't wait to finish this book and see how everything will end in Finale.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    If I had to describe Silence in a few words, it would be "the calm before a storm", because it's what it truly was! A great build-up for the final book.The book picked up three months after the events in Crescendo. Nora woke up in a cemetery without memory of how she had gotten there, and found out that she'd been missing for three months. To make things worse, not only could she not remember everything that had happened to her during that time, but her amnesia also erased her memories of the two months before she had disappeared, totaling to five months of lost memory.Because of the abduction and memory loss, the water was already boiling right off the bat. Nora tried to regain and relearn the life she lost, and if Becca Fitzpatrick didn't execute that well, I would've been bored. Also, I pitied Nora, but I admired her more because she faced her "amnesia" very bravely. If I were her, I would've suffered from panic attacks to top it off. I also liked how she was still wary around Jev even though she felt an instant connection to him. It spoiled the romance, but it showed her level-headedness.The pace was a mountain range. It climbed up, reached the summit, and went down only to hike up again. Dull moments? There was none of that here, only an abundance of shock and thrill. And swoon, of course. Patch swoon.Unlike the usual case in other series, Silence bested the first book in its saga - or equated with it, at least. Now excuse me while I prepare myself before digging into Finale.MY FAVORITE PART was when Nora disagreed with Patch in his plan to keep her away from the action, to hide her until he's solved the problem.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Nora Grey can't remember the last 5 months of her life. After waking up in a cemetery and being told shes been missing for weeks, she tries to go back to living a normal life, hanging out with her best friend and attend school. There is this voice that keeps popping up everywhere she goes. Nora gets visions of angel wings and unearthly creatures that have nothingto do with her life. Then Nora meets a guy who she feels a strange attraction to and feels as if shes seen him before and knows him. He seems to hold all the answers of where shes been and why she cant remember anything.... and he seems to like her too. His name is Jev. Every second she spends with him she begins to fall in love with him even more. I think this book was very romantic and fun to read because it had a lot of action and comedy.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    I like the series.... But I can NOT Stand Nora!!!! She is such a whining bag of poop. I wish she could grown up all ready. However, the 4th book looks promising maybe she will get a brain. I love Patch!!!
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    I wanted SO badly to love this book. Crescendo, the second book in the series, ended on a note that left me and everybody else hanging on the edge of our seats. There was so much potential for this book, but I had a very difficult time really getting into it. It took me a few hours each to read the first two books in the series, but it took me almost three days to read Silence. For a while, I wasn't sure why. Then I figured it out. First of all, all we do throughout this book is basically re-learn all the information we were given in the first book, Hush, Hush. Some of the character's in Nora's life were obviously keeping things from her, but she didn't know what exactly they were hiding. The problem: The readers DO know. Nora spends almost the entire books trying to unravel information and events that we already know. Second of all, I was more than halfway through the book and Patch had only come into the picture TWICE. I'm not sure if Becca Fitzpatrick was trying to prove that the books would be good even without Patch, but I found myself looking ahead to figure out when was the next time Patch would come in. Because while he is not the biggest part of this story, he is HOT and us fangirls want to see A LOT of him. Now, in the two books preceding this, I never really had that much of a problem with Nora. A lot of people did, but I didn't mind her that much. But in Silence I swear she got even more stupid, self-centered, and whiny. Seriously, most of her thoughts throughout the novel consisted of, "Omg. My life sucks. I can't remember anything. Wah wah wah." I mean, I can understand that you'd obviously be upset about losing your memory, but we didn't need to be reminded every thirty seconds. To make matters worse, Nora didn't really think of anyone other than herself. Sure, she helped Scott a few times and worried about her mother. But she snuck out anyway, knowing that if her mother found out she would probably have a heart attack. She was so wrapped up in her own self-pity that she forgot to warn Scott about a few VERY important things. And when she figured out that Vee and her mother were hiding things from her it was all, "How could they do this to me? Blah blah blah." Like maybe they didn't care about her or have a very good reason for omitting information. Nora reminded me of the girl that when you're watching a scary movie, you're thinking, "Yeah, that's smart. Go upstairs and hide in a closet where there is absolutely no room for escape." Despite everything, she continuously made stupid decisions. She claims to love Patch, but she can't obey ANYTHING he freaking tells her to do. He asks her to stay in a house for a little while, and she goes out to assist a guy with a major target over his head. There were several times throughout this novel when I actually said out loud, "Oh my god. Why are you so dumb!?" Having said all that, Becca Fitzpatrick is very good with a story arc. Her rising and falling of action was very good. This book could have been condensed into a few chapters. There was only about one important event that really furthered this story, and I am extremely disappointed. I am really glad that this is not the final book in the series.REASONS I LIKED IT: - Scott. Scott was not a character I particularly liked in Crescendo but in Silence he has changed tremendously and I loved learning at least a little more about his character.- Patch. Really, he should be the first bullet. I love this guy to death, but I do not understand his choice of woman. He's sexy and strong and smart and brave and everything wonderful, yet he wants a girl like Nora. In this book, we get to see an even more affectionate side of him and I loooooveeee it!
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    In this installment of the "Hush Hush" series, we find that Nora has had her memory wiped clean and has just returned to the land of the living after missing for 3 months. Included in that memory loss is her love for Patch, and her knowledge of Scott, her father, fallen angels, Nephilim, and pretty much everything that made us enjoy reading about her for the past two books. Gradually, her memory returns and when it does - watch out! The action we've grown to know and love, along with the heated romance between her and Patch, is renewed once more.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    Silence starts with Nora being found and having no memory of who kidnapped her. As the story continues her memory is slowly revealed. Patch is now Jev? Scott is in and out of hiding & the Black Hand is playing mind tricks. I enjoyed this book, but wouldn't say it is the best in the series. There is tons of suspense and little romance. While Scott & Patch are both back in the picture, Nora leans more towards Patch -Like Always. You can probably tell I am team Scott all the way!! I found this book to have alot of good parts, but they never really added up to the finish I expected. Still going to read book #4.... Hopefully the series ends with a bang
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    As you can tell, I'm on a roll with trying to read books that have been on shelves for a while now. Since this series has been option to become a movie, I jumped on it to read it. And now I know why this book is called Silence...What I loved most about this book is great plot. Nora has lost everything...literally. Unable to remember anything, she finds herself struggling with emotions she doesn't quite understand as well as running into a certain somebody she swears she's seen before. I really loved that Nora is more determined then ever. She knows something is missing from her mind and goes out of her way to find it. She keeps searching till its found. She is loyal as ever and quickly pieces things together. The love interest is what I expected. And of course he couldn't keep away from her. Even when he said he would. Patch is doing everything he knows to keep her safe. I'm surprised at the deals he make. You can really tell that he loves Nora soo much. He sacrifice things that are dear to him just to make sure she is okay. That is love.How do you remember something that is stolen from you? You take hold of it and don't let go till your remember. Silence is great story full of everlasting love and action. The battle has been won but the war is just beginning. Silence is great!
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    As the third book in the series, this review will contain spoilers for Hush, Hush and Crescendo.Nora Grey wakes up in the Coldwater cemetary to discover that she has been missing for the past three months and can't remember the past five. Her mom is now dating Hank Millar, the father of her worst enemy, Marcie. Her best friend, Vee, is acting all weird. Plus there's a strange guy popping in and out of her life that she is mysteriously attracted to. Nora just desperately wants to figure out what happened to her and go back to her life, but the answers she finds will make things far more complicated than she could have hoped.In a series that is narrated in the first person, giving your narrator amnesia can be a tricky proposition. The readers obviously know everything that Nora can't remember so much of the mysteries that Nora attempts to unravel in the first part of the book are things the reader already knows. However, Fitzpatrick manages to pull it off and I didn't find myself getting exceedingly irritated. The relationship between Nora and Patch is still riveting, although I found the comic relief didn't occur as frequently as might be desired. However, the biggest thing for me was coming into this novel thinking it was the final book in a trilogy, wondering how all of the various plot points could possibly be resolved, and then realizing that there's at least one more novel to come in the series. While there are plot threads left hanging, there is no evil cliffhanger, so while I'm eager to read the next book, I'm not weeping and gnashing my teeth. Definitely only fare for fans of YA paranormal fiction, but it'll hit the spot for readers of the series.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Best book of the series so far!!!!!!! I just cannot stop reading it! I admit, I am a sucker for teen paranormal romance stories. I have read books such as Twilight and Shiver but a book like this!!!!!???????? It has everything that I LOVE in a book! It is such a page turner! I could not put it down and i still can't! I keep reading and rereading it! I recommend this book to anyone who likes the twilight series!
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    I thought the first half of this one was awesome, and then it kind of dropped off a bit in awesomeness. It was still good/interesting, but I thought she was going to knock it totally out of the park, and then it seemed like she kind of got tired. Writing is hard, yo.

    Liked #2 the best so far. On to #4. :)
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    I have been hooked on the Hush, Hush series from the very beginning. For that reason, I've been dying to get a chance to read Silence by Becca Fitzpatrick. I'll be honest. I had intentionally put it off for a little while because I know there's another book and I wanted to decrease the gap between books as much as possible. However, I'm so glad I couldn't keep my curiosity in check any longer. I loved Silence!It probably would've been beneficial for me to reread Crescendo before starting Silence, but I don't exactly have extra time to reread books right now. I'm a little hazy on all the details of Crescendo, but I remembered enough to understand the story (though I do need to go back and straighten some things out). Overall, I'd say the storyline was pretty interesting in Silence. I'm always impressed by all the different takes on angels and angel mythology. Fitzpatrick's version has a different feel than many other angel books I've read (and I've read a LOT lately...keep your look out for all my angel book reviews). I'm never quite sure what's going to happen, which is a huge plus in my book.Now, I'll get to the good stuff. Let's be honest here. If you like the Hush, Hush series, it's because you love Patch. The sexy, arrogant, infuriating fallen angel is irresistible. One minute, I think he's a jerk, the next minute I want him to make-out with Nora. It's a love-hate thing with emphasis on the love. The funny thing about this is that I sense Patch changing. He's still a sexy, mysterious guy in Silence, but he's not such a jerk. At least, not to Nora. In the other books, I never really got why Patch liked Nora. Because of this, I could never completely believe in his end of the relationship. After reading Silence, I totally believe in his feelings 100%. I may not understand why he likes Nora (don't get me wrong, I like her too, but he's a freaking fallen angel, for Tod's sake!), but I believe in it.In Silence, Patch is...dare I say it...sweet. Not sweet in the bring-you-flowers-just-because kind of way, but in his own, Patch way. He clearly cares for Nora and I loved, loved, LOVED reading it! He can be a bad boy all he wants with everyone else, especially when protecting Nora, but he's completely sweet to her. What's even better? It didn't seem out of character at all. His character is changing in reaction to what's going on around him, including his feelings for Nora. For pulling off this transformation successfully, I have to give major props to Fitzpatrick. It's not an easy feat. Overall, I highly recommend you go pick up a copy of Silence. If you didn't like Patch before, you might like him now...though it's up to you to get through the first two books to witness the transformation.Final thoughts: Buy it.
  • Rating: 2 out of 5 stars
    2/5
    No, no, no. I can't believe you can milk a stupid character like Nora to such an extent, that you write four books out of it! Four books, people, that's a lot of pages of crap, crap, crap. Lemme tell you this. Nora is a moron, not even sure that this is a strong enough word. Like I've previously said, this girl should have been killed back in Crescendo.'In my mind, I smacked my head against a wall'. Well, Nora, in my mind I also smacked your head against a wall. And I also did it repetitively ...But I want to point out one of the greatest issues of Silence--the first-time-Nora-and-Patch-meet-from-his-point-of-view shit. Now, how do I put this mildly? Becca, dear Becca, you failed very very hard. You did not tell a story from Patch's point of view--quickly bitch slap that thought out of your mind! All you did is that you magically transformed him into Nora--a mind numbing and ridiculously stupid character (next one, please). I am now officially sorry for noticing that...bonus. And what bugs me the most is that...this final and utterly tormented part of Silence (which I kinda shoulda be thankful for, right?) feels like it wants to grow legs and run far, far away to a land where poorly written books can get therapy!So, there is only one book left now, and since I've proven myself to be masochistic, I'll read it. Then, all I'll be left with is hoping for somebody to erase my memory....
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    There were quite a few times while reading the book that I felt we were having to relive quite a few things from the first two novels. Maybe it was just a little A.D.D kicking in but I really didn't wanna have to read the explanation about Nephilism and the story of Fallen Angels, all over again. It just felt really redundant and this was only the third book. But I guess Nora rediscovering everything was the only way she was going to get the life she lost back. I would have preferred a little more Patch time but that's just my preference.I was real anxious to read Silence, after reading the first two novels of the series. The months of waiting was definitely worth it. Although, I had been lead for months thinking Silence would be the conclusion of Nora and Patch's story but I was quite pleased that by the end of this book we would be waiting for a fourth novel to complete the saga. I'm really looking forward to finally reading about what Cheshvan will be like with the Fallen Angels and Nephils. Once again, I think that Nora and Patch's relationship will be be put through the ringer and we will all have to wait another year to find out how it'll end.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    Read this WAY too long after the first two; really liked the series but should have reread book one and two before jumping into this one because now I don't feel like I can give it a fair review so I won't even try.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    I actually could not get into this book until about a third of the way through it. However, I ended up loving it like the rest of the series.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    So I have just finished Silence! yay and now I am left longing for the final book "finale" coming out next month. This book was great I loved every page and couldn't put it down. Just like the first two books this one sucked me in and kept me in. Becca has an amazing talent for writing and proves it with every book in this series thus far. I loved the characters and was excited to actually see less of Nora's interactions with Vee in silence as compared to the first two books, and much more interaction with Patch:) I really hope someone makes movies out of this series I will be the first in line buyin tickets. I gave this book 5 out of 5 stars I not only liked it, but instead loved it so gave it the max amount of stars I could! Great book!
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    It was ok . I got sick of patch after the 1st story. He just wasn't a believable character. I hope this isn't the last book cuz she kinda leaves you hanging.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    I've been on this kick lately to catch-up on reading in the trilogies or other sagas that I started. This is the third in the Hush, Hush saga. I remember not being overly thrilled with Crescendo, so I will admit I started this book with a kind of attitude. Before I knew it the pages were turning fast. I couldn't seem to put it down. Ms. Fitzpatrick is great at ending each chapter with a cliff hanger that kept me reading at a fevered pace.There was only a minor detail that I felt was a little unrealistic. Other than that, I loved this book. I'm looking forward to reading the 4th installment in the saga, which is slated for release sometime this year. Yay!! With all that said, I'm giving this one 4 1/2 angelic kisses!!
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Silence settles upon us when we least expect it. After feeling let down by most of Crescendo, I jumped in to Silence to find out what happened to Nora. Thankfully, Silence moved more quickly through the plot and I finished it yearning for Finale. Only a few more weeks to see how Nora and Patch's love will, hopefully, prevail. :)
  • Rating: 1 out of 5 stars
    1/5
    I bet you're all really surprised by my rating. Review to come.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    I kind of liked it but not a lot. Not sure why I feel this series went downhill after the first book, I seem to be in the minority on that. Not sure if I want to keep reading the books in this series. Just not compelling enough.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    I will be applying eye cream thanks to Nora Grey from now on. I just love the whole saga, what can I say? Even if the book sucks I will just say I love it, just because. In this book I didn't like the fact Nora was so know-it-all and deep when she spoke to Nephilim, she was more of an anxious teenager to me. I always wish she would tell Vee the truth about stuff. So maybe in the next book. Bring it on, Finale here I come! (I promise I will do homework when I'm done :P )
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Nora Grey finds herself in a graveyard not sure how she go there or why. All she knows is that things are foggy, she's terrified and nothing seems they way it should be. So we learn Nora has been missing for the past three months, yet she has no memory of being gone those months or the two months prior. As if that wasn't enough trauma, she discovers her mother is now dating her mortal enemy's father, Hank Miller. The only thing that seems to calm her down are these dark eyes she sees in her mind. While those dark eyes should be terrifying, they comfort her in a way she can't explain.

    Patch (or Jev as he's now known) tries to stick to the oath he swore when he struck his bargain with Hank Miller. He figured with Nora's memories of him gone, she'll be safe and lead a normal human life. But every time he turns around, she seems to be smack dab in the middle of the Nephilim / Archangel mess. When he discovers Hank has gone back on his word to leave Nora alone, he makes the decision to help Nora regain her memories, including those of him. He'd rather have her with him than lose her althogether.

    Together Patch and Nora work to stop Hank in his quest to cause an Nephilim uprising against the Archangels, but the cost may be too high as those that Nora love become entangled in Hank's evil plan.

    I think this is my favorite of the series. Nora has grown stronger and stands her ground, where before she would have whined. Because of this, I like her more. I wanted her to stand up to her mother, Hank and Patch. She was no longer anyone's stepping stone. In the end, I think it was the strength that led to her and Patch being better partners and strengthening their relationship.

    Who doesn't love Patch. He's the ultimate bad boy turned good. While the traces of his badness showed up a lot more in this book, he only brought those out when trying to protect the one thing he loves...Nora. He's tries to be domineering with her when she won't listen to his version of reason, but he does listen to her and he doesn't demand from her like he did in the other two books. You can tell that the time away from Nora made him truly appreciate what he has with her.

    Loved the suspense of this one and the all out evilness of Hank. I'm hoping some of that badness will move onto the next book...even if it's without Hank.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    At first, I was not sure how the plot device of amnesia was going to work, but not only did Nora start regaining her memory, she made connections within those memories that furthered the plot, so it ended up working very nicely. I also liked how the prologue was read by a different reader as it is the only part of the book that is not first person.

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Silence - Becca Fitzpatrick

PROLOGUE

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COLDWATER, MAINE

THREE MONTHS AGO

THE SLEEK BLACK AUDI ROLLED to a stop in the parking lot overlooking the cemetery, but none of the three men inside had any intention of paying respects to the dead. The hour burned past midnight, and the grounds were officially closed. A strange summer fog hung thin and dreary, like a string of rising ghosts. Even the moon, a slender waxing crescent, resembled a drooping eyelid. Before the road dust settled, the driver leaped out, promptly opening the two rear car doors.

Blakely exited first. He stood tall with graying hair and a hard, rectangular face—nearly thirty in human years, though markedly older by Nephilim count. He was followed by a second Nephil named Hank Millar. Hank, too, was uncommonly tall with blond hair, snapping blue eyes, and charismatic good looks. His creed was Justice over mercy, and that, combined with his quick rise to power in the Nephilim underworld during the last few years, had earned him the nicknames the Fist of Justice, Iron Fist, and most famously, the Black Hand. He was hailed among his people as a visionary leader, a savior. But in smaller backroom circles, he was quietly referred to as the Blood Hand. Hushed voices murmured not of a redeemer, but of a ruthless dictator. Hank found their nervous chatter amusing; a true dictator had absolute power and no opposition. Hopefully, someday he could live up to their expectations.

Hank stepped out and lit a cigarette, taking a long drag. Are my men assembled?

Ten men in the woods above us, Blakely answered. Another ten in cars at both exits. Five are hiding at various points within the cemetery; three just inside the doors of the mausoleum, and two along the fence. Any more, and we’d give ourselves away. Undoubtedly, the man you are meeting tonight will come with his own backup.

Hank smiled in the darkness. Oh, I rather doubt that.

Blakely blinked. You brought twenty-five of your best Nephilim fighters to go against one man?

Not a man, Hank reminded him. I don’t want anything to go wrong tonight.

We have Nora. If he gives you trouble, put him on the phone with her. They say angels can’t feel touch, but emotions are fair game. I’m certain he’ll feel it when she screams. Dagger is standing by, at the ready.

Hank turned to Blakely, giving him a slow, appraising smile. Dagger is watching her? He’s hardly sane.

You said you wanted to break her spirit.

I did say that, didn’t I? Hank mused. It had been four short days since he’d taken her captive, dragging her out of a maintenance shed inside Delphic Amusement Park, but he’d already determined precisely which lessons she needed to learn. First, never to undermine his authority in front of his men. Second, devotion to her Nephilim bloodline. And perhaps most important, to show her own father respect.

Blakely handed Hank a small mechanical device with a button at the center that glowed an unearthly shade of blue. Put this in your pocket. Press the blue button and your men will swarm in from every direction.

Has it been enhanced with devilcraft? Hank asked.

A nod. Upon activation, it is designed to temporarily immobilize the angel. I can’t say for how long. This is a prototype, and I haven’t thoroughly tested it.

Have you spoken of this to anyone?

You ordered me not to, sir.

Satisfied, Hank pocketed the device. Wish me luck, Blakely.

His friend patted his shoulder. You don’t need it.

Flicking aside his cigarette, Hank descended the stone steps leading to the cemetery, a rather foggy patch of land that made his vantage point useless. He’d hoped to see the angel first, from above, but was comforted by the knowledge that he was backed by his own handpicked and highly trained militia.

At the base of the steps, Hank peered through the shadows warily. It had started to drizzle, washing out the fog. He could make out towering gravestones and trees that twisted wildly. The cemetery was overgrown and almost mazelike. No wonder Blakely had suggested the spot. The likelihood of human eyes accidentally witnessing tonight’s events was negligible.

There. Ahead. The angel leaned on a gravestone, but at the sight of Hank, he straightened. Dressed strictly in black, including a leather motorcycle jacket, he was difficult to distinguish from the shadows. He hadn’t shaved in days, his hair was unruly and unkempt, and there were lines of worry around his mouth. Mourning the disappearance of his girlfriend, then? All the better.

"You look a little worse for wear . . . Patch, is it?" Hank said, stopping a few feet away.

The angel smiled, but it wasn’t pleasant. And here I thought maybe you’d had a few sleepless nights yourself. After all, she’s your own flesh and blood. From the looks of it, you’ve been getting your beauty sleep. Rixon always said you were a pretty boy.

Hank let the insult roll off. Rixon was the fallen angel who used to possess his body every year during the month of Cheshvan, and he was as good as dead. With him gone, there was nothing left in the world that frightened Hank. Well? What do you have for me? It had better be good.

I paid a visit to your house, but you’d skulked off into hiding with your tail between your legs and taken your family with you, the angel said in a low voice resonating with something Hank couldn’t quite interpret. It was halfway between contempt and . . . mockery.

Yes, I thought you might try something rash. An eye for an eye, isn’t that the creed of fallen angels? Hank couldn’t tell if he was impressed by the angel’s cool demeanor, or irritated. He’d expected to find the angel frantic and desperate. At the very least, he’d hoped to provoke him to violence. Any excuse to bring his men running. Nothing like a bloodbath to instill camaraderie. Let’s cut the pleasantries. Tell me you brought me something useful.

The angel shrugged. Playing your rat seemed unimportant next to finding where you’ve stashed your daughter.

The muscles in Hank’s jaw tightened. This wasn’t the deal.

I’ll get you the information you need, the angel answered, almost conversationally if it weren’t for that chilling gleam in his eyes. But first release Nora. Get your men on the phone now.

I need insurance you’ll cooperate long-term. I’m keeping her until you make good on your side of the deal.

The corners of the angel’s mouth tipped up, but it was hardly a smile. There was something truly menacing in the result. I’m not here to negotiate.

You aren’t in a position to. Hank reached into his breast pocket and retrieved his phone. I’m out of patience. If you’ve wasted my time tonight, it’s going to be an unpleasant night for your girlfriend. One call, and she goes hungry—

Before he had time to carry out his threat, Hank felt himself tripping backward. The angel’s arms flashed out, and all air escaped Hank in a rush. His head hit something solid, and waves of black rolled across his vision.

This is how it’s going to work, the angel hissed. Hank tried to muster a shout, but the angel’s hand was clenched at his throat. Hank kicked his feet, but the gesture was pointless; the angel was too strong. He scratched for the panic button in his pocket, but his fingers fumbled uselessly. The angel had cut off his oxygen. Red lights popped behind his eyes and his chest felt as though a stone had rolled on top of it.

In a burst of inspiration, Hank invaded the angel’s mind, teasing apart the threads that formed his thoughts, focusing fixedly on redirecting the angel’s intentions, weakening his motivation, all the while whispering a hypnotic, Release Hank Millar, release him now—

A mind-trick? the angel scorned. Don’t bother. Make the call, he commanded. If she walks free in the next two minutes, I’ll kill you quickly. Anything longer than that, and I will rip you apart, one piece at a time. And trust me when I say I will enjoy every last scream you utter.

"Can’t—kill—me!" Hank sputtered.

He felt a searing pain erupt across his cheek. He howled, but the sound never made it past his lips. His windpipe was crushed, vised in the angel’s grip. The raw, burning pain intensified, and all around, Hank could smell blood mixed with his own perspiration.

One piece at a time, the angel hissed, dangling something papery and drenched in dark liquid over Hank’s whirling vision.

Hank felt his eyes widen. His skin!

Call your men, the angel ordered, sounding infinitely less patient.

Can’t—talk! Hank gurgled. If he could only reach the panic button . . .

Swear an oath to release her now, and I’ll let you talk. The angel’s threat slipped easily into Hank’s head.

You’re making a big mistake, boy, Hank fired back. His fingers brushed his pocket, slipping inside. He clenched the panic device.

The angel made a guttural sound of impatience, ripped the device away and hurled it into the fog. Swear the oath or your arm goes next.

I’ll uphold our original deal, Hank returned. I’ll spare her life and bury all thought of avenging Chauncey Langeais’s death if you’ll bring me the information I need. Until then, I vow to treat her humanely—

The angel slammed Hank’s head against the ground. Between the nausea and pain, he heard the angel say, I’m not leaving her with you another five minutes, let alone the time it will take me to get what you want.

Hank tried to peer over the angel’s shoulder, but all he saw was a fence of gravestones. The angel had him on the ground, blocked from view. His men couldn’t see him. He didn’t believe the angel could kill him—he was immortal—but he wasn’t going to lie here and let himself be mutilated until he resembled a corpse.

He curled his lips and locked eyes with the angel. I’ll never forget how loud she screamed when I dragged her away. Did you know she screamed your name? Over and over. She said you’d come for her. That was the first couple of days, of course. I think she’s finally starting to accept you’re no match for me.

He watched the angel’s face darken as if with blood. His shoulders shook, his black eyes dilated with rage. And then it all happened in stunning agony. One moment Hank was on the verge of blacking out from the white-hot pain of his pummeled flesh, and the next he was staring at the angel’s fists, painted with his blood.

A deafening howl thundered out of Hank’s body. The pain exploded inside him, nearly knocking him unconscious. From some distant place, he heard the running feet of his Nephilim men.

Get—him—off—me! he snarled as the angel tore at his body. Every nerve ending raged with fire. Heat and agony leaked from his pores. He caught sight of his hand, but there was no flesh—only mangled bone. The angel was going to shred him to pieces. He heard grunts of effort from his men, but the angel was still on top of him, his hands raking fire everywhere they touched.

Hank swore viciously. Blakely!

"Pull him off now!" came Blakely’s gruff command to his men.

Not soon enough, the angel was dragged away. Hank lay on the ground, panting. He was wet with blood, pain stabbing him like hot pokers. Slapping aside Blakely’s offered hand, Hank climbed with effort to his feet. He felt unstable, swaying and intoxicated with his own suffering. By the gaping stares of his men, Hank knew he was a horrific sight. Given the severity of the wounds, it might take him an entire week to heal—even with the enhancements of devilcraft.

Should we take him away, sir?

Hank dabbed a handkerchief to his lip, which was split open and hung from his face like pulp. No. We have no use for him locked up. Tell Dagger the girl is to have nothing but water for forty-eight hours. His breathing was ragged. If our boy here can’t cooperate, she pays.

With a nod, Blakely turned from the scene, dialing on his phone.

Hank spat out a bloodied tooth, studied it quietly, then tucked it in his pocket. He fixed his eyes on the angel, whose only outward sign of fury came in the form of clenched fists. Once again, the terms of our oath, so there’s no further misunderstanding. First, you will earn back the confidence of fallen angels, rejoining their ranks—

I’ll kill you, the angel said with quiet warning. Though he was held by five men, he no longer struggled. He stood deathly still, his eyes black orbs burning with vengeance. For one moment, Hank felt a pang of fear strike like a match inside his gut.

He strove for cool indifference. —following which, you will spy on them and report their dealings directly to me.

I swear now, the angel said, his breathing controlled but elevated, with these men as my witnesses, I will not rest until you are dead.

A waste of breath. You can’t kill me. Perhaps you’ve forgotten from whom a Nephil claims his immortal birthright?

A murmur of amusement circled his men, but Hank waved them to silence. When I’ve determined you’ve given me enough information to successfully prevent fallen angels from possessing Nephilim bodies this coming Cheshvan—

Every hand you lay on her I will return tenfold.

Hank’s mouth twisted into a suggestion of a smile. An unnecessary sentiment, don’t you think? By the time I’m through with her, she won’t remember your name.

Remember this moment, the angel said with icy vehemence. It’s going to come back to haunt you.

Enough of this, Hank snapped, making a disgusted gesture and starting back toward the car. Take him to Delphic Amusement Park. We want him back among the fallen as soon as possible.

I’ll give you my wings.

Hank stopped his departure, not sure he’d heard the angel correctly. He barked a laugh. What?

Swear an oath to release Nora right now, and they’re yours. The angel sounded haggard, giving away the first hint of defeat. Music to Hank’s ears.

What use would I have for your wings? he retorted blandly, but the angel had caught his attention. As far as he knew, no Nephil had ever torn out the wings of an angel. They did it among their own kind now and then, but the idea of a Nephil having that power was quite the novelty. Quite the temptation. Tales of his conquest would sweep through Nephilim households overnight.

You’ll think of something, the angel said with increasing weariness.

I’ll swear an oath to release her before Cheshvan, Hank countered, smothering all eagerness from his voice, knowing that to reveal his delight would be disastrous.

Not good enough.

Your wings might make a pretty trophy, but I have a bigger agenda. I’ll release her by the end of summer, my final offer. He turned, walking away, swallowing down his greedy enthusiasm.

Done, the angel said with quiet resignation, and Hank released a slow breath.

He turned. How is it to be done?

Your men will tear them out.

Hank opened his mouth to argue, but the angel cut him off. They’re strong enough. If I don’t fight, nine or ten of them together could do it. I’ll go back to living beneath Delphic and make it known the archangels tore out my wings. But for this to work, you and I can’t have any connection, he warned.

Without delay, Hank shook a few drops of blood from his disfigured hand to the grass at his feet. I swear my oath to release Nora before summer’s end. If I break my vow, I plead that I may die and return to the dust from which I was created.

The angel tugged his shirt over his head and braced his hands on his knees. His torso rose and fell with every breath. With a certain bravery Hank both detested and envied, the angel told him, Get on with it.

Hank would have liked to do the honors, but his wariness won out. He couldn’t be certain there weren’t traces of devilcraft all over him. If the place where an angel’s wings fused into his back were as receptive as rumor had it, one touch might give him away. He’d worked too hard to slip up this late in the game.

Quelling his regret, Hank addressed his men. Tear out the angel’s wings and clean up any mess. Then dump his body at Delphic’s gates, where he’ll be sure to be found. And take care not to be seen. He would have liked to order them to brand the angel with his mark—a clenched fist—a visible display of triumph sure to increase his stature among Nephilim everywhere, but the angel had a point. For this to work, they could leave no evidence of association.

Back at the car, Hank gazed over the cemetery. The event was already over. The angel lay prostrate on the ground, shirtless, two open wounds running the length of his back. Though he hadn’t felt an ounce of pain, his body appeared to have gone into shock from the loss. Hank had also heard a fallen angel’s wing scars were his Achilles’ heel. In this, the rumors appeared to be true.

Should we call it a night? Blakely asked, coming up behind him.

One more phone call, Hank said with an undercurrent of irony. To the girl’s mother.

He dialed and put his cell phone to his ear. He cleared his throat, adopting a strained and worried pitch. Blythe, darling, I just got your message. The family and I have been on vacation and I’m rushing to the airport now. I’ll catch the first flight out. Tell me everything. What do you mean, kidnapped? Are you certain? What did the police say? He paused, listening to her anguished sobs. Listen to me, he told her firmly. I am here for you. I’ll exhaust every resource I have, if that’s what it takes. If Nora is out there, we will find her.

CHAPTER

1

COLDWATER, MAINE

PRESENT DAY

EVEN BEFORE I OPENED MY eyes, I knew I was in danger.

I stirred at the soft crunch of footsteps drawing closer. A dim flicker of sleep remained, dulling my focus. I was flat on my back, a chill seeping through my shirt.

My neck was crooked at a painful angle, and I opened my eyes. Thin stones loomed out of the blue-black fog. For a strange suspended moment, an image of crooked teeth came to mind, and then I saw them for what they really were. Gravestones.

I tried to push myself up to sitting, but my hands slipped on the wet grass. Fighting the haze of sleep still curled around my mind, I rolled sideways off a half-sunken grave, feeling my way through the vapor. The knees of my pants soaked up dew as I crawled between the haphazardly placed graves and monuments. Mild recognition hovered, but it was a side thought; I couldn’t bring myself to focus through the excruciating pain radiating inside my skull.

I crawled along a wrought-iron fence, tamping down a layer of decaying leaves that had been years in the making. A ghoulish howl drifted down from above, and while it sent a shudder through me, it wasn’t the sound I was most frightened of. The footsteps trampled over the grass behind me, but whether they were near or far I couldn’t tell. A shout of pursuit cut through the mist, and I hurried my pace. I knew instinctively that I had to hide, but I was disoriented; it was too dark to see clearly, the eerie blue fog casting spells before my eyes.

In the distance, trapped between two walls of spindly and overgrown trees, a white stone mausoleum glowed through the night. Rising to my feet, I ran toward it.

I slipped between two marble monuments, and when I came out on the other side, he was waiting for me. A towering silhouette, his arm raised to strike. I tripped backward. As I fell, I realized my mistake: He was made of stone. An angel raised on a pediment, guarding the dead. I might have smothered a nervous laugh, but my head collided against something hard, jarring the world sideways. Darkness encroached on my vision.

I couldn’t have been out for long. When the stark black of unconsciousness faded, I was still breathing hard from the exertion of running. I knew I had to get up, but I couldn’t remember why. So I lay there, the icy dew mingling with the warm sweat of my skin. At long last I blinked, and it was then that the nearest headstone sharpened into focus. The engraved letters of the epitaph snapped into single-file lines.

HARRISON GREY

A DEVOTED HUSBAND AND FATHER

DIED MARCH 16, 2008

I bit down on my lip to keep from crying out. Now I understood the familiar shadow that had lurked over my shoulder since waking up minutes ago. I was in Coldwater’s city cemetery. At my dad’s gravesite.

A nightmare, I thought. I haven’t really woken yet. This is all just a horrible dream.

The angel watched me, his chipped wings unfurled behind him, his right arm pointing across the cemetery. His expression was carefully detached, but the curve of his lips was more wry than benevolent. For one moment, I was almost able to trick myself into believing he was real and I wasn’t alone.

I smiled at him, then felt my lip quiver. I dragged my sleeve along my cheekbone, wiping away tears, though I didn’t remember starting to cry. I desperately wanted to climb into his arms, feeling the beat of his wings on air as he flew us over the gates and away from this place.

The resumed sound of footsteps pulled me out of my stupor. They were faster now, crashing through the grass.

I turned toward the sound, bewildered by the bob of light twinkling in and out of the misty darkness. Its beam rose and fell to the cadence of the footsteps—crunch . . . sweep . . . crunch . . . sweep—

A flashlight.

I squinted when the light came to a stop between my eyes, dazzling me blind. I had the terrible realization that I definitely wasn’t dreaming.

Lookie here, a man’s voice snarled, hidden behind the glare of light. You can’t be here. Cemetery is closed.

I turned my face away, specks of light still dancing behind my eyelids.

How many others are there? he demanded.

What? My voice was a dry whisper.

How many more are here with you? he continued more aggressively. Thought you’d come out and play night games, did you? Hide-and-seek, I reckon? Or maybe Ghosts in the Graveyard? Not on my watch, you aren’t!

What was I doing here? Had I come to visit my dad? I fished through my memory, but it was disturbingly empty. I couldn’t remember coming to the cemetery. I couldn’t remember much of anything. It was as if the whole night had been ripped out from under my feet.

Worse, I couldn’t remember this morning.

I couldn’t remember dressing, eating, school. Was it even a school day?

Momentarily shoving my panic deep down, I concentrated on orienting myself physically and accepted the man’s outstretched hand. As soon as I was sitting upright, the flashlight glared at me again. How old are you? he wanted to know.

Finally something I knew for certain. Sixteen. Almost seventeen. My birthday was coming up in August.

What in the Sam Hill are you doing out here by yourself? Don’t you know it’s past curfew?

I looked around helplessly. I—

You ain’t a runaway, are you? Just tell me you’ve got someplace to go.

Yes. The farmhouse. At the sudden recollection of home, my heart lifted, followed by the sensation of my stomach plummeting to my knees. Out after curfew? How long after? I tried unsuccessfully to shut out the image of my mom’s enraged expression when I walked through the front door.

Does ‘yes’ got an address?

Hawthorne Lane. I stood, but swayed violently when blood rushed to my head. Why couldn’t I remember how I’d gotten here? Surely I’d driven. But where had I parked the Fiat? And where was my handbag? My keys?

Been drinking? he asked, narrowing his eyes.

I shook my head.

The beam of the flashlight had slipped marginally off my face, when suddenly it was square between my eyes yet again.

Hold on a second, he said, a note of something I didn’t like slipping into his voice. You’re not that girl, are you? Nora Grey, he blurted, as if my name was a knee-jerk response.

I retreated a step. How—do you know my name?

The TV. The reward. Hank Millar posted it.

Whatever he said next floated past. Marcie Millar was the closest thing I had to an archenemy. What did her dad have to do with this?

They’ve been looking for you since end of June.

June? I repeated, a drop of panic splattering inside me. What are you talking about? It’s April. And who was looking for me? Hank Millar? Why?

April? He eyed me queerly. Why, girlie, it’s September.

September? No. It couldn’t be. I would know if sophomore year had ended. I would know if summer vacation had come and gone. I’d woken up a mere handful of minutes ago, disoriented, yes, but not stupid.

But what reason did he have to lie?

With the flashlight lowered, I looked him over, getting my first full picture. His jeans were stained, his facial hair tufted from days without a razor, his fingernails long and black under the tips. He looked an awful lot like the vagabonds who wandered the railroad tracks and shacked up by the river during the summer months. They were known to carry weapons.

You’re right, I should be getting home, I said, backing away, brushing my hand against my pocket. The familiar bump of my cell phone was missing. Same with my car keys.

Now just where do you think you’re going? he asked, coming after me.

My stomach cramped at his sudden movement, and I broke into a run. I raced in the direction the stone angel pointed, hoping it led to a south gate. I would have used the north gate, the one I was familiar with, but it would have required me to run toward the man, instead of away. The ground cut away beneath my feet, and I stumbled downhill. Branches scraped my arms; my shoes slapped against the uneven and rocky ground.

Nora! the man shouted.

I wanted to shake myself for telling him I lived on Hawthorne Lane. What if he followed me?

His stride was longer, and I heard him tramping behind me, closing in. I flung my arms wildly, beating back the branches that sank like claws into my clothes. His hand clamped my shoulder, and I swung around, batting it away. Don’t touch me!

Now hold on a minute. I told you about the reward, and I aim to get it.

He lunged for my arm a second time, and on a shot of adrenaline, I drove my foot into his shin.

Uuhn! He doubled over, clutching his lower leg.

I was shocked by my violence, but I didn’t have any other choice. Staggering back a few steps, I cast a hasty look around, trying to get my bearings. Sweat dampened my shirt, slinking down my backbone, causing every hair on my body to stand tall. Something was off. Even with my groggy memory, I had a clear map of the cemetery in my head—I’d been here countless times to visit my dad’s grave—but while the cemetery felt familiar, down to every last detail including the overwhelming smell of burning leaves and stale pond water, something about its appearance was off.

And then I put my finger on it.

The maple trees were speckled with red. A sign of impending autumn. But that wasn’t possible. It was April, not September. How could the leaves be changing? Was the man possibly telling the truth?

I glanced back to see the man limping after me, pressing his cell phone to his ear. Yeah, it’s her. I’m sure of it. Leaving the cemetery, heading south.

I plunged ahead with renewed fear. Hop the fence. Find a well-lit, well-populated area. Call the police. Call Vee—

Vee. My best and most trusted friend. Her house was closer than mine. I’d go there. Her mom would call the police. I’d describe to them what the man looked like, and they’d track him down. They’d make sure he left me alone. Then they’d talk me back through the night, retracing my steps, and somehow the gaps in my memory would stitch back together and I’d have something to work with. I’d shake off this detached version of myself, this feeling of being suspended in a world that was mine but rejecting me.

I stopped running only to hoist myself over the cemetery fence. There was a field one block up, just on the other side of Wentworth Bridge. I’d cross it and weave my way up the tree streets—Elm and Maple and Oak—cutting through alleys and side yards until I was safe inside Vee’s house.

I was hurrying toward the bridge when the sharp sound of a siren wailed around the corner, and a pair of headlights pinned me in place. A blue Kojak light was attached to the roof of the sedan, which screeched to a halt on the far side of the bridge.

My first instinct was to run forward and point the police officer in the direction of the cemetery, describing the man who’d grabbed me, but as my thoughts came around, I was filled with dread.

Maybe he wasn’t a police officer. Maybe he was trying to look like one. Anyone could get their hands on a Kojak light. Where was his squad car? From where I stood, squinting through his windshield, he didn’t appear to be in uniform.

All these thoughts tumbled through me in a hurry.

I stood at the foot of the sloping bridge, gripping the stone wall for support. I was sure the maybe-officer had seen me, but I moved into the shadows of the trees bowing over the river’s edge anyway. From my peripheral vision, the black water of the Wentworth River glinted. As kids, Vee and I had crouched under this very bridge, catching crawdads from the riverbank by inserting sticks speared with hotdog pieces into the water. The crawdads had fastened their claws to the hotdog, refusing to let go even when we lifted them out of the river and shook them loose in a bucket.

The river was deep at the center. It was also well hidden, snaking through undeveloped property where no one had forked out money to install streetlights. At the end of the field, the water rushed on toward the industrial district, past retired factories, and out to sea.

I briefly wondered if I had it in me to jump off the bridge. I was terrified of heights and the sensation of falling, but I knew how to swim. I only had to make it into the water . . .

A car door shut, yanking me back to the street. The man in the maybe-police car had stepped out. He was all mob: curly dark hair, and dressed formally in a black shirt, black tie, black slacks.

Something about him slapped my memory. But before I could truly grasp it, my memory slammed shut and I was as lost as ever.

An assortment of twigs and branches littered the ground. I bent down, and when I straightened, I was holding a stick half as thick as my arm.

The maybe-officer pretended not to see my weapon, but I knew he had. He pinned a police badge to his shirt, then raised his hands level with his shoulders. I’m not going to hurt you, the gesture said.

I didn’t believe him.

He sauntered a few steps forward, taking care not to make any sudden movements. Nora. It’s me. I flinched when he spoke my name. I’d never heard his voice before, and that made my heart pound hard enough that I felt it clear up around my ears. Are you hurt?

I continued to watch him with growing anxiety, my mind darting in multiple directions. The badge could easily be fake. I’d already decided the Kojak light was. But if he wasn’t police, who was he?

I called your mom, he said, climbing the gradual slope of the bridge. "She’s going to meet us

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