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ie happier im prison, but it is not conceivasle Dave — Of all the things you could. conceivatly have done tome, what you have done is by far the cruclest. You know it, and you knew it before you did it, even though, with your saad stalent tor self-deception, you never permitted yourself to be conscious of it- You know me well enough ta realize that above all I need physical freedom, silence, and solitude, and that, to me, permanent imprisonment will be a fate fac worse than death, That would be the case _ even if I were imprisoned under the best of conditions, But you know very well that _in prisons there is a high isk of homosetual rape and of abuse by other prisoners, or even by guards; and that even without that prisoas ave noisy and crawded, and you are certainly — aware thet I can't endure noise and crowding. _ The FBI assured you thet conditions in federal prisons were Sine and thet I wo rae thet you could have beli i z ae particularly egregious act of self-deception, You know me 1 @ You tried to get the FRI te arrest me under conditions that weuldn't involve risk ef wy being Killed, and you urged the gavernment not fo seek the death penalty for me- But, as already noted, you knew well that permancat Imprisonment weuld be for me far werse than death, so your effort to “save” me trom death can only have been an attempt to Salve your conscience by inflicting on me a punishment that in our society is conventionally regarded as less severe than death. PT BI seh _ T+ is interesting that you asked the FBI tp promise not ta reveal your identity as the informant, and you were very upset when thet _ promise was broken. Evidently you were ashamed oF whet you were doing Why did you do it? To step the unabomber? Hardly. You knew that. the unabomber had promised to stop bombing if Wis manifesta were published, and you knea that the promise weuld be kept if I were the unabomber, since [am Strict about keeping promises, Furthermore) if T were the unabouter you could have eNectively stopped tthe bombings by warning me that you would tip off the FRI GPT didu't desist The veal reason why be i that you hat i! : urcentroiled conflicts concerning me, and your loving me does not prevent you From hating me at the same time. This. hatred has repeatedly Vevealed itself in your behavior toward me over the years. And ihat you hate me for is your own gnawing Sense of infect atitpe eae | Suspicion “hat I was the unabomber at last __— gave you your epportunity to gef a crushing revenge on big brotrer for being smarter and more capable than you are, While maintaining thei liiaion Nat Yawn batives Swere “macal” _ OF coucse, you will not accept tae truth about your own motives T know from long experience that it is useless to reason with you where your emotions are invetved, because you will resort to any Sort of rationalfzation, — ho matter how Fec-fetched, te caveid Facing a up to difficult truths. You wear a kindof veil ouer your motives te Keep yourself from being conscious of them, and it is this veil Daves - “ Tf there was ever any doubt about —- the fact thet your turning me _in_ was —— motivated by your hatred of me, thet. doubt has eae removed by your interviews that appeared in the New York Times and on 60 Minutes. Se In those interviews you portrayed_me_ as mentally ill. Did you really believe — T was so% Hardly. In the past. you have_ denied the very existence of mental ae iMness. J have proof of this in the letters you weete me concerning Joel _ Schwartz. Were you trying to “Save" me Prom the death penalty by providing me with an insanity defense? Jf that had been your motive you wowd have , emphasized the fact that I was subjected to verbal and ptychologicel abuse, whick you know is true and which would — have helped my defense. Insteas, you lie and denied that T had suffered such abuse, -even though you are well _ aware Clive made it clear to. you in_ various letters) that the acknowledgement. of that abuse was desperatel ae imac ae is wn ee of nes peer tt “Thou you. rate admit |___ yourself ta ata dong sade dial | were tn Plieti acute Suffering on me making the pu lre__ statements that you — Aid, “and you were doing it ieee hate me on _account_of Reelings of inferiority aoe nell ee relative To me.

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