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OUT OF THE RAIN

JANET MERRITT

To my husband Rick For always being there

And

In Loving Memory Of

Merle Merritt (1932-1982)

Whose kind heart and unconditional love will be forever missed

Out of the Rain copyright 2013 Janet Merritt Cover photograph by Janet Merritt

This is a work of fiction and entirely the imagination of the author. Any resemblance to any person or persons either living or deceased,or places, events or locales is purely coincidental.

Chapter 1

Kane Stewart stood watching the rain. The forecast had predicted thunder showers for the afternoon, but as usual the skies had ignored modern meteorological technology and began storming several hours earlier. Another dreary day. Kane swallowed. A few people, a woman and two men were huddled just outside his storefront window, taking refuge from the morning downpour. His mens shop, Stewarts Tailoring was one of the few stores on this side of the street that had an awning, so he suspected that if the rain continued for much longer the small group outside would soon turn into a party. He sighed and made a face. The rain was now coming down harder. The asphalt pavement outside awash with at least a half inch of rain as it flowed in a torrential rush down the street. Already large puddles had gathered alongside the road, the gutters unable to deal with the sudden deluge. He could see people jumping up onto the sidewalk trying to avoid getting their expensive shoes wet. Kane doubted that despite their efforts there was a dry foot to be found. He glanced back at the people outside and noticed that two more had joined the club. Two women, and they were both holding coffee cups. The pale blue logo stamped on the side of the large cups clearly identifying the trendy coffee and pastry shop that was just half a block down from his. Kane imagined he could smell the freshly brewed aroma of the coffee beans, but when he turned his head toward the tiny screened opening in his shops outside door all he could smell was the rain. A loud crack of thunder boomed and one of the women outside screamed. Kane rolled his eyes. He could use a cup of java about now, a dark roasted blend, something full bodied and rich. Or, maybe considering the drab weather, hed prefer one of those fancier specialty coffees, one with caramel perhaps. Whichever, it didnt matter. Hed probably lose the urge for the coffee by the time the storm cleared and the growing group of people outside moved on.
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He had things to do before he opened his doors for business. Kane started to turn from the window when something across the street caught his eye. He glanced back and saw a woman standing on the curb directly across from his shop. There was nothing special about her. Just some lady trying to get to work like everyone else in the middle of an unexpected downpour. Except Kane couldnt take his eyes from her. She stood stock still. Her only movement, her head as she turned it slowly from side to side. To Kane she looked forlorn. Lost among a sea of people, all trying desperately to get out of the rain. And like most, she wasnt carrying an umbrella. He saw her glance down at something in her hand, and then turn back toward the shoe store that was opposite his. She turned back to face the street again and once more looked down at what was in her hand. Kane saw the woman frown. She took a few steps to her right and then returned to the exact spot where shed been only moments ago. Thats when she lifted her head and stared straight across the street and into Kanes eyes. Kane sucked in a breath and jerked back. The woman didnt appear to take any notice of his movement and with an unreasonable sense of disappointment he realized that the woman wasnt looking at him, but was trying to make out the numbers on his shop window. She was searching for an address. The woman was lost. Kane raised a hand and waved it. At first his waving didnt catch the womans eye, but it did attract the attention of one of the men standing outside. The man looked from the shop window to the street, and then back again. A few seconds later, Kane heard a loud whistle and then a shout. Hey, over here.

Amber Heath cringed as a loud whistle and shout reached her ears. She pressed her lips together, blinking slowly as she averted her eyes from the two men who were waving frantically at her from across the street.
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She ignored them both. She knew she wasnt in any immediate danger. She was far enough away from the edge of the curb so she wouldnt get clipped by a racing courier on bike, or get splashed with dirty rainwater from a passing truck. And if by any chance there was a purse snatcher out in this torrential rain, hed be vastly disappointed when he got a look at what was inside her purse. Nothing. Nothing at all. No money, no credit cards, not even a few coins rattling around in the corners of the liner, and definitely no drivers license, or any other piece of identification. Thunder rumbled overhead, thankfully blocking out the shouts from the man across the street. She needed a moment of peace. A second to focus. Amber looked toward the street lights at the corner. She squinted trying to make out the lettering on the bright yellow street sign, but with the skies darkening even more in what was left of the morning light, she couldnt see squat. Amber took a breath. She shivered as a gust of wind blew a cold sheet of rain into her face. She glanced back toward the shop across the street and noticed that the man whod been standing in the window had disappeared. She wondered briefly where the guy had gone and wished that hed taken the other guy with him. The man was persistent in his shouting. Amber took another deep breath. Men. Another distraction she didnt need at the moment. She was trying to get a handle on the situation. She looked back at the piece of paper in her hand. By this time the pink slip was thoroughly soaked and the green ink that the name, address and telephone number that shed carefully jotted down had started to run. Was that last digit an eight or a nine in the telephone number? And was the mans name she was supposed to meet with Paul or Raul? Amber shoved the paper into her jacket pocket. She was running out of options. She was totally and completely screwed. Lost, soaked to the skin and to make matters worse, her stomach had begun to growl, and loudly. She looked back across the street. The man had finally stopped waving at
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She looked back across the street. The man had finally stopped waving at her, and returned his attention back to the other women in the small group. Good. Amber wiped the rain dripping off her chin with the back of her hand. She looked around for a phone booth. Obviously she had written the address of the accounting firm down wrong because there was no way that the street number in the address came anywhere near the numbers on this block of shops. She hoped the phone booth would have a phone book. With her luck shed only find a dangling chain. The man in the shop was back at the window. The top of his head only a few inches below the shops name. Stewarts Tailoring. Amber waited a moment to see if hed wave at her again. He didnt. He instead held up a cardboard sign in front of his chest. NEED DIRECTIONS? Amber huffed. Did she ever. She nodded. He gave her a smile and gestured with his chin for her to come over. Amber wet her lips and swallowed. She headed for the street corner. There was no way she was going to jaywalk. The way things were going for her, shed get busted by some traffic cop, and the cost of a ticket was the last thing she could afford.

Kane already had the door to his shop opened before the woman had a chance to reach for the door handle. The tinkling of the shop bell echoed through the empty shop as he quickly closed the door behind her. Thanks, she said. Kane smiled. Think nothing of it. You looked pretty lost out there. He moved around her. She pressed her lips together. She didnt smile back at him. Come in. He motioned with his hand as he turned away. What address are you looking for?
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When the woman didnt reply, he glanced over his shoulder. She hadnt moved. She was still standing only inches into his shop. He watched her look around. Taking in the cash desk, the walls of mens suit coats and dress pants, the tables of shirts and ties. The hardwood flooring, the mahogany armchairs scattered around the shop, the marble fireplace, and finally him. He saw her swallow and glance down at the large half oval welcome mat she was standing on. There were dark wet blotches forming on the mat in a perfect circle around her. Kane smiled again. Oh, dont worry about the floor. People are always tracking in mud. Ive got one of those fancy gizmos in the back. You know the type that you squirt cleaning fluid onto the floor with the click of a button and then mop it up with a dry cleaning sheet. She looked up at him and said nothing. Kane felt his chest tighten. Watching her out on the street standing in the pouring rain, she looked like any other lady. Standing before him now, he realized that she was far younger than hed thought and far, far more prettier. Her green eyes continued to watch him. Then in a soft voice she gave him the address shed been looking for. Kane nodded and grinned. Hey, youre not the first one to get that address confused. Ever since city council decided to amalgamate with the neighbouring townships, its been a real problem for people needing to find that address. Kane stopped speaking when he saw her frown. He quickly added. There were a lot of duplicate street names, and the street youre looking for was one that got renamed. The woman pressed her lips together. Her green gaze was fixed on him, but she didnt offer him a smile or nod. Exactly how old was she? She looked no more than eighteen, twenty tops. Too young for him. Thats the old Dobb Building. Mostly a doctors building now, with a few shops on the lower level. A pharmacy and a gift shop. Although if I remember, theres some office space on the upper levels. A lawyers office, an accounting
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theres some office space on the upper levels. A lawyers office, an accounting firm, a real estate agent and an insurance company. Oh, and also a travel agency. They have beautiful posters of exotic, faraway places displayed in the window. Kane knew that he was talking too much. He always rambled when he was nervous, and this lady was definitely making him squirm. You got some doctors appointment? Or perhaps a meeting with a divorce attorney? He shook his head. Never mind, none of my business. Job interview. Really? Kane glanced at his watch. It was a quarter to nine. When he looked back at her he was momentarily distracted by a raindrop that was clinging to the end of one of her eyelashes. Was it even possible for a woman to have such long and thick lashes that werent fake? He mentally shook himself. Are you going to be late? He watched her glance toward the antique clock on the shelf behind the cash desk. An hour fifteen. Kane made a face. Oh man, thats not right. They should have given you a call when they noticed that you hadnt shown up. Do you have a cellphone? The woman shook her head. Do you have the telephone number? I saw you looking at something in your hand out there. I assumed it was an address. She nodded at him. Great. Give it to me and Ill give them a call. Ill explain that youre here in my shop and that you got lost. Thats not necessary. Kane frowned. Of course it is. You shouldnt be penalized just because city council couldnt come up with a new street name for the old Dobb Building. Ill just explained that with the address confusion, the rain...and now you standing here talking to me, you were unable to make your interview. Ill explain all this and get them to book you another time. Really, its okay. I dont need- The job? Obviously you do or you wouldnt have applied for it. Kane held out his hand for the number. Im sure when I explain the situation theyll be
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out his hand for the number. Im sure when I explain the situation theyll be happy to give you another chance. The woman closed her eyes and took a breath and then began to release it slowly. Kane frowned. What was she doing? Then he clued in. Was she actually counting? Yes, yes she was, she was counting to...ten. She opened her eyes and stared at him. He kept his mouth tightly shut. You dont need to do anything. Im... She glanced again at the clock. An hour and ten minutes early. My interview isnt until ten oclock. Kane released the breath he hadnt realized hed been holding. Well thats...thats really good. Itll give me plenty of time to get you out of your clothes. He heard the woman draw in a breath. She raised an eyebrow at him. Kane felt his mouth go dry. The sudden look in her widening green eyes was rather daunting. Maybe she was older than he thought she was. Your wet clothes, he quickly amended, and into something dry. Youre kind of a mess. He grimaced. And I hate to tell you this, but it looks like you have gum in your hair.

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Chapter 2

Amber was afraid to look into the full length mirror in the changing room of Stewarts Tailoring. She knew that the mans comment about her being a mess was a complete understatement. At best she probably looked like a drenched cat. At worse, well she didnt really want to think about how bad she looked. At least she hadnt worn any mascara. Not that she had any to put on to be begin with. You okay in there? Peachy, Amber replied. She heard the guy give her a chuckle. Nice to know someone was getting a laugh out of this. She certainly wasnt. She listened, expecting to hear the heels of his expensive leather shoes clicking on the polished hardwood planks as he walked away. She didnt hear anything. Didnt the guy have work to do? Like straightened an out of place suit coat, an uneven pair of trousers, or for that matter an unruly tie? No? She didnt thinks so. Like the man himself, Stewarts Tailoring was immaculate. Nothing out of place. Not one speck of dust on the gleaming floorboards, not a wayward shirt in need of buttoning, or, in his case a stray hair that required a touch of spit to keep in place. Amber sighed. The guy looked like he had just walked off the pages of some glossy magazine. The type she only ever got a chance to look through while sitting in a doctors waiting room, or, more often than she liked to acknowledge, a hospitals emergency admittance area. He was certainly good looking enough to grace the pages of a high end magazine for mens fashion. Not like her. She looked exactly like who she was, a total loser. Amber sighed again and began to unbuttoned her borrowed blazer. Peeling the soaked garment from her shoulders, she shivered as a blast of cool air coming from the overhead air conditioning vent blew onto her bare arms.
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The urge to squeeze the excess water out of the blazers sleeves was strong, but she thought better when she took a quick glance at the hardwood floor. Small puddles were beginning to gather around her feet. She instead hung the jacket on a metal coat hook that was attached to the back of the changing room door. By the way, my names Kane, Kane Stewart. Amber didnt reply. She turned to her empty purse, where shed placed it on a hardback wooden chair when shed first come into the changing room. Now she unzipped the bag and then began to unhook her belt from her skirt. Carefully bending the worn belt in half and then in half again, Amber made sure that the tiny leather pouch that was secured to the outside of the belt by a leather strap attached to its back, was still zipped closed. She gave the pouch a light reassuring pat before shoving the belt into her purse and zipping it closed. And you are? Again Amber didnt answer. She was trying to concentrate on getting the skirt unhooked. It felt like the clasp was caught on a frayed piece of material or perhaps the backing of the zipper. Besides she really didnt like to talk to strangers. Hey, you dont have to tell me your name. Thats okay. I understand. Ill just think of you as my mystery lady who came in out of the rain to brighten up my dreary day. Amber stepped out of the skirt. She placed it beside her purse and started working on the buttons of the sleeveless blouse she was wearing. People call me Mr. Stewart. Well, not everyone. Just mostly the customers that come into the shop. I prefer Kane. More personable. Amber preferred, Mr. Stewart. She wasnt planning on getting personal. Although my family have a habit of calling me, Kis. Amber paused. Her fingers on the last button. Did she just hear him right? And I must say in the most inappropriate situations. Like, there once was this time where I- You mean, Kris? She heard him chuckle again. No, Kis, like in give me a big kiss. Only with one s. Amber made a face and removed the blouse. Her nipples instantly hardened
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Amber made a face and removed the blouse. Her nipples instantly hardened beneath the soaked material of her bra. Damn it was cold in here. She quickly unhooked her bra, put it on top of the blouse and reached for the shirt, Mr. Stewart, Kane, Kis, with only one s...whatever he called himself, had given her. She gave the charcoal coloured shirt an absentminded shake before shoving her cold arms into the sleeves, then frowned when she felt the smooth feel of the material sliding against her skin. She groaned. Damn, the man had given her a silk shirt. Amber shook her head. Great, just great. She better not lean up against anything and get a run in the silken material because she could barely afford the cost of the shirts collar or perhaps one cuff, let alone the cost of the entire garment. Anyway, I picked up the nickname quite early in life. My two older half brothers thought it a joke. Because they liked the rock band? Rock band? Well...no. They- Amber buttoned up the shirt. You dont like rock music? His reply was rushed. No, no. I like rock. In fact I like all kinds of music. Well...let me amend that. Heavy metal gives me a headache and I have a hard time picking up the lyrics to rap. I find country a little depressing at times, and as for pop, if the female voices werent so shrieky Id like it better. Of course here in the shop I usually play classical music or sometimes Ill put a jazz piece on, but no, my family calls me Kis because- As a kid you went around kissing all the little girls. No! Amber frowned. Maybe it was best she kept her panties on. They were nylon and besides they were almost dry. You dont like to kiss? She heard the guy cough roughly. What? Kiss? Yes, yes of course I like to kiss. I like being kissed. I kiss women all the time. All the time. Well...not all the time. Its actually been awhile since Ive last gone out on a date... Amber heard the guy pause. Was he taking a breath? She hoped so. In the ten minutes since shed stepped into his shop hed rattled off more words than she would utter in a whole day, probably two. She took down the saturated blazer and gathered the other wet clothes up
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She took down the saturated blazer and gathered the other wet clothes up into her arms. Come to think of it now, its been eight months. No... perhaps only seven. Its close to the end of May now...and Tracey Hugh and I helped to chaperon a Halloween dance over at the school, so I guess its been more like seven months since I last kissed a woman. Dont get much action do you? Amber pulled her purse up off the chair and slung it over her shoulder. No, no, I guess youre right. I dont. Not that I ever did. Amber doubted the guys statement. Kane Stewart was gorgeous. But what with work and all, I dont seem to have much time off. Especially now that Dads retired, I pretty much run the shop all by myself. Nights, weekends. My life these days seems to revolve around work. Amber wet her lips. Did she ever know about that reality. You wouldnt think that a tailor gets much business. What with all the ready-made suits in so many retail stores, but Im actually very busy. You get a plethora of men in need of suits? She reached for the latch on the changing room door. A plethora? The guy laughed. Well, maybe not, but I do get quite a few referrals from the local funeral parlour. Amber flung the changing room door open. Excuse me? She cried. You dress dead people?

Kane had to physically stop himself from allowing his jaw to drop at the sight of the woman as she exited his changing room. He swallowed hard. Well thats just creepy. She held out her soaked clothing toward him. You dont actually touch them do you? Kane opened his mouth to speak, but no words came out. He quickly averted his eyes. He should have given her a suit coat instead of a silk shirt. The now rather damp garment, which was incidentally clinging to her ample
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The now rather damp garment, which was incidentally clinging to her ample curves, had him rethinking his previous assumption. The woman was definitely, definitely older than hed first thought. And she had a body that most women spent a fortune on at the gym, or, on an operating table to attain. For a moment his mind conjured the incredible hot imagine of her in a bikini. A shocking pink, string bikini. One where the strap of the bath suit top had conveniently slipped down her arm and the cup of her bikini was starting to dip revealingHe heard the woman take an exasperated breath. Kane wet his lips. He looked back at her. She was looking at him expectantly. What had he been saying? Oh, yeahthe dead. No, no. I have no contact with the dead body. He shook his head. I mean, with the deceased. Usually someone from the immediate family comes in with an old suit coat and a pair of pants. She nodded at him. Or, in most cases, they just give me an idea of the mans height and weight. And you can make a suit from only that info? Its not that hard. You must be really good. Kane shrugged. Thats what I do. Im a tailor. I cut suits all the time. Take for instance you. I didnt need your measurements to know that a fourteen inch collar would fit you just fine. The womans green eyes widened. She gave him another daunting look, just like she had before. Kane frowned when he saw her shiver and cross her arms over her chest. Again Kane swallowed and dropped his eyes to the floor. He noticed that shed removed her shoes and was now standing in her bare feet. Didnt all women paint their toenails? She wriggled her toes and Kane inwardly groaned. He snapped his eyes back to her face. Why dont you go sit by the fireplace? Its gas so it should be generating
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Why dont you go sit by the fireplace? Its gas so it should be generating heat by now. I turned off the air conditioning, although it will take a few minutes before it stops pumping out cold air. He took the bundle of wet clothes from her. She gave them up easily. He noticed that she didnt hand over her purse. Do you have a pair of scissors? The woman was kidding, right? He was a tailor. What did she think he cut the material for his suits with, a razor blade? Well, come to think about it, he had several of those too. I take it you want a pair small enough to tackle that gum still tangled in your hair? He watched her take a breath. Would be nice, she said. Its green, by the way. Thanks for the update. Kane wondered if the woman was being sarcastic, or if she was just replying to his statement. Her bland expression was hard to read. Sure, no problem, but please dont ask me to help you. I may be great with a pair of scissors, but Im definitely no barber. I wouldnt want you to end up looking like some puffed up poodle in some dog show. She gave him another look, this time her eyes narrowed. She stared at him for a long moment, then she turned and began to head toward the front of his store. Kane heard her murmur. Wouldnt think of it. Suddenly feeling like hed just been dismissed or perhaps snubbed, he glanced down at the bundle of wet clothing still in his hands. He saw the lacy bra sitting on the top of the pile, and swallowed. Would you like a cup of coffee? he asked. He set her clothes down on his cutting table, and reached for a couple of wooden hangers. The woman didnt answer. Hoping that she just couldnt hear him, and wasnt intentionally ignoring him, Kane picked up the blazer shed been wearing. A cotton, polyester blend. Something that would dry fairly fast. Because if you do, there is a fantastic little coffee and pastry shop just down the street. They make the most amazing...
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Still no reply. He hung the jacket on a hanger and flicked on the industrial size fan he used to dry his more delicate fabrics, like silk. He picked up the skirt shed been wearing and frowned as he felt a hard object beneath his left hand. He glanced down and noticed that a huge safety pin had been stuck into one side of the skirt. No waittwo safety pins, one on each side. Kanes frown increased. Why would there be safety pins in a skirt? Unless. He quickly looked at the sizing label. Just as he expected, the skirt was at least two or three sizes too big for the womans small figure. Kane took a closer look at the garment. The waistband was frayed and there was a tiny tear just right of the skirts zipper. He hung up the garment onto a pant hanger and reached for her sleeveless blouse. He took a look at the label. Again the sizing was way off, and the blouse, even still fairly wet, was conspicuously stained around the nipple area, as well as the left shoulder. Breast milk and baby spit up. Had the woman recently given birth? Hed spent enough time over the years preparing baby bottles for his nephew and nieces to recognize the tale tell signs of the affects on clothing while feeding an infant. Kane brought the blouse to his face. He sniffed. The garment smelled clean, yet there was a faint hint of perfume. The woman hadnt been wearing perfume. He knew because he would have smelled it, hed been standing that close to her when shed first came into his shop. Kane hung the blouse up and then the ladys bra. He refrained from taking a peek at the bra sizing. It stood to reason. The sizing of the clothes and her upcoming job interview. The woman had obviously lost some weight after the birth of her child, and was now looking to go back to work. He hadnt noticed that she was wearing a ring, though. But that didnt
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He hadnt noticed that she was wearing a ring, though. But that didnt matter, a woman didnt need to be married to have a baby. Kane sighed. A woman taken. Just his luck.

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Chapter 3

Amber could hear Kane babbling on about coffee and a pastry shop. She choose not to answer his offer for coffee. The thought of a gooey pastry made her stomach growl painfully. She grimaced remembering that she hadnt had anything to eat since yesterday around two. Over eighteen hours ago. She put her purse down on the floor behind an overstuffed armchair by the fireplace. The warmth emanating from the fireplace heater felt good on her bare legs. Kanes voice suddenly stopped. Amber glanced over her shoulder expecting him to appear out of the short hallway that lead to the back of the shop. When he didnt, she glance around. There must be a mirror around here somewhere. She spotted one over by a table of ties. It was a stand-up kind and was tilted in the exact position so that a man could match up a shirt and tie without having to put both on. She ambled over to the tie table. The ties were all silk and very, very expensive looking. Amber refrained from reaching out and touching any. Kanes voice started up again. Amber gave a derisive chuckle. The guy couldnt keep quiet for more than a few seconds, could he? Anyway, he was saying, it will only take me a couple of minutes to pop down to the shop. Depending upon how busy it is, I should be back in a flash. Amber took a deep breath. No, thank you. She called loud enough so he could hear her. Its really no trouble. I was thinking about getting myself a cup before I spotted you standing across the street. I usually dont drink coffee this early in the day, but-
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Amber heard his footsteps before she saw him. Really, no. Kane paused and glanced in her direction. Sorry, I expected you to be by the fireplace. Hey, look, the rain has stopped, so I wont even get wet. As I said, it will only take me a second. You look like you could use a cup of coffee. Amber bit her lip. I dont drink coffee. Her negative response didnt faze him. Thats okay. The shop has plenty of different varieties of tea. Orange pekoe, green, herbal, and if I remember the menu correctly, they also have an assortment of flavoured teas. I dont drink tea either. That stopped him. He gave her a wry smile. You do drink water, dont you? Tap water. Well, I have plenty of that. In the bathroom, but I wouldnt recommend you drink from the sink tap. Im sure the shop has bottled water. There was no stopping the guy, so Amber relented. Fine, bottled water. Amber reached out to pick up the mirror. Did you get me the- Ill get that for you. Kane hurried over and grabbed the mirror before she could even lay a finger on it. Where do you want it? On the cash desk? Theres a stool in the back. Ill go get it, so you can have a seat. Not necessary. He tilted the mirror upward a touch more. I hope these scissors are what youll need. He held up a tiny pair of the silvered instrument. Theyre the smallest I have. Amber walked over to stand in front of the cash desk. Theyll do fine. Kane looked at her and smiled. Good. He placed the scissors beside the mirror. Ill lock the shop door so that no one will bother you. He reached under the counter and ripped a piece of paper towel from a roll that was stashed behind the desk. He put the towel on the counter and gestured with his hand. Theres a garbage pail back here. I hope you dont have to cut very much hair off. Thats a really big wad of gum. Amber doubted very much that what was in her hair was actually gum. Gum
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Amber doubted very much that what was in her hair was actually gum. Gum was a luxury. Anyway, Ill leave you to it. He smiled again. A second or two later he was locking up the front shop door. He gave her a wave before he headed off. When Kane was out of sight Amber let out a long sigh of relief. She walked around the cash desk and reluctantly looked into the mirror. As she suspected, it wasnt gum, but something just as bad. She reached up and pulled out the wooden spikes that were holding what was left of her once neat and tidy bun. Her hair tumbled down over her shoulders in a thick wavy mass. Except for a large clump of hair that stood out conspicuously on the left side of her head, close to her forehead. Amber surveyed the damage. She chewed the inside of her cheek. Okay, how was she going to fix this?

Kane was only gone a couple of minutes but by the time he returned to his shop, unlocked the door and stepped over the threshold, the woman was gone. Kane felt a rush of panic. He wasnt concerned about the mystery lady robbing the shop, since he hadnt had a chance to open the safe and put the cash tray into the till. Not that there would have been very much money in the tray. Most of his customers preferred to paid by credit card. No, the panic he felt rising in his chest stemmed from the fear that shed hurriedly put her wet clothes back on and hightailed it outta there. It wouldnt be the first time a woman ditched him. He knew he tended to yammer on way, way too much. A nervous habit that he couldnt seem to stop. Especially around beautiful women. Whats in the bag? Kanes breath gushed out of him. She hadnt left. She was still in his shop. He looked toward the direction of her voice and saw her sitting in an armchair by the fireplace. Her legs were curled up underneath her. Danish pastries. Kane came forward with a cardboard tray of coffee cups and a bottle of water. He set the tray down on a small triangle style table between
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and a bottle of water. He set the tray down on a small triangle style table between the two armchairs. He handed her the water. She took it and set the bottle on the floor beside her chair. He noticed that she didnt open it. I hope you dont mind, but I got you a cup of hot chocolate. I know, I know, I was taking a chance, but I thought what the hell. Its a pretty dreary day and...you probably dont drink hot chocolate too, but- Thank you. Kane paused. He smiled. Hot chocolates a winner? He gave her a thumbs up. She gave him a nod. A warmth spread through Kanes chest. He opened the coffee and pastry shop paper bag and reached in. I see that you gave yourself bangs. The woman lifted her hand to her forehead and feathered a few strands of her dark hair through her fingers. I did the best I could under the circumstances. Kane swallowed. She did better than best. If it was at all possible, she looked even more prettier now. He took out a wad of napkins from the top half of the bag and placed them on the table. He held the bag out toward her. He saw her hesitate, then she picked up a napkin and reached in and withdrew one of the Danishes. He put the bag on the table and gestured toward the tray of cups. Theyre both hot chocolate, so take whichever one you want. Im going to go check on your clothes. Ill be back in a minute. It had only taken him a few seconds to ensure that her clothes were drying well. When he returned he found her sitting with her feet now on the floor and a cup in her hands. He smiled as he sat in the armchair across from her. The Danish shed taken was resting on the napkin in her lap. There was only a tiny bite out of the side. Kane frowned. Didnt she like Danishes? Then he paused.
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Hey, wait a minute. Wasnt the one shed pulled out of the bag earlier a lemon one? The one on her lap, the one with the bite out of it, was definitely cherry. Did she put the lemon one back and take another one? Or was the one in her lap, her second? If it was, what did she do with the first, inhale it? She couldnt have chewed it because he wasnt gone that long. Then again she could have stashed the pastry in her purse. He glanced around. He didnt see her purse anywhere. He looked back at her. She was staring at her cup. Amber. Kane shook himself. Excuse me? She looked up at him. My name is Amber. Amber Heath. Kane felt the warmth that had spread to his chest arrow toward his gut. He gave her a smile. Its nice to meet you, Amber.

The lemon Danish felt like a lead weight in her stomach. She knew she shouldnt have eaten so fast, but Amber was just so, so very hungry. She took a sip of the hot chocolate. It tasted so incredibly rich and creamy that Amber closed her eyes for a moment to savour the still piping hot liquid. Kane was talking, again. Asking her about how she liked her hot chocolate, and was she going to take another bite of her Danish? Then he was rambling on about the coffee and pastry shop, the people hed stopped to talk too, and of course about how the weather had suddenly cleared. Amber kept her eyes closed and concentrated on the deep and husky tones of his voice, and not on his words. Her stomach growled. Amber opened her eyes and looked at Kane to see if hed heard. He just smiled at her and took a drink of his own beverage. He hadnt taken a Danish for himself. She lifted the cherry Danish to her mouth and took a bite.
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Danishes werent her favourite pastry. In fact she really didnt like them at all. But her stomach rumbled, demanding more. She quickly chewed and took another bite. Would you like another one? Amber licked her lips. She glanced down and realized that shed polished off the cherry Danish too. Dont be shy, I bought plenty. Amber bit her lip. Kane sent her a wink. Amber grabbed the coffee and pastry shop bag and reached in again. You know, she said in way of distracting Kane from noticing that she was devouring the now blueberry Danish almost as quickly as she had the cherry one. You never did tell me why your family calls you, Kis, with only one s? Kane smiled. Well, thats quite a story, but the gist of it is, is that my initials spell Kis. So your middle name begins with an I? Yep. Isaac? Nope. I could be here all day guessing. Kanes smile widened. He was now grinning at her. Amber suspected that thats exactly what hed like her to do. Spend her whole day guessing, so she decided to speed things up. Just tell me. Iris. Like the flower? Spelling, yes, but I pronounce it, Irus. Amber nodded. Then she shrugged. I dont get the connection. Kane laughed. Youre not supposed too. She frowned. Kane continued. My mothers grandfathers name was Russell. When he was a kid he was blinded in the left eye by a slingshot rock. Thats terrible. Kane nodded. Anyway, he wore an eye patch and the other children made fun of him and call him names. Eyeless Russ. One eyed Russ. There were
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fun of him and call him names. Eyeless Russ. One eyed Russ. There were numerous others, but by the time hed reached his teens, Iris had become the most prevalent. Amber wet her lips. Not such a bad nickname. Kane took another drink of his hot chocolate. It was a moment before he spoke again. My mother wanted to name me after her grandfather, but my father has a brother named Russ, so they compromised and decided to give me my greatgrandfathers nickname. I was six when he died, but I remember him pretty well. He was a fascinating man. Amber opened her mouth to say something, but a sharp rap on the glass window of the shops door stopped her.

Kane turned his head. He leaned further around the armchair and waved a hand dismissively at the person who had his face pressed up to the glass. The face frowned and then turned away. When Kane looked back at Amber, he saw she was carefully brushing a few crumbs off of the shirt hed given her. I really should be going, she said. Kane glanced at his watch. Was it time for her to leave already? His watch read 9:28. Kane swallowed his disappointment. Im keeping you from your customers. Kane frowned, then he clued in. Him? He gestured toward the front shop door with his thumb as Amber stood up. He stood up too. He wasnt a customer. She looked at him, then put her cup down on the triangle table. That was my nephew, Craig. Actually, technically, hes my half nephew. Hes looking for a summer job, and I promised Hank, my oldest half brother, that Id show his kid around. Amber smiled at him and then bent to retrieve her purse. Kane sighed. He didnt want her to leave. Ill go with you, he blurted.
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Amber froze. When she straightened, her purse was suddenly clutched to her chest. She gave him a sharp, direct look. To the changing room? Her voice held a good measure of wariness. Kane guffawed. What? No, no, but I do need to get you your clothes. I hope theyre dry by now. Kane noted that Amber relaxed slightly. Kane continued talking.I was, however, thinking about walking with you to the old Dobb Building. You know, showing you the way, so that you dont get lost. I wouldnt want you to be late for your interview. Kane watched Amber wet her lips. A tense filled moment passed between them. That would be...nice, thank you. She finally said with a nod. Kane gave her a half smile. She gestured toward the back of the shop. Ill just... Kane snapped to attention. Yeah, sure, come on.

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Well that was a colossal waste of time. Amber frowned as she opened the accounting firms door and stepped out into the old Dobb Buildings second floor hallway. A six hour drive, a night spent sleeping in the backseat of her car, a thorough drenching from an unexpected downpour, and an unpleasant episode with a pair of scissors had all been for not. Paul, oh yeah, his name had been Paul, had kept her waiting for over an hour before he finally found the time to agree to see her. He blamed his receptionist for the mix up over Ambers intended interview. Amber wasnt impressed. Even if the jerk hadnt rejected her qualifications outright, Amber doubted very much that she would have taken any position, Paul had to offer her. She was desperate for money, but not that desperate. The hallway was deserted, but Amber could hear the soft sounds of music, country music emanating from an opened doorway just down the hall. Amber headed toward the stairs. As she passed the office where the music was coming from, a voice called out. I hope you didnt take the job. Amber stopped and looked through the open doorway. She didnt say anything, but she did glance around at the beautiful posters plastered against one wall. A smile came to Ambers lips. The travel agency that Kane Stewart, no, Kis had told her about. That Paul is such a sleazebag. A pretty girl like you, I bet he spent the whole time he was interviewing you staring at your tits. Amber didnt know if she should be shocked or amused. Paul had indeed done exactly what the voice had said. The owner of the voice appeared around the door. In his mid to late sixties, she guessed, the man was medium height with light
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In his mid to late sixties, she guessed, the man was medium height with light brown hair that in several places had turned completely white. His moustache and neatly trimmed beard gave the elderly gentlemen a most dapper appearance. He smiled and held out a hand. Jeremy Dixon. Amber wet her lips. She took his hand. Amber Heath. Well, Miss Amber. He raised an eyebrow at her. He gave her hand a solid shake. You havent answered my question. The job? No. Jeremy Dixon sighed in relief. Good. Amber swallowed. It didnt matter, I wasnt qualified anyway. The elderly gentlemen gave her a mock grimace. I find that highly unlikely. Hand it over. Amber stared at him. He wiggled the fingers of his right hand. Again he raised an eyebrow at her. Come on, let me see. Amber frowned. Oh, stop pestering the girl. Amber jumped at the sound of another voice. It was directly behind her. Amber turned. A woman, in the same age range as Jeremy stood smiling up at her. The woman held a tray with two cups. The logo stamped on the side of the cups was the same as the hot chocolate Kane had purchased earlier. I am not pestering the girl, Birdie. The woman walked around Amber and came to stand beside the man. She looked at Amber with a critical eye. Im Beatrice Dixon, Jeremys wife, but everyone calls me, Birdie. You must be, Amber, and you are as pretty as Kis said you were. Amber frowned. She glanced nervously behind her. Thankfully Kane Stewart was not lurking nearby. What had the guy done, followed her? She hadnt known what to say to the man after hed walked her to the old Dodd Building. Hed practically talked her ear off. Barely taking the time to take a breath as they had walked the block and a half to the address that had been on her soaked pink piece of paper.
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So shed thanked him for his kindness, shook his hand and then quickly left him standing out on the sidewalk as shed hurried inside the building. You know Kane Stewart? Know Kis? Both of the Dixons answered at the same time. My dear, that boy is practically family. Birdie smiled. For years. He and his father are the only ones I trust to make my suits, Jeremy said. He ran a hand down his finely tailored suit coat. Amber gave the two a forced smile. She hoped that Kane wasnt still downstairs standing out on the sidewalk. She didnt want to have to have the stalker talk with the man. Jeremy was again wiggling his fingers at her. Your CV, my dear. Let me have a look. Amber shook herself. Shed completely forgotten that Paul, the sleazebag, Paul had given her back a printed copy of the resum that shed included as an attachment to her application for the job. She immediately handed her resum over to Jeremy. He took it, then turned to pick up a pair of wire framed glasses from a desk behind him. He slipped them on. Birdie set the tray of coffee cups down on the same desk. She took a peek around her husbands shoulder. Amber swallowed. She suddenly felt like she was back in the interview room. Both Jeremy and Birdie were frowning. Amber chewed nervously on the inside of her cheek. Im not surprised, Jeremy finally stated. At least he could have given you a chance. Amber looked from Jeremy and Birdie, then to her CV. She knew that her qualifications to work in an accounting office were rather dismal. Shed only completed two college courses in accounting, but shed gotten excellent grades and the job shed applied for was only for a receptionist. And according to Pauls disparaging comments about his current receptionist, Amber figured she couldnt have done much worse than the other woman. Amber heard Birdie cluck her tongue. The elderly woman shook her head and then reached for a notepad on the desk. As she began to scribble something on the top sheet of paper, she said.
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As she began to scribble something on the top sheet of paper, she said. Heres the name of two places that are always in need of employees. Id recommend the first one, but the second one is just as respectable. She tore off the sheet and handed it to Amber. Amber glanced at the paper. She noticed that neither of the names of the companies were for office work. Well, what did she expect? Even if she did get an office job, shed have to search for employment elsewhere. She needed more money than one minimum wage job plus benefits could provide her in order to survive. She folded the piece of paper and tucked it into the pocket of her blazer. Thank you. Dont thank me yet. You must promise me something first, Birdie demanded. Amber looked at the elderly woman. You must promise me that you wouldnt break Kiss heart. After what Susan did to him, I dont want to see the boy hurt again. Amber snorted. There was no way she was going to get involved with Kane Stewart. Not even a slim chance. She had no time for men. Especially one like Kane. Though she did briefly wonder who Susan was, and how she had hurt Kane? Amber finally answered Birdie. Thats something I can definitely guarantee you. Kane and I wont be seeing each other again.

After leaving the travel agency and Mr. and Mrs. Dixon, Amber headed once again toward the stairs. She had two job opportunities to investigate and she was burning daylight. As she passed a real estate office she stopped to take a look at a few listings that were posted on the glass window of the door. She wasnt looking to buy a house. There was no way that she could even afford the kitchen in one, but sometimes real estate offices posted houses that the owner was also advertising for rental. Amber hoped she would be in luck. She wasnt.
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Amber sighed. She took another look just to be sure. Her eyes skimmed over one particular home. A beautiful ranch style bungalow, with a wrap-around porch on an enormously sized lot. Her eyes returned to it again and again. It was a home that Amber could only dream about, and it had a red sold sticker plastered across the top left corner of the picture. On impulse Amber reached for the real estates door handle. Maybe a rental listing had come in that hadnt been posted yet. It was worth a try. The door was locked. Amber frowned and turned away. She headed once more for the stairs. With a sigh of relief, Amber noticed that Kane Stewart was nowhere in sight when she left the old Dodd Building. Amber quickly headed back to her car.

Amber was hungry. Again. It was a little after seven oclock in the evening and shed already eaten what was left of the Danishes that Kane had purchased earlier that morning. Hed insisted that she take the pastries along with her, since, Craig, his half nephew had upon his return come bearing gifts in the form of a bag filled with donuts and fritters. The bottle of water was also gone too. Amber was tired, cranky and still without a job. The two leads that Birdie Dixon had given her had been good prospects, but neither of the employers needed employees at the moment. Theyd both recently hired a team of college and university students for the summer. She was encouraged to try back in the fall. Amber couldnt afford to wait until the fall. She needed a job, preferably two before she headed back home. And she needed to get back quickly. She didnt relish the idea of spending another night camping out in her car. For one, her hair didnt need another encounter with the sticky, encrusted substance that shed encountered this morning. Two nights sleeping in her car. It was risky. She hoped she didnt get spotted
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Two nights sleeping in her car. It was risky. She hoped she didnt get spotted by a cop. Thats all she would need, a confrontation. Amber chewed the inside of her cheek. The house she was parked in front of still had no car in the driveway. It did however have a House For Rent sign in the front window. Shed driven around the small town three times, locating a grocery store, a pharmacy, another one besides the one in the old Dobb Building, a small sized home renovation store, a bank, and a couple of restaurants, but no other shops other than what was on the main street. Things werent very encouraging, but she had found an elementary public school, three blocks over from the house she was parked in front of. There didnt seem to be a high school, but that didnt mean that there wasnt one. Worse case scenario, the older kids could always be bussed to the nearest town that had one. No big deal. Amber glanced to the house again. It did look promising. She sure hoped so, since shed already looked at two others and neither of them came anywhere near being suitable. A car, a dark blue sedan suddenly pulled into the driveway. Amber quickly got out of her car. She hurried up to the man who was taking a bag out of the cars front seat. It was obviously take out. Excuse me. The man looked over his shoulder toward her. I know its late and you obviously are about to have your dinner, but could I possibly have a look at the house? Amber said in a rush. The man who was in his late fifties, possibly early sixties gave her a doubtful look. You want to rent the house? Amber looked up at the three level structure and nodded. The man looked her over from head to toe. Then he shrugged. He slammed the passenger side door shut. Sure come on in. He glanced at the bag he was holding. My wife can always warm this up later. Amber smiled. I really appreciate this. I would have called earlier, but I just happened to be driving by, and... The man shrugged again. He walked up to the front door. Its a big house.
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The man shrugged again. He walked up to the front door. Its a big house. You sure youll need this much room? Amber nodded. She would need every inch of space and probably more than the house could offer. The man reached for the handle and opened the door. Honey! He hollered. Theres a young lady here who wants to have a look at the house. A woman poked her head around the corner of what Amber thought was the dining room. Now? If you dont mind, Amber said quickly. I wont take up much of your time. The woman gave Amber a slight frown. Ill put this in the kitchen while you show her the upstairs. The woman nodded to the man and then came around the corner. Her frown turned to an unsure half smile. This way. The woman gestured to Ambers left. As Amber followed the woman up a set of carpeted stairs, she noticed that the wooden banister was worn in several places from many years of use. We have five bedrooms, plus the master. Amber said nothing. The woman came to the first door. She opened the door and the two of them stepped inside. Amber smiled. This level has three bedrooms and a bath. The level above has two bedrooms and a bath, along with the master. The master bedroom has its own private bath, a small walk-in closet and a balcony that faces the backyard. You getting married? Amber shook her head. No. She glanced around the room. It was decorated in shades of yellow and gold. One wall was lined with a bookshelf and there was a leather sofa and chair by the window. The woman headed out of the room and opened the door to one of the bedrooms across the hallway. This room was considerably bigger and Amber felt relief flood through her.
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Youre not planning on renting these rooms out, are you? Because if you are, this isnt the house for you. Again Amber shook her head. No, one family. The womans frown was back again. After a quick glance at the bathroom, they headed up the next flight of stairs. Are you a real estate agent? No. The woman didnt ask anymore questions as she showed Amber the other bedrooms and then moved onto the master bedroom and the private bath. The woman walked to a bank of windows and threw back the heavy curtains. Amber tried to hide a grin as she looked out onto a spacious balcony. This was going to be a winner. The woman opened the set of floor-to-ceiling doors, but she didnt step out onto the balcony. Neither did Amber. What youve shown me so far is magnificent. The woman nodded, then closed the doors. She headed out of the room. As Amber followed the lady paused at another door. This bathroom is slightly smaller than the one downstairs. Amber glanced in. The space was more than adequate. We have a powder room on the main floor. She gestured to a door beside the bathroom. This door leads to the attic. Amber thought quickly. Is there space up there to have perhaps another bedroom? The woman looked at Amber in sudden surprise. She nodded. The room used to be my husbands when he was a boy. Our boys used it as a sort of playroom, but, yes, the space is suitable for sleeping. Would you like to see it? Amber shook her head, although she was dying to see exactly how much space was truly up there. Its not necessary. You sure? Theres an extra bathroom up there. Well, just a shower stall and a toilet and sink, but theyre functional. A private bath? Amber almost salivated. You two about done? The man appeared at the end of the hallway. The woman looked to Amber. Yes, could I see the kitchen?
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Of course. Back on the main floor, after viewing the living room, the dining room, the kitchen, the finished basement, and even the backyard, complete with a tree house and a huge vegetable garden that the landowner had already begun to plant, Amber couldnt help but feel a strong sense of dread. The house was perfect. Too perfect. Shed never be able to afford the rent. So what do you think? the man asked. I love it? How much per month? The man named a price. Ambers stomach clenched. As she had suspected. Shed need a job and a half just to pay for the rent, plus a third one to pay for all the other expenses. That would include everything. Electricity, telephone, cable, and taxes. The house runs on oil and the tank was just filled. Amber hesitated. She wet her lips. And, the woman added, if youre still here in the winter, the guy on the other block has a snowplow attached to his pickup. Well include his fee in with the cost. Amber took a breath. All right. She was back down to only two jobs. Two jobs she didnt have. The man looked to his wife and then back at her. He gave her a smile. Amber looked around at the large kitchen. The stove and refrigerator were modern, and the room had plenty of cupboards with a door that lead to a good sized pantry. Amber chewed the inside of her cheek. The house also comes furnished, the woman announced. You can use whatever pieces you need, we just ask that you store what you dont need in the garage. Furnished? Well that just about did it. How much time do I have before you need me to give you an answer? The mans smile widened. How about the end of the week? Amber nodded. Sounds great. Would you like to stay and have a bite to eat? the woman asked suddenly. I know its just some take out from the local diner, not much. Ambers stomach growled. She started to shake her head.
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Please, the woman encouraged, Id like to find out a little more about you. Youre far too young to need a house of this size. Im sensing that you have a story to tell. Amber swallowed. Did she ever.

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Kane stood looking out at the street from his shop window. It was raining, again. A few people had gathered underneath his awning, coffee cups clutched in their hands. Others were scrambling to find cover, and the whoosh of truck and car tires on wet pavement echoed through the opened screen of his shops door. An almost carbon copy of the scene more than two weeks ago. The only difference was, it was now early evening instead of early morning and there was no forlorn looking woman standing across the street needing directions. Two weeks? Had it really been over two weeks since Amber Heath had been here in his shop? Kane sighed. Yes, it was. Two weeks, four days and, Kane glanced down at his watch, ten hours. Kane sighed again. He was counting. Man he was pathetic. Thinking about a woman who hed only known for like about forty minutes, two and a half weeks after shed slipped back into the mob of people going about their daily lives. But he was. Kane couldnt help himself. He wondered where she was? Had she found a job? He knew from the Dixons that Amber hadnt gotten the job shed interviewed for at the accounting firm. Kane couldnt say that he was sorry. Hed never liked Paul. Birdie Dixon, a lady who hed known for his entire life had reluctantly admitted that she had given Amber the names of a couple of potential employers. When hed asked for those names, Birdie had given him one of her sorrowful looks. Hed known what shed been thinking. And yes, he probably would if given the chance, make a complete and utter ass of himself over Amber Heath. But what choice did he have? Here he was, twenty-nine years old, unmarried, overworked and lonely, with
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Here he was, twenty-nine years old, unmarried, overworked and lonely, with very little to no prospect of ever finding a girlfriend. Or more to the point, finding a girlfriend that he would eventually want to ask to be his wife. So how did anyone expect a guy to react when a virtual goddess landed in his lap? Well figuratively anyway. There was no lap, but Amber was definitely a goddess, a jaw dropping babe if he ever saw one. Kane sighed again. What did it matter? Hed checked out the employers Birdie had handed over to him, but to no avail. He hadnt found Amber, and to add insult to his injured heart, hed gotten quite a few blank stares and even more dirty looks. So where did that leave him? Back at square one? Kane frowned. No, it left him actually further back. Five hundred kilometres, plus, or, somewhere around three hundred miles, thereabouts to be exact. That was roughly the distance between here and Hamilton, Ontario, where Ambers last job apparently was located. Jeremy Dixon, whod taken pity on him had divulged the location of Ambers most recent job listed at the top of her resum. Birdie had scowled at her husband, but Jeremy didnt apologize for slipping Kane that one small piece of information. So what had Amber done? Gone back to Hamilton? Or had she found other employment here in town? And even that begged the question. Why was Amber searching for employment in a small town, hundreds of miles away, when she could have just gotten another job in Hamilton which was a much bigger city? Kane hadnt a clue and from all indications he was never, ever going to find out. The click of one of the changing room doors opening and closing alerted Kane to the fact that hed better stop moping in front of his window. He stiffened when he heard the laughing voice of his older half brother. Eh, Bro. You still looking for lady-love? Kane grimaced before turning around. Damn Craig for opening his big mouth. Now every time any of his family saw him gazing off into space, they
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mouth. Now every time any of his family saw him gazing off into space, they automatically assumed that he was thinking about Amber. Well, he was, but they didnt need to know that fact. Naw. Kane shook his head. Just wondering if it will ever stop raining? Going on three weeks now. Hey, watch that mouth of yours. Willis Stewart scowled. Rain is good for business. Yeah, for you and mosquitoes. Now dont you be disparaging, The Berry Man. Ive got two kids, with one more on the way to put through college someday. Rain makes everything grow, so Ill take every last drop I can get. Kane rolled his eyes. Dont you be giving me that look. I can still whoop your ass, Kis boy. But Im the one holding the straight pins, Kane pointed out. So unless you want to be a human pincushion... Would you two give it a rest? Hank Stewarts deep voice boomed from inside one of the changing rooms. Dont make me come out there. It wont be a pretty sight. What you in your skivvies? Willis snorted. I already know that. Hank growled and told his younger brother to go stuff himself. Then he inquired. Is Craig back with the coffee yet? No, Kane answered. Aw, hell, hes probably talking to some girl. I dont know how he expects to bring home good grades in college when he thinks more with his dick than his head. Kane laughed. What do you expect? The kid is eighteen. Yeah, Hankie, Willis said. You remember what being eighteen was like, dont you? And it wasnt like you kept your equipment in your pants at that age either. The door to the changing room slapped against the wall as Hank flung it opened. I had hoped my son would show a little more restraint than I did at that age. Restraint? Willis snorted. I still dont think you have any restraint. Not when it comes to women.
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Yeah, yeah, Hank mocked. We all know, Willyton, that youre all Mr. Responsible. Well someone has to be. Hank huffed. Thats only because Ginny keeps you in line. Willis gave Hank a dry grin. Youre just jealous. Hank shrugged his broad shoulders. Hell, yeah. Hanks right, Will, youre lucky, Kane said. Id do practically anything to have a good woman like Ginny to keep me in line. Like that lady-love of yours? Craig said she was a real hot babe. Hank smirked. He turned to look at himself in the full length mirror between two of the changing rooms. Still no luck in finding her? Kane shook his head. He came to stand behind his oldest half brother. I cant even be sure that shes still in town. He knelt and grabbed the bottom of one of Hanks trouser legs. You could always head down to... Willis frowned. Where did you say she was from? Hamilton. They have a good football team. What does football have to do with anything? Willis scoffed. Nothing. Hank shrugged. Itd just be nice to see a professional game. We dont even have a high school here to have a football team. Kane finished pinning up both Hanks trouser legs. He moved onto Williss. Are you wearing these to the wedding? Kane rapped his knuckles against the toe of his half brothers left boot. Willis glanced down. If I can get away with it. Kane raised his eyebrows. What? Hey. Kane shrugged. Im not the one who is the best man for Larrys wedding. Worn old boots with manure coating the heels, may not be such a great choice. Willis laughed. Old Larrys gotten just a tad too fancy since hes become a flashy lawyer. Someone needs to remind him that it wasnt so long ago when he had to scrape cow crap off the bottom of his boots.
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Kane frowned. Aint that the truth, Hank said. Though I betcha hes real pleased to been squeezing himself into one of Kiss damned monkey suits, not like us. Kane swatted Williss leg with the back of his hand. Tuxedo. And like you, I hope to one day support a wife and family on the proceeds of these damned monkey suits. Concentrating on the cuff of Williss trouser leg had Kane missing the look that his two half brothers exchanged. A long silence followed. Kane finished pinning the last leg of Williss trousers. Have you decided where youre going to have the bachelor party? Not yet, Willis replied, answering Kanes question. Though I had thought we could check out that new bar they recently opened. The one they built out by the old train tracks. Ive heard that theyve got some seriously hot, and I mean, hot flesh out there. Some babe with dark hair and a killer body. Sounds interesting. Hank smiled. You want to come, Kis? Not really. Aw, come on, Willis pressured. Itll do you good. Kane got back to his feet. No, Ill pass. You may never find her. Kane glanced at Hank. He knew that his older half brother was probably right, he just didnt really want to entirely go down that road. He still had a grain of hope that Amber Heath would someday walk back into his life. Hank gave Willis another look. He gestured to Kane with his eyes. Willis picked up the silent signal. I really think you should come, Kis. Itll be good for you to blow off some steam. Kane swallowed. He knew that his brothers meant well. It was just...his heart wasnt into the bar scene. An imagine of Amber standing soaking wet at the door of his shop flashed in his mind. He wondered if shed let her bangs grow out again. Get your ass in gear, Kis, Willis said. Youre coming with us as soon as were finished here. Right, Hankie? Kis is coming with us.
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Hank nodded. Yes. Kane shook his head. You two go. Willis frowned, then he glanced down at his feet. Hey, Kis, you need glasses? You made the cuffs way too short. Not for a pair of dress shoes. Aw, really? Yes, really. Now straighten up. I need to have a look at your jacket. Willis made a face. Hank laughed. Just do as he says. The faster you let him do his work, the faster we can get out of these straight jackets. Willis straightened, then almost immediately began to squirm. Man, Kis, he complained, this shirt feels like Im wearing sandpaper. Yeah, Kis, dont you have anything softer. Kane laughed. Yeah...silk, but I dont recommend you wear a silk shirt on a hot July day. Youll be sweating like a pig and then itching like youve gotten into poison ivy. Hank scowled. Why did Larry have to have a big church wedding, anyway? He should have just gone to the Justice of the Peace. A lot less trouble and expense. Hank sent his brother a warning look. Willis ignored Hank. And its not like she- Hank shook his head and groaned. Susan deserves to have the wedding shes always wanted. Both Hank and Willis turned to look at their younger sibling. Only you would say that, Hank said. He gave Kane a sympathetic shrug. Kane brushed imaginary lint from the back of Williss jacket. Yeah, I know. You going to call Ginny before we head over to that new bar? Willis cringed. I guess I better. Do either of you have anything I can tell her that will soften the blow? Hank titled his head in Kanes direction. Tell her Kis is coming with us. Now it was time for Kane to groan. Aw, come on, do I have too? Stop whining, Kis, and buck up, Willis demanded. Its time you get back up on that old horse. What do you think, the girl of your dreams will just come
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up on that old horse. What do you think, the girl of your dreams will just come waltzing in here someday? Oh, wait, she already did. Kane shot Willis a fierce glare. Willis only raised his eyebrows. Too bad. Get over it. Kane looked to Hank. Hank shook his head. You dont have to stay long. Yeah, Willis echoed. Just long enough to have a couple of drinks and check out the girls. You know, see if the place will be suitable for the party. Kane groaned again. He already knew that the venue would be great for a stag. What better combination was there than free flowing booze and women who were wearing barely more clothing than one did on a public beach?

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The bar was jammed packed. Bulging at the seams, dangerously close to the fire code regulations limit, and noisier than a jet plane flying overhead. Amber bent at the knees and hefted a tray filled with pitchers of beer and beer glasses up onto her left shoulder. She balanced the tray on her left hand and then turned back to the crowded tables. It was her first Friday night shift and she was so happy to have landed this job that she could have leaped up onto one of the tables and given the entire bar a table dance. Considering the clientele and her suspicions about the bar owner, she doubted anyone would bat an eye, and shed probably make some seriously good cash, only Amber wasnt comfortable with being that type of barmaid. Even though she was quite desperate for money. The job front had turned out to be much more dismal than shed first thought, and after several attempts at securing employment, shed still been without a job up until only a few days ago. Curse small towns. She hated them. Well...not exactly. She loved small towns. Really, she did. Loved the quaint homes, the slow pace, and most of all the peace and quiet. What she didnt like was the fact that there were very few jobs, and even fewer opportunities to find one that wasnt already taken. Plus the fact that everyone knew practically everyone. It was incredibly difficult to stay anonymous. Amber liked to be anonymous. It was easier to fly under the radar. Beneath everyones notice. And it made for quicker exits. Which shed been forced to do out of Hamilton. Amber sighed. She wasnt entirely sure exactly why her mother had suddenly decided to pull up stakes. In the past she had a very bad habit of moving the family every time she got a divorce. Only this time her mother wasnt married. So what was different? And why had her mother chosen to move the family way
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So what was different? And why had her mother chosen to move the family way out to the sticks. Literally. This town, or, what passed for a town was fairly small in comparison to what she was usually accustomed too. The largest building shed been able to find was the old Dobb Building down near the main street, and even that wasnt very big, just four storeys. It was mostly farmland out here, and water. Lots and lots of water. In fact Amber had crossed three bridges on her way to work this afternoon. Youd think with so many lakes and rivers around that this would be cottage country. It wasnt. Just a whole lot of bush and fields and fields of what she knew by summer would be filled with corn or hay crops. Someone grabbed her ass. Amber forced herself not to stop. To just keep moving forward. Besides even if she could spot the sleazy culprit in amongst the mass of sweaty male bodies, there wasnt much she could do about it. Her hands were full and she couldnt afford to pay for the cost of the beer and glasses if she allowed the overloaded tray to go crashing to the bars peanut shelled covered floor. And what had she really expected in a bar as rowdy as this one? It was only a matter of time before some guy made a grab for her. At least this guy hadnt tried anything else, which was good, because she wasnt in the mood to have some jerk test her boundaries. Amber gritted her teeth. She repeated in her head the mantra shed come up with her first night, just get through the next ten minutes, ten minutes at a time. She felt some guys hand brush down her back. Amber stiffened and took a deep breath. How she missed her old job at the Italian restaurant. None of her customers back there would have ever thought to lay a hand on her, let alone touch such an intimate part of her body. No her customers back home, especially the regulars had treated her with respect and kindness. And they had certainly tipped her far better in just one night than shed gotten over the last three working here. But then that had more to do with the bizarre way her fellow waitresses dived up the tip money, than how much the customers tipped her.
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Amber never liked the pooling of tips. She never got her fair share. Ambers heart ached. She needed another job. That is, another one on top of this crappy one. A guy suddenly pushed his chair backward right into her path and with a quick sidestep Amber barely avoided colliding with an arm of the chair. She did however feel her hip bump into someones shoulder. Sorry. Amber mumbled absentmindedly. She hastily steadied the tray. She continued onward. No problem. The mans voice made her pause. She glanced back but couldnt see beyond the pitchers of beer. She knew that voice. Oh, no. She hoped it wasnt him. Really hoped it wasnt Kane Stewart.

Amber, darling. Lori Heath-Chapman-Forrester-Maynor smirked. You have an admirer. Amber swallowed. She refused to turn her head and acknowledge that the man sitting at the table with two other men, was actually Kane. She knew he was watching her. Shed felt his stare following her for the last five minutes. Hes quite good looking Amber took a deep breath. No. Why not? Ambers mother scolded. She pushed back a thick lock of dark brown hair from her forehead. Hes kind of a little young for me, but- Amber cut in. I said, no. Lori ran her tongue over her red painted lips. She leaned sideways and Amber saw her mouth widened into a big friendly smile. What are you doing here, Lori? Lori looked back at her oldest daughter. She still had the smile on her face, but her eyes had narrowed. I wanted to make sure you were working in a decent place. Amber rather doubted that explanation. Looking for husband, number five,
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Amber rather doubted that explanation. Looking for husband, number five, was a much more plausible excuse. And this place wasnt decent, not by any estimation. Why arent you home with Toby? Lori gave Amber a dismissive look. Tobys fine. Tobys not fine. She should know, shed spent three hours early in the afternoon at the nearest towns walk-in/emergency clinic. It had been a forty-five minute drive away. Toby has an ear infection. And who did you leave the kids with anyway? Birdie Dixon. She lives a couple of doors down. Nice old lady. She- I know who the woman is. Then you know that Toby and Melissa are in good hands. Amber didnt doubt Birdies ability to take care of the children. She just hoped that the elderly woman would only charge her a pittance when she went to collect them. She couldnt afford much else. Amber clenched her jaw. The bar was noisy and she needed to think. Needed to process the latest curve her mother had just thrown her. As if travelling six hours with a sick child wasnt enough, her mother had also hauled Melissa out of school as well. Amber was having trouble understanding why? Why had her mother not taken Toby to see his regular doctor back in Hamilton? And why had she not left Melissa back home to finish what was left of the school year, like she did the other kids? And to top things off, as if Amber didnt have enough to worry about, if social services got wind that only Betty and Veronica were looking after the other children. Amber shivered. She didnt want to go down that road. She just hoped that none of the neighbours back home would notice both her and her mothers absences. Amber unclenched her jaw. Did you at least pick up Tobys prescription? The pharmacist is filling it now. Now! You mean you dont have it with you? Lori sighed dramatically. No, Ill pick it up later. Amber glanced at her watch. She began to panic.
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There is no later. Its twenty to nine. Lori shrugged. So? The drugstore is open all night. But the pharmacist goes home at nine oclock. Ill pick the prescription up in the morning. Amber fumed. Toby needed the ear medicine tonight. Never mind, Ill get it. Amber turned away. What about my drink? Amber didnt even bother to look back. Im sure youll still be here when I get back.

Told you this would be good for him. Willis laughed. Hank shook his head. Surest way to forget a woman is to find another. Kane ignored Willis and Hank. It was her. Amber Heath. Hed found her. Kanes pulse picked up. His hands began to sweat. Now what? Must say you have great taste, Kis. Willis grinned. That one sure is something to look at. The guys werent joking. She is hot. Which one? Hank lifted an eyebrow. He looked over his shoulder to where Kane was staring. He smirked and gave a low wolfish whistle. Whoa, and check out the lady shes talking to at the bar? Willis glanced back toward the two women. Shes hot too and looks near enough to be her older sister. Its her. Hank shrugged. Who? Kane swallowed, hard. Willis looked to Kane, then back at the women. No way? Really? Kane swallowed again. Willis laughed. The waitress is the girl from the shop, isnt she? Thats your lady-love. No- Shes- Hank turned around and looked at Kane. Oh, yes she is, Hank argued.
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Hank turned around and looked at Kane. Oh, yes she is, Hank argued. Shes the one. He raised an arm intending to attract the womans attention. Hey, no! Kane cried. Dont. Whoa-ho-ho. Willis chuckled. Oh, Kisy, youve got it bad. Kane shook his head. This wasnt how he wanted to see Amber again. Not here, not like this. Ill bet you a hundred bucks that shes the girl. Im in. Willis nodded. He reached for his wallet and pulled out two fifty dollar bills. He slapped them down on the table. Hank did the same. Kane frowned. How was he going to get out of this? Kane started to sweat. So, how are we going to do this? Willis asked. She comes over. We get her to verify that she knows Kis, here. How? Kane spoke without thought. She had gum in her hair. Eweee, kind of messy, but that will work. Hank raised his arm again. If I win, she gets the money, Kane added. He too took out his wallet. Fair enough. Willis agreed. This time the waitress saw Hanks hand waving and began to head their way. Look, guys, Ill get another girl to serve you, she said in a hurried manner. Ive got to- Hey, no, no, wait, Willis interjected. The waitress paused. She frowned at Willis and Hank. Kane noticed that she made a point of not looking at him. No, really, theres something I- This will only take a sec. Hank smiled. We have a bet going here. The waitress raised her eyebrows. You get three hundred dollars if you can verify that you know, Kis? Kane saw her eyes flare. Kiss? Of course, I know how to kiss. But I aint kissing you. Willis started to laugh. Oh, no, Hankie. She shot you down. Hank snarled at Willis. So you dont know this guy? Hank jutted a thumb in Kanes direction.
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She didnt glance at Kane. Nope. Willis laughed harder. Hanks eyes narrowed. And you cant tell us what was in your hair when you were in his shop? The waitress raised a hand to her forehead and finger brushed her bangs out of her eyes. Kane swallowed hard. He now knew shed kept her bangs and they still made her look so incredibly sexy. He could hardly take his eyes from her. Shop? No, cant say Ive had time to shop. Been too busy busting my butt. And FYI, I dont chew gum. Well, Im convinced. Willis hooted and slapped Kane on the shoulder. You lose, Kisy baby. Kane felt his throat clog. He quickly lowered his eyes to the table. Boy, he got her message, loud and clear. How stupid of him. Hank frowned as he eyed the young woman. Sorry, our mistake, he said slowly. Can you get us three beers? Ill tell one of the other waitresses. Hank nodded. But before she turned to go, the waitress leaned forward and gripped Kanes jaw in her hand. She tilted his face up so they could stare into each others eyes. I may be a lowly waitress working in some crappy bar, but I wont be treated like a whore. You cant come in here and try and shove three hundred bucks in my short-shorts and expect me to give you a lap dance. If you plan on making a habit of coming in here, I suggest that you find yourself another waitress to serve you, Irus. Because it wont be me.

Amber had simmered down by the time shed made her way out to the parking lot. Not much, but a little. She knew she shouldnt have been so hard on Kane, but shed been still so angry at her mother over Toby, that shed let her frustration cloud her judgement. If she could just get a little ahead of the game, shed do fine. But there
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If she could just get a little ahead of the game, shed do fine. But there wasnt any end in sight. Only open road and lots and lots of worries. Amber reached into her short-shorts for her car keys. She pulled them out and was walking across the parking lot when she saw him. Kane. How the heck had he gotten out of the bar faster than she did? It didnt matter. She didnt want to talk to him. She didnt want to talk to anyone. All she wanted to do was get to the drugstore, pick up Tobys medicine, drop it off at home, at least she hoped Toby and Melissa were at home, and get back to work so that she could make another twenty or thirty bucks before the bar closed. She shook her head and groaned. Three hundred dollars. Three hundred dollars worth of food she could have put in the cupboards. Food that in a few short weeks, she was going to be in desperate need of. She should have swallowed her pride and just admitted that she knew the man. Amber glanced again in Kanes direction. He hadnt moved much, maybe only a couple of inches. He had his arms outstretched and was leaning against a car that was gleaming shiny and new in the light from a lamp post hed parked under. The car didnt even look like it had a damned scratch on it. Amber sighed. She glanced at his slumped shoulders and hanging head. He looked so dejected, like a puppy who had just been kicked, and who could blame the guy? Shed been pretty brutal. Amber wet her lips. She shouldnt be doing this, but she couldnt stop herself. She walked over to him. Kane? Kane lifted his head at the sound of her voice. He turned to look at her. An invisible fist slammed into Ambers stomach. The man looked at her as if he was expecting her to deliver another verbal blow. Which in his case she probably should have. She really couldnt afford to get close to this man. Listen...Im really sorry about what happened in there. I shouldnt have did what I did...said what I said.
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Kane didnt respond to her apology. His expression stayed the same. I shouldnt have embarrassed you in front of your friends...and I cost you three hundred dollars. If I had three hundred dollars Id...but I dont. I dont even have three. Anyway, Im really so- Oh, hell! She glanced at her watch, then ran around to the passenger side of the car. Never mind. Just get in and drive.

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Kane stood stunned. He couldnt believe that Amber was actually speaking to him. More like shouting, but she wasnt angry at him, she was just... He didnt know what she was. Now! Hurry! The panic in Ambers voice had Kane whipping around expecting to be sucker punched in the head by some drunken bar brawler. There was no one behind him. Open the door. She slapped the hood of the car with her hand. Come on! Kane automatically pressed the car door lock button on his key chain. A loud click echoed. Amber opened the passenger door and jumped in. The door slammed. A second later she leaned on the horn. Kane didnt need anymore prompting. He opened his door and climbed behind the wheel. She was already buckled in. He saw her shove her own set of car keys into the front pocket of her short-shorts. Need to be somewhere fast? He meant the question to be rhetorical, but Amber took it very, very literally. Eleven minutes. She nodded and rattled off the name of the local drugstore. I can do that, Kane replied. He started the engine and put the car in gear. His car wasnt built for speed like one of those fancy sports car, but he knew every curve and back road in the area. Hed get her to the drugstore with minutes to spare.

The car sailed over a bridge.

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Amber clutched the side of the seat with one hand and reached out hastily to brace herself against the cars dashboard as the car bounced along a rutted dirt road. She had no idea where she was. The road didnt look familiar. But then nothing did. And at the speed the car was travelling she doubted shed be able to recognize anything anyway. Only a mass of trees whipping by in the cars headlights. Kane was yammering on about something. She couldnt hear exactly what he was saying over the blaring of the radio, but she didnt really care. Amber tried to focus. Didnt take the guy long, did it? They couldnt have been in the car more than a couple of minutes. The drugstore having some flash sale on shampoo? Amber knew that he was trying to make a joke. She heard the nervous hitch to his voice as he cut the radio off. It wasnt working, she was still scared sh- Oh, that reminded her. Shed forgotten to check the houses supply of toilet paper. She hoped that one of the...how many bathrooms were there? Was it three? Did the house have three bathrooms? No, four, four and a half, so that made for what...five toilets? Surely thered be an extra package of toilet paper somewhere under one of the sinks, or perhaps on a toilet roll holder. Oh, what did it matter? She squeezed her eyes closed. She was going to die! Kanes voice turned serious. You gonna be sick or something? Amber pressed her lips tightly together. She was going to be pretty darn soon if he didnt slow down. What little she had in her stomach was starting to rebel. Oh, hell. She heard panic now. Panic in Kanes voice. Some guy didnt try something with you, did he? You didnt get- Do I need to take you to a doctor? Doc Handles office is closed, but I could take you by anyway. He wont mind. Are you in pain? The implications of his questions had Amber snapping her eyes open. She hastily glanced at Kane. He shot her a panicked, fearful look. Another invisible hand, just like the one before, clutched her heart and
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Another invisible hand, just like the one before, clutched her heart and squeezed real hard. Kane cared about her. Actually cared about her even after the way shed treated him. How could he? He didnt even know her. Didnt know anything about her or how crazy her dysfunctional life really was. She quickly shook her head. No. No, I wasnt- Nobody tried anything. Im fine. Okay...not so great...just a little carsick. Kane let out a nervous laugh. Thats good. I mean, its not so good. He laughed again. You, however, being sick in my car, I can deal with that. Cause it certainly wouldnt be the first time someones thrown up in one of my cars. My niece Holly does it all the time. Theres some lunch bags in the glove compartment. Lunch bags dont work so well. Theyre paper after all. He shot her another glance. His brow pulled into a frown. Oh, great, now shes just peaked his curiosity. Not good, not good at all. Amber closed her eyes again and swallowed. The panic was back in Kanes voice. Hey, hey, take a deep breath. Amber did as he asked. It didnt help any. Look, Ill slow down! Its just that you asked me to- Amber felt herself shiver. Okay, okay, Im slowing down. He started to back off on the gas pedal. No! Amber shouted. Keep driving. I promise I wont be- She opened her eyes and quickly jammed her thumb onto the window release button. She needed air. There that was a bit better. She gulped in a couple of mouthfuls. Then she started to cough. Was something burning? She jammed the button again. The window started to rise. She coughed again, then swallowed. Sorry, theres a forest fire up north. I heard the news report on the radio earlier. Amber looked at Kane. Didnt smell smoke at the bar.
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Kane shrugged. The wind was blowing the other way. But the smoke is still in the air. Forest fires? Amber sighed. Another reason why she didnt like small towns. Far too much wooded area around. Plenty of trees and grassland to burn. Are we in danger? Will we need to be evacuated? Kane shook his head. He turned left at a crossroad. Amber heard the tires crunch gravel. A moment later they were back on smooth pavement. Probably not, he said. Were west of the blaze, and should be alright, unless the wind shifts. Amber wasnt encouraged. Her chest tightened. Toby and Melissa. The car started to slow. Amber looked to Kane. He smiled at her. Were here. With six minutes to spare.

Amber was out of the car before hed fully brought it to a stop. Hey, wait a second! Amber paused and looked back at him as he shut his car door. You may want to put this on. He took off his suit jacket. Amber frowned. You...youre... You dont have much clothes on, and theres probably people still in the drugstore at this hour. He saw Amber clench her teeth. Fine, she said. She grabbed his jacket out of his hand as he moved around the trunk of the car. He watched her shove her arms into the jackets sleeves. Then she pulled the jacket around her body and quickly buttoned up the buttons. Satisfied? Kane took a breath. Not by a long shot. He looked at her bare legs. She gave him a look. One that he was beginning to recognize as you dont want to be pushing me any further, now do you?. Kane held up his hands. The clocks ticking. Ambers eyes flared for a moment, then they narrowed. She turned from him
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Ambers eyes flared for a moment, then they narrowed. She turned from him and hurried up the drugstores cement stairs. As they entered the store Amber turned to him. Pharmacy? Kane gestured toward the back right hand corner. Back there. Amber quickly headed down the nearest aisle. Kane followed. There were no customers at the counter. The pharmacist smiled as he saw Amber and Kane approaching. Evening, Kane. Kane noticed the surprise in the pharmacists eyes. Hey. He raised a hand in greeting. Amber quickly spoke up. Im here to pick up a prescription. The name is Toby Maynor. The pharmacist frowned. He looked quickly to Kane, then back to Amber. Its not my policy to release any medications to anyone but the prescribed. Kane saw Amber take a deep breath. Im sure if you have a look in your computer files, youll see that Ive been authorized to pick up any medications for Toby. My name is Amber Heath. The pharmacist gave Amber a frown. He looked to Kane again. Kane shrugged. The pharmacist turned to his computer and peered over his half glasses. A moment later he said, yes, you are quite right. I have you down as a secondary contact. Ill just be a moment. Kane seeing that everything was now under control drifted away. Who was Toby Maynor? Ambers husband? She didnt share the same last name as Toby, but Kane knew that that didnt mean a thing. Just like the fact that Amber wasnt wearing a wedding ring. In fact she didnt wear any jewellery at all, not even a watch. Amber could be easily married. Hed never asked her. Not that there had been any opportunity to ask. The subject hadnt come up. After all hed known her now what, all of fifty, fifty-five minutes. Okay, if Toby Maynor wasnt Ambers husband, than who was he? Her father? An elderly grandfather? A boyfriend, Ambers lover? A child? Kane swallowed. He started pulling random items off of the drugstore shelves.
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There had been breast milk stains on the blouse Amber had been wearing, and her skirt had been a couple of sizes too big for her. A child made sense. But then why would the pharmacist have Amber listed as a secondary contact? If Amber was Tobys mother, shouldnt she have been the primary? Kane turned automatically at the end of the aisle and began ambling down the next one. He picked another couple of items off the shelves.

You planning on getting lucky tonight? Amber couldnt keep the amusement from her voice or the smirk from her lips. Because you do realize that it aint gonna be me. Kane turned his head to look at her. He had a blank look on his face. Amber wet her lips and pointedly looked at the pile of items hed just deposited onto the cashiers counter. Kane followed her gaze. Amber grinned when she saw Kanes face redden. Now, I can understand the condoms, the bottle of mouthwash, the shaving cream, and the toothpaste. Amber nodded. Those are all essentials for a hot date or an evening in bed with a lady. And the plastic red checkered tablecloth, the peel-off, stick-on flags, and the red and white napkins make sense if youre planning a picnic for Canada Day festivities. Even the hemorrhoid cream...although a little strange, is plausible, and the bag of- Ohhh, I love those pink mints. They are so good. Amber watched Kane swallow. She reached out and picked up an item from the counter. He still hadnt moved a muscle. What Im having a little trouble wrapping my head around, is why the steel bath safety bar, the wire hair curlers, and the...I dont even know what this contraption is? All I can say isouch. She put the box back onto the counter. Kane wet his lips. I think Ill forgo these, he said. He handed the last three items Amber had commented on to the cashier. The young woman raised an eyebrow, but took the items and then turned to
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The young woman raised an eyebrow, but took the items and then turned to place them down on a table behind her. Before the girl had turned back he picked up a tiny chocolate bar from a wire display rack sitting on the cashiers desk. Would you like one? He held out the chocolate toward Amber. Amber eyed the expensive, hand-made candy. She looked cautiously at Kane. What she really couldnt understand was why even after she had just once more embarrassed him, he could still be just so damned nice to her? Amber shook her head. Kane smiled. I insist. Amber felt worse for his kindness. She chewed at the inside of her cheek. No? He shrugged and turned back to the cashier. Amber noticed that he picked up another bar. This one was wrapped in blue coloured paper. After a few short minutes they were seated once again in Kanes car. So, back to the bar? Amber shook her head. I need to make a quick stop. I hope you dont mind. Kane smiled again at her. No, not at all. Where to? Amber named the address. Kanes smile faded. She noticed that his hands tightened on the steering wheel. She waited for Kane to say something. He didnt. He did start the car and then steered the vehicle back out onto the road. He drove at a much more desirable pace. Amber sat quietly. She glanced several times at Kane. He didnt look at her. He kept his eyes straight ahead. Amber didnt understand. Shed insulted him, embarrassed him, twice, and virtually rebuked all his attempts at friendship since theyd met, and the mention of her home address had gotten him...angry? Oh, yes, Kane Steward was angry. He was real quiet about it, but she could practically see the steam jetting out of his ears. The man was fuming. They drove for another couple of blocks in silence.
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Amber crinkled the pharmacy bag between her nervous fingertips. Im sorry I embarrassed you. Her words got his attention. He gave her a quick glance. You didnt embarrass me. Though, I must admit, it has been a long time since a woman has teased me, especially in public. I meant back at the bar. In front of your friends. Kanes jaw clenched. They werent my friends. Not possible. Youre too nice not to like. Kane didnt respond. He pulled the car up in front of the address shed given him. I shouldnt be more than a couple of minutes. Kane only shrugged and cut the engine. She got out.

Kane watched Amber head up to the front door. She put the key into the lock and a moment later disappeared into the house. A house that Kane had been in a thousand times. A house that he knew every nook and cranny of. A house where hed helped build the tree house out back. Why hadnt anyone told him? It wasnt like his family hadnt known about the mystery lady who hed invited into his shop on a rainy Monday morning. Offered her a place to dry out and a cup of hot chocolate and a bag of Danish pastries. Hell, he fumed. How many times had he been here over the past two weeks? Half a dozen times, maybe ten. And no one had bothered to tell him that the Ryersons had finally rented out the old house. A house that incidentally was bracketed on both sides by his own parents and Hanks homes. Amber had been so close and hed never even known it. Heck, hed even helped his father cut the Ryersons grass just a little over a week ago. Had Amber been in the house? Had she seen him?
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Kane gritted his teeth. The Ryersons front door suddenly opened and Amber hurried down the front steps. Kane sat up straighter in his seat. He turned the engine back on. Amber didnt get in. Instead she bypassed the car and headed on down the street. Kane quickly turned the engine off and exited the car. Amber didnt acknowledge him as he followed her down the sidewalk. She finally came to a stop in front of the Dixons house. She went to the front door and rang the doorbell. Kane was a few steps behind her when Birdie opened the door. Amber, dear, are you here to pick up the children? Children? As in plural? Kane frowned. Not right now, Birdie, Amber said. She held up the pharmacy bag. Ive got to get back to work. I just came to give you this. Hows Toby? Not a happy camper. Jeremy appeared behind his wife. A cranky Toby was in his arms. Kis? What are you doing here? Jeremy asked. Kane gave Jeremy a brief shake of his head. Im just the chauffeur. Jeremy gave Kane a doubtful look. The little boy in Jeremys arms whined. Ambeehoo...mme. Amber handed the pharmacy bag to Birdie before she took the child from Jeremys arms. I know, Sweetie. I want to go home too. But we live here now. The boy sniffled. Why? Kane saw Amber take a deep breath. Ive been asking myself that very question, but I dont have an answer for you, Toby. Im sorry. The boy started to cry. Amber hugged the child closer and began rocking him as she stroked his head. A second later another child, a little girl appeared in the hallway. Amber, Mommy left Molly back home. Kane noticed that the little girl wasnt complaining. She was angry. Kane
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Kane noticed that the little girl wasnt complaining. She was angry. Kane couldnt blame the child. Most young girls her age were very attached to their dollies. Amber gave the girl a shrug. The kid didnt like Ambers reaction. She started to wail. I want Molly! I want Molly! Toby cried louder. The little girl ran forward and wrapped her arms around Ambers leg. Toby accidentally booted the child in the head. The little girl started to cry. Amber closed her eyes. Kane saw her reach blindly for the little girls head. She tweaked one of the childs pigtails. The childrens crying quickly reached ear splitting levels. Kane nudged Amber on the arm. She opened her eyes and looked at him. Kane saw the pain in her eyes. The hint of tears. He held out a bar of chocolate. The one wrapped in blue paper. Amber pressed her lips together. She eyed the candy. Then she mouthed thank you, before reaching out to take the bar from him. She turned to Birdie and Jeremy. I dont make a habit of rewarding crying with treats, but Ive got to get back to work, so Im going to have to resort to bribery. The little girl stopped wailing. Tears still streaked her face as she released Ambers leg and looked up. Whats br...i...a....berry? Amber unwrapped the end of the chocolate bar. She broke off a large chunk. She shifted the boys weight against her side as she knelt before the little girl. It means that if I give you this piece of chocolate, you in return will promise me that you will stop crying and behave yourself for Mr. and Mrs. Dixon. The child made a face, then nodded. Okay. Amber handed her the chocolate. Me too, Toby echoed. Amber smiled at the boy. She straightened and then broke off another chunk of the chocolate. Instead of handing the piece to the boy, she bit it in half, and then bit one half in half again. She held out two small pieces to the kid.
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She quickly chewed the other half of the chocolate. As Toby took one of the small chunks, she said. Now chew this before you swallow. The little boy popped the chocolate into his mouth. He gave Amber a look. Kane saw Amber raise an eyebrow. I said, chew. Let me see. The boy immediately opened his mouth to clearly show her that he had indeed broke up the chunk of chocolate with his tiny teeth. Good, boy. She tapped him on the tip of his nose. Now, Ive brought Mrs. Dixon some medicine for your ear. You be good and let Mrs. Dixon put the drops in your ear. No fussing. Youre a big boy now. The boy made a face at Amber. He glanced at Birdie, then at the second piece of chocolate chunk still in Ambers hand. He blinked and then nodded before taking the second piece of chocolate. Amber took a deep breath. She handed the child back to Jeremy, gave a quick hug to the little girl and was out the door faster than Kane thought humanly possible. As the two of them settled back into his car, Amber muttered. Tobys my half brother. Kane felt the lump of tension he hadnt realized was sitting in his chest begin to break up. Thats cool, I know all about half brothers. Amber turned her head to look at him as he started the engine. You have two, right? Both older. Yeah. Kane smiled. Im surprised you remembered? Amber wet her lips. I remember everything from that day. Kane swallowed. He didnt know if that was a good thing or not. Hed rambled on pretty wildly that day. Hed been so nervous. Like the look she was giving him was making him feel right now. He swallowed again and put the car into drive. And the little girl?

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Amber hadnt gotten much slept. Probably close to three hours at best, she figured. She wished shed gotten more, but the tingling in her right arm had awakened her, and now the gnawing in her stomach would prevent her from falling back to sleep anytime soon. Amber tried to turn over and found she couldnt. Melissa, her little five-year old step sister, the one that Kane had inquired about last night, was curled up against her side so tightly that Amber was afraid if she even breathed, shed awake the child. Amber opened her eyes. Toby was staring at her. His tiny face a little more flush than it should have been. Damn, he was probably running a fever. Amber gently pulled her numb right arm out from under his shoulder. Melissa stirred, but stayed asleep. Wiggling her fingers, Amber pushed back the bedspread and edged her way past Toby and out of the double bed. She gathered Toby up into her arms, and headed downstairs. She hoped that Lori had remembered to bring Tobys ear medication home when shed collected the children from Birdies the previous night. Or, had Lori picked up the children early this morning? Amber hadnt a clue since her mother had already left the bar by the time Kane had dropped her off back at work. Amber had also noticed that the two men that Kane had said werent his friends were also absent from the bar when shed returned. Amber sighed as she quietly closed the door to the attic stairs and padded barefoot down the carpeted hallway. The door to the master bedroom was still closed. She shook her head and took a deep breath. Toby wriggled in her arms. A shut bedroom door usually meant that her mother didnt want to be
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A shut bedroom door usually meant that her mother didnt want to be disturbed. A locked bedroom door, like the door had been last night when Amber had tested the handle on her way to bed, meant that there was a man inside with her mother. Amber hoped the man wasnt one of the two that Kane had been with. That would mean that she had the potential of coming into contact with Kane more than she already had been. And that would be bad. Kane Stewart had already taken up way too much time in her head over the past two and a half weeks since shed first stumbled into his shop, soaked to the sink and starving. A prevailing presence in the back of her mind that kept nagging her at all times of the night and day. Okay, mostly at night. Amber cursed herself. She really didnt want to become close to the man. Having him show up at the bar last night was a fear come true, and now he knew where she lived. A combination that spelled trouble. Another worry she couldnt handle amongst the thousands of others she had. Amber sighed. She absentmindedly shifted Toby in her arms. The real problem was Kane was just so damned nice. So likable. Someone she could get used to way too quickly. Someone she was destined to hurt, and hurt badly. She had no idea how she was going to discourage the man if their chance meeting last night encouraged him to seek her out again. If Kane persisted in making a habit of finding opportunities to talk to her, she didnt know how she was going to resist. The heat emanating from Tobys forehead against her bare arm seeped into Ambers consciousness. She lifted a hand to feel his forehead. Definitely hotter than was good. She headed downstairs and into the kitchen. The pharmacy bag sat on the kitchen table, alongside a half eaten pan of recently baked brownies. Blonde brownies. She hadnt been able to scrape enough money together from her meager tips for some cocoa when shed purchased the basic baking supplies the day before yesterday. Nor had she been able to afford the cost of even the smallest bottle of vanilla. She wondered just how good the brownies were? Her stomach growled at
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She wondered just how good the brownies were? Her stomach growled at the thought of food. Toby squirmed and Amber sat him down on the kitchen table. She turned to the refrigerator to assess the damage. Had Lori and her male friend raided the fridge before theyd hopped into the sack? Ambers heart sank. Oh yeah. The once full carton of eggs had only three left, the loaf of bread that she hadnt even opened was now half gone, and the plump ripe tomatoe that shed fantasized about most of last evening while at work, was gone as well. Amber reached for the milk carton. More than half empty. Amber closed the fridge door. She turned back to Toby. The little guy looked miserable. She reached out and gently rubbed his cheek. Did Mommy give you one of those tiny pills last night? You know, the ones for when you, Melissa, Conrad or Molly have a fever? Toby looked blankly at her. Amber glanced around the kitchen searching for a tiny bottle of childrens painkillers. She didnt see any. She of course had an emergency supply of childrens cold and flu medicines, but she couldnt risk giving Toby a double dose just in case her mother had given him a pill to bring down his fever before putting him to bed. Okay, what about the ear medicine? She had no doubt that Birdie would have been responsible enough to administer the drops into Tobys ear. The question was when could he have another dose? Amber picked up the pharmacy bag and pulled out the tiny box with the prescription bottle still inside. She read the label, then the written pamphlet that had accompanied the medication. She made a quick calculation of the amount of hours that had passed since shed left Birdies home and felt pretty safe that she could give Toby another couple of drops of the medicine. Okay, Sweetie, time for- Chockie... furst... Toby whined and put up a hand to cover his sore ear. Amber sighed. She didnt have anymore chocolate. Shed forgotten to retrieve the half bar of chocolate out of Kanes suit jacket pocket before shed
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retrieve the half bar of chocolate out of Kanes suit jacket pocket before shed handed it back to him and rushed into the bar and back to work. I dont have any left. Toby started to cry. Amber closed her eyes. Great, so much for trying not wake her mother and whoever she had in her bed with her. Here, let me try. Ambers eyes snapped open at the sound of a deep male voice. She shot a glance to the kitchen doorway. Her heart sank. The tall, husky built man standing, no filling the space, with his hands braced against both sides of the door frame, was definitely one of the two men that had been with Kane. The man was also shirtless and barefoot. His low slung jeans were however, thankfully zipped up. Ambers eyes returned to Toby. She didnt say anything. She gave the bottle of medicine a good shake and then began to unscrew the cap. Toby shook his head. Nooooooooooo. Come on, Toby, Amber said softly. You were a big boy last night for Mrs. Dixon, werent you? Toby nodded. Then you can be a big boy for me now. Toby scrunched his face and started to cry harder. Hey, hey, the tall man soothed. He pushed himself off the door frame and came into the kitchen. He scooped Toby up into his arms. Your sister is just trying to help you feel better. Toby stopped crying, but the pout on his lower lip clearly showed that he wasnt convinced. Amber gave the man a look. He shrugged. Ive got kids of my own. Ambers heart dropped. Of course the guy had kids. Why would her mother break the pattern now? She wanted to pound her fist against the kitchen table. No, no, no. Four actually. All boys. A searing pain streaked through Ambers head. The blood in her ears started
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A searing pain streaked through Ambers head. The blood in her ears started to pulse. Where were those painkillers? In about ten seconds when her head exploded she was going to need them. Her shoulders slumped. Toby began to fuss. He wiggled in the mans arms and accidentally whacked his head against the guys jaw. The man absorbed the blow, then wet his lips. You and I, he said to Toby, are going to go have a little talk. He took the ear medication from Ambers hand. He smiled at her. Can I ask you to get me a warm wet washcloth? Before Amber could answer, the guy turned and carried Toby out of the kitchen. Amber pressed her lips together and clamped her hands around the top edge of one of the kitchen chairs. She felt like she was about to faint, and not only from the lack of food. Four kids. Four more kids added to the mix. She began to hyperventilate. Anger boiled through her. Damn her mother. Damn Lori and her weakness for men. In town for less than twenty-four hours shed already latched onto a man with four boys. How old were they? And how soon would they be invading her house demanding food? Food she didnt have. Couldnt her mother have hooked up with some old bachelor, with a huge house and a wallet just as big? Amber? Yes, Sweetie? Amber straightened and turned to little Melissa. She put a smile on her face. The little girl was standing in the doorway. Her pink security blanket clutched in her tiny hands. I bet youre hungry. Amber quickly reached for the only box of cereal shed been able to buy. Then she opened a cupboard for a bowl and a drawer for a spoon. Melissa padded forward. Amber pulled out a chair for the child. Then she opened the refrigerator and pulled out the carton of milk.
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Melissa climbed up onto the chair and waited patiently as Amber poured cereal and milk into the bowl. I miss Molly. Amber sighed. She could only guess the trauma Lori had put this child through, taking her away from her older sister. Im sure Molly will be here soon. Mommy said she had to stay in school. Amber nodded. Molly was eight. Thats true. I was in school too. Amber reached out and patted Melissas head. You were in kindergarten. Its a little different than being in grade three. The little girl shrugged and shovelled a spoonful of the sugary cereal into her mouth. Amber left the child to her meager breakfast and went in search of a washcloth for the stranger who had taken Toby- Oh, hell, Amber panicked. A stranger had taken Toby. Amber rushed out of the kitchen and stopped when she spotted the man and Toby sitting on the edge of the living room sofa. She let out a breath and before either of the two could notice her abating fear, she headed for the downstairs bathroom, no the downstairs powder room. When she emerged with a damp warm washcloth it was to find the man stretched out on the sofa. One leg bent and his bare foot resting on the floor. Toby was lying on the mans bare chest. The man was singing softly as he rocked Toby gently. As she approached the sofa, he opened his left hand. The bottle of ear medication rested on his palm. Amber switched the medication for the washcloth. The man smiled his thanks. Okay, Toby. He brushed back a lock of hair from the boys forehead. I want you to do as I told you. Think of your favourite toy. My tru...ckk, Toby instantly replied. The man smiled again and nodded to Amber. Amber quickly squeezed two drops of the medication into Tobys ear. The man immediately placed the damp warm washcloth over the little boys
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The man immediately placed the damp warm washcloth over the little boys ear and pressed gently. He started singing quietly again. Brumm, brumm, beep-beep. Toby muttered and then gave a big yawn and closed his eyes. The little guy was asleep before Amber had a chance to recap the bottle. Its been awhile since my sons have been this young. But I guess you never forget. Amber looked at the man. She tried to offer up a smile of thanks, but found she couldnt. Instead she headed back to the kitchen where she pulled a notepad from a drawer and quickly jotted down Tobys name and the date and time that both administrations of his medication had occurred. She then ripped the top sheet of paper off the notepad and tacked it to the refrigerator door with a huge magnet in the shape of a banana. Melissa finished her cereal. Can I go colour? Amber thought for a moment. Where had she seen Lori put the childs purple backpack? Oh, yes, on the dining room table. Youll have to be very quiet. Tobys asleep on the couch. Amber looked again to the kitchen doorway. The man was once more standing in the opening. Melissa shrugged. Okay, she said indifferently. Then she hopped down from her chair and walked by the man as he moved aside so the child could pass by him. Amber raised an eyebrow and continued to look at him. The man rotated his wide shoulders. Sorry, he offered, habit. Not only do I have four kids, Im also the local schools second and third grade teacher. Amber picked up Melissas empty bowl. She fiddled with the spoon as she turned to the sink to rinse the dishes. Who are you? She asked turning back to the man. I remember you from the bar last night. You were with Kane, but he said youre not friends. The man let out a husky chuckle. He shook his head. No, Kis and I arent friends, were brothers. Half brothers, Im Hank. Hank Stewart. Amber didnt offer a hand or even a friendly nod. You and he were...together last night? Amber narrowed her eyes at the man. She didnt answer his inquiry. It was
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Amber narrowed her eyes at the man. She didnt answer his inquiry. It was none of his business. Instead she asked. Craig one of yours? Hank nodded. My second oldest. Theres Sam, hes twenty-one, Craig who youve met, hes eighteen. Then theres Fred, fourteen and Jason who is eleven. So now she knew how old. The information didnt make her feel any better. We live next door. Excuse me? I said, we live next door. He raised an eyebrow. As in the house adjoining to this property. Didnt Kis tell you? No, he didnt. Come to think of it, Kane hadnt said much last night after shed given him this address. Now Amber knew what had suddenly stemmed the flow of words from Kanes mouth. Hed been angry that she lived in the house next door to his half brother, but why? Hank pulled out the chair that Melissa had vacated. He sat down. Resentment flowed through Amber. The guy was already making himself comfortable. What one roll in the sack with her mother and he was already thinking of this house as a second home? She watched him reach across the table to where the pharmacy bag had been. He picked up an envelope that Amber hadnt noticed before. I believe this is yours. He tossed the envelope back onto the table, only this time directly in front of her. Amber picked up the envelope and took a peek inside. Her eyes widened and her nostrils flared. It was the money from the bet. She dropped the envelope as if it had cooties. She backed away from the table. I thought I made myself clear last night. Oh, Id say you did. Hank smirked. In more ways than one. Amber sent Hank a daunting look. I wont be treated as some sex toy. Hank ignored her comment. A bets a bet, he said. He tapped the index finger of his right hand on the kitchen table. And there was no doubt in anyones mind that you werent the mystery girl from the shop. Not after you called Kis, Iris.
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I...rus, Amber automatically corrected. She remembered that Kane liked his middle name pronounced I...rus. Hanks smirk was back. Yeah, you definitely know Kis. The moneys yours. Amber still didnt make a move to take the money. She stood staring at Hank for a long time. Theres eight more of us. Hank didnt seem shocked at the news. Maybe he didnt understand exactly what she was getting at. Amber was wrong. Hank understood perfectly. You mean besides you, Toby and Melissa? Amber remained silent. Hank smiled. Theres Betty, Veronica, Fawn, Brice, Sara, Alec, Molly and Conrad. Youre forgetting Im a teacher, Amber. Im really good with names. Amber was surprised that Lori had actually had time to tell Hank about all the biological and step children that made up her family. She had figured the two of them had gone straight from the bar into bed. Oh waitthey had made a pit stop to raid the fridge. Amber glanced warily at the envelope. Three hundred dollars. The pull to grab the money was great. Feeding twelve people on only the proceeds of her tips from the bar, was not nearly enough money. She looked back at Hank. You seem well acquainted with my family. Did Lori fill you in before or after... Hank took a deep breath. You dont like me much, do you? Amber stared at him for a moment. I dont know you. All I can go on is how Kane reacted when I told him where I lived. He wasnt pleased. Hank scratched at his jaw. Thats probably an understatement. Considering the fact that hes probably figured it out by now. Figured what out? Hank shook his head. Never mind. He paused, then said. Im not like my half brother.
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Obviously not, Amber fumed. Kane didnt suggest that we hop into the sack and have a tumble within minutes of meeting me. Hanks broad shoulders stiffened. No, your brother acted the gentlemen, even though he had the perfect opportunity to take advantage of the fact that I was scantily clad that day in his shop and again last night in his car. But instead of trying to jump my bones, he treated me with respect. And, he didnt barge in and take over when Toby and Melissa were fussing last night, either. He let me handle my family on my own. I was only trying to help. Help! You cant help. She growled in a low voice. She didnt want to wake Toby or have Melissa overhear what she was saying. You, Hank Stewart, can only bring more heartache to me. Hank shifted in his chair. He opened his mouth to speak. You can however, Amber cut him off, get your ass back over the property line. If you knew what was best for yourself, Hank, youd run. I dont feel like running. He moved to get out of his chair. I would like a cup of coffee though, we can- Oh, thats another thing. I dont have any coffee. I cant afford it. Look around, Hank. She gestured at the kitchen counters that were quite evident of the lack of food. Im barely hanging on as it is. I have one crappy job that Im not completely sure I can make the rent with. Ten half and step siblings that will be arriving within the next couple of weeks and demanding to be fed, with food that you and Lori mindlessly gobbled down last night. Hank rose. Oh, and by the way, theres one thing you cant know about Lori. Amber looked up at Hank. Man, the guy was tall. My mother is an habitual male magnet. She cant be without a man for more than a few weeks. Amber saw Hanks cheeks colour. Thats right, she continued. Hank was getting her meaning loud and clear. Lori has a habit of latching onto men. Especially men who have children. She drops a couple more and then bam! The guys are gone and Im left raising the lot. Youre just the latest in a long, long string. Dont think last night was something special for Lori. Nothing is special with Lori. I think thats quite enough, Amber. Lori appeared in the kitchen doorway.
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I think thats quite enough, Amber. Lori appeared in the kitchen doorway. Now, Hank. She smiled at the husky built man. Why dont I take you up on your offer of breakfast at the local diner? Im sure everyone can use a plate of pancakes and sausage.

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The loud noise woke Amber. Rolling over, she pulled the pillow over her head. No go. She could still hear the whine of an engine, a lawn mower of some sorts. What time was it anyway? She flung the pillow back against the headboard and glanced at the bedside alarm clock. Seven minutes after ten. Shed been asleep for a little over two and a half hours. Her bed, the one up in the attic was empty of children. A good bet that Lori hadnt returned from her breakfast of pancakes and sausage with Hank. Amber groaned. She really had to work on her temper. She was getting in the bad habit of insulting men with the last name Stewart. First Kane and now Hank. Ambers stomach growled. She ignored the hunger gnawing at her stomach. If she hadnt been so pigheaded she could have apologized to Lori and accepted Hanks offer to feed her breakfast along with the rest of them. Amber hadnt felt very apologetic at the time. Nor did she now. So instead of getting dressed and hauling her ass out to the local diner with the others, shed sat down at the kitchen table and wolfed down a couple of hunks of blonde brownies along with what was left of the milk. The brownies had tasted bland and dry. Which wasnt a surprise after all. Lori couldnt bake worth a damn. Even if Lori hadnt been missing a few key ingredients, like the cocoa and vanilla, not to mention the baking soda which Amber hadnt had any money to purchase yet either, they still wouldnt have tasted very good. Amber groaned again and sat up. She shoved the fluffy white bedspread out of her way and got out of bed. The whine of the lawn mower was coming closer. She ambled over to the
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The whine of the lawn mower was coming closer. She ambled over to the floor-to-ceiling window and looked out. There was movement from the house next door. Amber wondered if it was the house Hank and his kids lived in? Shed never gotten around to inquiring which side they lived on. Not that it mattered. She just wanted to know which side of the property to avoid looking at when she made her way toward her car. She didnt want to attract the attention of any of the occupants. She didnt actively like to engage in neighbourly chitchat. Amber turned away from the window and headed toward her private bath. She had time enough for a quick shower, a trip to the grocery store, and a few household chores before she had to get to work at the bar for five oclock. Amber sighed heavily thinking about the envelope of money that shed refused to take while Hank had been in the house. Her pride pricked at her that she had greedily snatched up the envelope the moment the man had shut the front door. Three hundred dollars was a lot of money. But of course, there wasnt three hundred dollars in the envelope. One of the nice shiny new fifties was conspicuously missing. Amber wondered what Lori would frivolously spend the money on? Nail polish? Perfume? Anything but food or something useful that the kids needed, like clothing or sunscreen. The kids would be out of school in a couple of weeks and out playing in the blazing sun. Well whatever. She had two hundred and fifty dollars more than she had yesterday morning. Oh yeah, shed forgotten the seventeen dollars shed made in tips last night. Whoopee do, seventeen whole dollars. That was going to break the bank. But then what had she expected? Shed left the bar part way through her shift and not to take a short break. Shed been gone almost an hour, despite the fact that Kane drove his car at breakneck speed. She was lucky that the other waitresses had only docked her tips and that the owner hadnt canned her ass. Keeping a job, any job was going to be difficult with having to look after ten kids and a mother who at best acted like an over sexed teenager. Testing the shower water, Amber stripped off her clothes and stepped under
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Testing the shower water, Amber stripped off her clothes and stepped under the warm spray. Her last thought before she lathered her hair up with the floral scented shampoo was, what was Kane doing right now?

Kane turned off the lawn mower. He removed the protective earphones from his ears and the pair of safety glasses from his face before wiping at the sweat dripping off the end of his chin. Hed calmed down at little, but not much. The physical activity of mowing three sizable backyard and front yard lawns with an electric power mower had thankfully taken the spit out of his fury, if not his anger. Now if he could just erase the image of his half brother Hank emerging from Ambers house at six thirty in the morning hed be doing a whole lot better. Well maybe not that much better. Hank had lied to him. Thats was clear. Hank had known that his mystery lady was living right next door, but hadnt seen fit to tell him. So why? Why didnt he said anything? Kane scratched his head. The fact that he was totally confused only exacerbated the situation. Amber and Hank? When the hell had that happened? Only last night Amber had given him every indication that she had absolutely no idea who either of his half brothers were, or, that she in fact lived next door to both Hank and his parents. Discovering himself only a few hours ago when hed sat down for breakfast with his parents that both his mother and father had introduced themselves, on a first name basis only, to Amber a couple of days after the Ryersons had moved out and Amber had moved in, had almost blown his mind. A lovely girl, his mother had noted. But consequently not someone for him. What was that supposed to mean? Amber was suitable for Hank? Hell, Hank was close to twenty years older than she was.
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Kane shoved the safety glasses back onto his face and replaced the earphones around his ears. He still had to put away the lawn mower, trim the front hedge and cut down the peony bushes out back that had finished blooming before he stopped for the day. And if by then he still was fuming, he could always spend a couple of hours chopping wood. No, maybe not, he though. Better not to have a handy weapon in his hands if he happened to see Hank returning to Ambers house. Hed had enough trouble restraining himself earlier this morning from slamming his car door and bolting down the sidewalk to confront Hank. Hed never felt so...jealous. Kane sighed. Oh, man, this thing with Amber was getting way, way out of hand. How could he be jealous? He hadnt even known her for what...more than a couple of hours? And during those hours, not once had she given him the slightest hint that she was interested in him. No, come to think of it, Amber had been everything but friendly. Distant, remote and standoffish. Shed talked little, smiled even less, and he couldnt remember if hed even heard her laugh. But he did remember that shed teased him. Last night at the drugstore, by the cash desk. Did that count as interest? If it was it was a rather strange way of displaying affectionate feelings. Well, maybe not for a ten year old boy in the throngs of his first crush. Kane turned the mower around and thats when he saw Amber. She was heading toward her car. She stopped when she spotted him. Stared at him for a long moment, but did not raise a hand in greeting. Then he saw her wet her lips and duck her head. She hurried forward, opened her car door and quickly got in and started the engine. She was gone before Kane had a chance to even move a muscle.

The trip to the grocery store restored Ambers sense of balance. This was one activity that she was well versed in. Searching the grocery aisles for the best deals on food and paper products.
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Two hundred and sixty-seven dollars didnt go far when you factored in the rising cost of toilet paper, tissue paper and laundry detergent, but if she planned carefully and picked up only items on sale she could stretch the dollar figure that much further. Thankfully Lori and Hank, on their midnight snack fest before sex had only depleted the eggs, bread and milk, oh plus, the half pan of tasteless brownies. Amber sighed. That had been good because if theyd eaten anything from the basements side-by-side freezer that the Ryersons had informed her she could use while renting the house, she didnt think she could have contained her anger. Shed spent most of her days before her mother had arrived with Toby and Melissa in tow, stocking the freezer with an assortment of prepared meals in the forms of humongous batches of meatless spaghetti sauce and spinach lasagna. A talent that she was forever grateful for having perfected over the years while working in a family owned Italian restaurant back in Hamilton. The ability to cook simple meals that could be made in vast quantities for a rather cheap price. Which had been good because shed charged on her emergency credit card about as much as she could afford to pay off at the end of the month. Thankfully the bet money that had been in the envelope would keep her credit card in her wallet. For now. Too bad the grocery store didnt have a wanted sign in the window, because Amber could have used the stores discount as well as the income to her advantage. As it was she had only to rely on the tiny sale signs posted on the shelves below a variety of items and the sale advertisements she received in the mailbox. Amber paused at the end of the aisle and glanced down at the assortment of baking goods she saw on the shelves. A quick calculation told her that she still wasnt able to afford a tin of cocoa or a bottle of vanilla. She could however afford a box of baking soda and a tin of baking powder. Amber headed down the aisle.

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Kane saw Amber returning home. Again she spotted him but didnt acknowledge his presence as she lifted a couple of plastic grocery bags from the backseat of her car. Kane continued to hack away at the cedar hedge that bordered his parents driveway and separated their property from the Dixons next door. Amber returned to the car a couple more times and then disappeared into the house. She didnt come back out to talk to him. Kanes shoulders slumped. He had hoped that she would come over and speak to him. At least for no other reason than to tell him how Toby was doing. The little guy had been sure miserable last night. Damn, Kane cursed silently. He eyed the hedge. In his brief moment of inattentiveness hed hacked a six inch chunk out of the cedar branches. Okay, now instead of the hedge being three feet tall it was going to have to be two and a half feet. Kane started in on fixing his mistake. When he was finally finished he put away all the gardening equipment and was about to head on back home when he noticed that Amber was out in the Ryersons vegetable garden. He knew he shouldnt be doing what he was about to do, but damn, Kane just couldnt help himself. He was a glutton for punishment. Your leaf lettuce is ready to pick. Amber turned at the sound of his voice. She didnt say anything. You also have two zucchinis that are about ready. Maybe another day, two at best. Amber still remained silent, but she was watching him. Watching him in a funny way that made him suddenly real nervous. So of course he began to chatter on non-stop. And your grape tomatoes are ripening rather quickly. You should have your first crop by the end of next week. Your full sized tomatoes will be another couple of weeks, perhaps a month before theyre ready to start picking. But by then youll be able to start picking your yellow beans. The Ryersons always had a wonderful vegetable garden. Its nice to see that you intend to keep it up. My mother makes this amazing pickled relish from Mrs. Ryersons overstock of cucumbers. If youd
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this amazing pickled relish from Mrs. Ryersons overstock of cucumbers. If youd like Im sure my mother will happily make you up a batch. Im sorry. Kane frowned. For what? He glanced at the section of garden where several cucumber plants had sprouted nicely and were beginning to grow. Youll have plenty of cucumbers for enough jars of relish to last you the entire winter. Even with feeding your large family. He saw Amber bite her bottom lip and turn her eyes away from him. Was he not supposed to know about her circumstances? Should his parents have kept the fact that Amber had ten half and step siblings, from him? He didnt understand why. There was no shame in having a mother that had been married four times. Heck his own mother was his fathers second wife, and he himself had come as close to walking down the aisle as a man could get. He was in no position to judge. Not that he would have anyway. Amber returned her eyes to him. Kane didnt like what he saw in their depths. She was about to give him the brush-off. Big time. Look, you seem like a really great guy, and youve been nothing but kind and...well really wonderful, but... Kane swallowed. Here it comes. If I fell in love with you, I think it would kill me. Kanes eyes widened. Whoa, that wasnt what hed been expecting to hear her say. More along the lines of, Ive got too much responsibility, too many mouths to feed, Im too busy, I cant get involved right now, or, youre not my type. Certainly not that she could possibly fall for him, and in a big way. No, he wasnt expecting that. Not at all. Amber was shaking her head as she waved a hand. I cant hop from bed to bed, she informed him. For some reason youre special, and with you... Im afraid Id want it to be forever. And with Hank and m- Hank? The sudden harshness he heard in his tone must have sounded as bad to Amber as it did to him, for she actually flinched. Youd rather be with Hank because you think you wouldnt fall in love
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Youd rather be with Hank because you think you wouldnt fall in love with him! Hes my half brother. Did he tell you that? Ambers eyes narrowed and she gave him one of the same looks she had back in his shop that very first day. Kane took a deep breath and shut his mouth. Yes, Hank did tell me that youre family, she said in a measured tone, and no, I frankly dont want to have anything to do with your half brother. But I dont seem to have much of a choice when Loris the one bedding him. Lori? My mother. You call your mother, Lori? Most children call their Mom, Mom. If you havent already figured out, Im not like most children. Kane chuckled. The info regarding her mother and Hank was making him feel rather light headed. So there was nothing going on with Hank and Amber. He felt so relieved. So what did your informant tell you? My informant? Whoever told you about my large family? Was it Myles and Mildred, or perhaps Birdie and Jeremy? Kane opened his mouth to speak, but Amber continued before he could say anything. This is why I dont like small towns. Nothing is private. If you dont disclose information immediately, rumours start and then people are looking at you sideways, afraid to look you in the face. Well, whatever. We probably wont be here very long. Youre leaving? Kane watched Amber take a deep breath. She knelt down and pulled at a few weeds that were growing between the tomatoe plants. I will if I dont soon find another job. The money I make at the bar only barely covers the cost for the rent on the house. For now Ive been sending my tip money on food, but pretty soon Ill have to put that sum toward paying the car insurance, our medical coverage, and then to fill up the tank in the vehicles. My car is already running on fumes as it is. So you need work? Amber shot him a look over her shoulder. Isnt that what I just said?
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Yeah, yeah, its just that... Well Willis, hes my other half brother, the guy that was in the bar with Hank last night. Amber simply stared at him. Well, Willis and his wife Ginny, they own a berry farm. Actually its not strictly a berry farm. They grow more than just berries. They also have an orchard where they grow a couple of different varieties of apples, plus they have a huge pumpkin patch. Amber stood. She tossed the bunch of weeds off into a bucket and brushed the dirt from her hands. A real pumpkin patch? Ive never seen one before. Kane nodded. Yeah, a real pumpkin patch. Actually its more like a field of pumpkin patches. Theres one section for cooking pumpkins and another for pumpkins that are used to make jack-o-lanterns. Growing pumpkins for Halloween is big business. Mom makes the most amazing pumpkin pies from the cooking pumpkins and you should taste her pumpkin cookies. You cant eat just one, believe me I know. Amber gave him a half smile. Her eyes were now focused intently on him. Kane swallowed. He started to sweat. Anyway, its strawberry season. Amber raised her eyebrows at him and shrugged. Kane laughed. Amber wasnt a country girl, she wasnt cluing in. Someone has to pick those berries. They dont just magically walk off the fields and jump into the baskets. Amber smirked, then a smile spread across her face. Kane felt his stomach tighten. Hed finally gotten a genuine, magnificent smile out of her. Now all he had to do was figure out how to keep that smile on her beautiful face. I know its not much. Only a couple of weeks worth of work. Not much money, but- Ambers eyes widened. A job? Youre giving me a lead on a job? Well not really. Its only seasonal work. And hard work at that, but if the money will help... And youre sure that theyll hire me? Kane shrugged. I dont see why not? Theyre always in need of someone to help harvest the crops. You see each year Willis puts a couple of advertisements in
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help harvest the crops. You see each year Willis puts a couple of advertisements in some of the nearby towns local newspapers, and people drive from miles around in order to come out and buy a couple of baskets, pints or quarts of berries from them every summer. Then in early fall people return for the apples and even later come back for the pumpkins. Ambers smile widened even further. What with Ginny being pregnant and not being able to do much picking, Im sure that if you wanted they would hire you for the entire growing season. Of course the work wont be all day, so you could still work at the bar. How are your cooking skills? Amber giggled. What? Ginny makes jams and jellies for the local grocer to sell. Cant keep the jars on the shelves for more than a couple of days at a time. I really couldnt tell you how good the strawberry jam is, since Im not that crazy about strawberries. Im more of a blueberry type of guy, but maybe she could use your help in- Kane shut up because Amber unexpectedly stepped forward. Thank you, thank you, thank you. She laughed, and then kissed him. Kanes brain froze. The kiss lasted no more than a split second. The briefest of lips touching lips, but that made no matter to Kane. Amber had kissed him. She actually kissed him. Amber stepped away. Do you think if I went now, right now, theyd give me an interview? Kane stared at Amber. He had no breath in him to answer her. I have a little time before I need to get to the bar. I could take a quick trip over. Where do they live? Where is the farm? Kane didnt say anything. He couldnt take his eyes from her glowing face. He wished that the kiss had lasted longer. Long enough for him to at least have kissed her back. Either way, he was still in a state of shock. He wanted to lick the taste of her from his lips. To inhale again that hint of her floral shampoo. Kane? Yes, yes, sure. Ill...Ill draw you a map.

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Amber woke with a new sense of optimism. Thanks to Kanes suggestion that she seek employment at his half brother Willis and wife Ginnys berry farm, shed finally secured an extra income. Grant it, it wasnt much. Just a few hours a day, four days a week, and only during picking season. But it was something. Reaching over Amber clicked off the button on her alarm clock and rolled out of bed. Five thirty. Just enough time to scarf down a couple of pieces of toast and a glass of milk while fixing herself a quick snack to take with her. She had no idea how hard it would be to pick strawberries. The closest shed ever been to a farmers field or any fruit or vegetable crop was the backyard garden shed had back home in Hamilton. And of course the one she now had in the backyard of the house she was renting from the Ryersons. Still she was sure she was venturing into uncharted territory. Welcome to her new life. Pulling open a dresser drawer, Amber yanked out underwear, a bra and a pair of socks. Stripping out of her pyjamas she quickly stepped into her panties and hooked up her bra. She grabbed a pair of worn jeans and a check long sleeved shirt from her closet and hurriedly began to finish dressing. A frown came to her face when she noticed that her shirt was missing a button, in a most strategic place. Okay, maybe a t-shirt underneath the shirt would be a good idea. Amber yanked open another drawer and pulled out one of her t-shirts. It had a hole along the seam at the right shoulder and a bleach stain smack dab in the middle of her chest, but hey, it was still serviceable, and frankly no one was going to see the shirt anyway, so it would have to do. Pulling on her socks, she quickly made her way down the attic stairs, being extra careful that she kept as quiet as she could as she passed Loris bedroom. She
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extra careful that she kept as quiet as she could as she passed Loris bedroom. She paused in the doorway to the room across the hallway that had become temporarily Melissa and Tobys. The two children were fast asleep. Amber thanked her lucky stars. She crept by the room and then carefully stepped over the third step down from the top of the stairs. Only a few weeks in the house and she already knew where every squeak and creak of the old floorboards and staircases were. After a hastily eaten breakfast and a quick trip to the bathroom Amber was out the door heading toward her car. There was a slight chill in the morning air but Amber ignored it as she walked down the pathway. She pulled up short when she saw something sitting on the hood of her car. Was it an animal? In the still dim light of dawn, she couldnt exactly be sure if what was perched close to the windshield was friend or foe. Cautiously she edged her way toward her car and then suddenly burst into quiet laughter. A hat. A straw hat. Amber glanced around. She couldnt see anyone. No one slinking away down the sidewalk, no fluttering of curtains in any of the nearby homes, not even the rustle of the wind through the trees. Okay, she nodded, and put her small lunch bag on the roof of her car before reaching out to touch the hat. A half smile spread across her lips. The hat was brand new, not even a dirt smudge on the brim. She bit her lip as she fingered the black silk scarf that was rimming the bottom of the hat. The tails of the scarf went through the brim so that they could be tied underneath her chin. How thoughtful, she grinned. As she picked the hat up she noticed a pair of garden gloves underneath, resting on the windshield. They were pink and yellow with tiny blue flowers and ladybugs woven into the material. The fingers were green with bumpy rubber finger grips. Ambers grin widened. A small note card was tucked in between the gloves.
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Happy Picking - Kane Amber smiled and shook her head. She again glanced around. Was Kane watching her now? She still had no idea where the man lived. For all she knew he could live a couple of houses down or even around the corner. There were no houses across the street from the Ryersons house. Just a cow pasture and a small creek. No movement. So when had he put the hat and gloves on her car? Last night? No, she figured. The hat was dry, and still slightly warm, plus there was no dew dampening the silk scarf. So he must have put the gifts out recently. So why isn't he coming forward and taking credit? Having no answer, but being incredibly pleased, Amber grabbed her lunch bag and opened her car door. For the twenty minute drive to Willis and Ginnys strawberry field, Amber kept glancing over at the hat and gloves Kane had given her. His kindness was getting harder and harder to resist. Ambers heart sighed even as her lips smiled. What was she going to do about Kane?

Arent you the early bird. Amber startled at the sound of the male voice. She turned around and watched a man stride across the gravel car park toward her. Where hed come from she had no idea. She glanced around for a vehicle. He must have noticed her confusion for he jerked a thumb toward a small building. I parked my bike behind the barn. He smiled. He held out his hand toward her. You must be Amber. Amber nodded. They shook hands. News travels fast. The guy laughed. He released her hand. That it does, especially when Uncle Kis is involved.
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Amber nodded again. Now she saw the resemblance. He did look quite a bit like Kane. The same colour hair and eyes, only this younger man was slightly leaner. What she would have thought Kane looked like ten years younger. Im Hanks oldest boy- Amber smiled. Sam, and youre twenty-one. Again the guy laughed. I guess the news travels both ways. Im sorry we havent met before. You probably know that I live next door to you. Im rarely home. Me neither. I work evenings and nights, sleep during the day. Sam nodded. Same here. Where do you work? She told him. Sam frowned. Uncle Kis know where you work? Amber nodded. Sams frown deepened. A pickup truck hauling a flatbed trailer behind it pulled into the car park. A few moments later Willis hopped out. Morning, Sammy. Youre here bright and early, Amber. Eager to get started? Amber smiled. Willis didnt know the half of it. On Saturday when shed stopped by to see about the possibility of finding work, hed told her that they started picking berries somewhere between six and eight in the morning. It was barely before six now. Two extra hours of work, was two extra hours of pay. And she could use every extra dollar she earned. Well lets get started. Willis headed over to the barn and unlocked the building. First we load up the trailer with baskets. Amber followed Willis. She pulled on her new gloves as Sam walked beside her. Sam gestured with his chin toward her. Nice gloves. Amber nodded. Uncle Kis? Amber felt herself blush. He left them along with this hat on the hood of my car this morning. She pulled on the silk scarf tied around her neck. She put the hat on her
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She pulled on the silk scarf tied around her neck. She put the hat on her head. It fit just right. Sam grinned. Sounds exactly like something hed do. He shook his head. Oh, man, Uncle Kis has got it bad. Ambers blush deepened. Okay, she knew that Kane was interested in her. That had been obvious from the first twenty minutes shed spent in his company back at the shop on that rainy Monday morning a month ago. She could handle a mans interest in her. Shed done it before. She could do it again. Oh, no she couldnt. She couldnt handle anything about Kane. Not his obvious interest in her, his unstoppable stream of chatter, and his endless streak of kindness, nor could she handle her- No she wouldnt say it. She wasnt becoming interested in the man. Okay, okay. She was. She liked Kane. But only a smidgen. Not much. Oh, who was she kidding? Shed kissed him. Shed kissed Kane. What had she been thinking? And who else saw her do it?

Are you getting tired yet? Amber glanced up and watched Ginny Stewart approaching her from down the long dirt pathway between the rows of strawberry bushes. She was heavy with child and beaming with an inner glow that sparkled her eyes. Amber got to her feet and removed her gloves. She tucked them into her back pocket before accepting the plastic cup Ginny was offering her. Not really. Amber smiled and stretched. She took a long drink of the cool water Ginny had given her. I wish I could say the same. Ginny grinned and patted her stomach. This little guy it seems is getting heavier by the second. It will sure feel good to sleep in any position but sitting up. When are you due? Ginny sighed. Not for another three weeks. Actually the same day as Larrys wedding, but I dont think this little guy is going to wait that long.
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So youre having a boy? Oh, yeah. No doubt about it? Willis must be happy. Amber knew that Willis and Ginny already had two girls. Ecstatic. Ginny grinned. But now I guess well have to try for another boy. You know, to even things up. Youre planning on having more? Ginny gave Amber a look. Well, of course. A couple more at least. Amber pressed her lips tightly together, then opened them to take another drink. Okay, Ginny and Lori had a lot in common. Maybe the two of them could become friends. Lori certainly had a lot more in common with Ginny than she did. She wasnt planning on having any kids. She already had too many to look after as it was now. Why dont you head back with me? By the time we get back Willis will have arrived with the first load of berries. You can help me get the stand ready for business. Amber nodded. Sure. She bent to pick up the almost full basket of berries shed just picked. Do you happen to know what time it is?

Kane backed his car into one of the old service roads that lead to the back end of Williss strawberry field. The gate was closed and locked but he had plenty of room to park his car and observe Willis and Ginnys fruit stand without being noticed or impede the flow of traffic. And boy, was there ever traffic. Cars were lined up on both sides of the road just waiting for a parking space to come available in the gravel car park. Kind of like the news pieces hed seen on television where cars were lined up at gas stations before an expected gas price jump at the pumps. People loved a chance at getting a cheaper deal filling up their gas tanks, just like they loved the berries from Williss fields. Kane shook his head as he turned the ignition off. He shouldnt be here. Amber was working.
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Craig had informed him that both Willis and Ginny were real pleased with Ambers performance. He also covertly mentioned that Sam had a huge crush on her. Kanes gut twisted with tension. He couldnt blame Sam. What man with a pulse wouldnt be half in love with Amber the moment theyd met her? Hell, he certainly was. Had she kissed Sam, the way shed kissed him? Kane really didnt want to know. It was better to think that Amber was too busy picking and selling strawberries to focus her attention on Sam, or, for that fact any other guy. Kane scratched the side of his neck. He really, really shouldnt have come. But Kane couldnt stay away another moment. It was already Thursday. Five days since hed last seen Amber. Five long torturous days since shed kissed him. Kane ran a hand down his face then began tapping the steering wheel with his right thumb. He started to feel all nervous again. Not a good sign. He opened the car door and got out. He unbuttoned the top buttons of his shirt and took off his tie, tossed the tie onto the backseat, then rolled up his sleeve. He slammed the car door shut. Well, here goes nothing.

Hey, Kis. Ginny waved. What are you doing here? Kane smiled at his sister-in-law. I came to- Now dont you be trying to tell us that youre here for the strawberries because we all know that youre not partial to them. Kane felt himself flush. Ginny grinned at him. Ambers real busy at the moment. Kane nodded. He could see Amber handing over baskets filled with ripe juicy strawberries in exchange for money at an alarmingly rapid rate. The baskets were practically flying off the slatted wooden waist high racks faster than Willis could replenish them.
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Kane noticed that the flatbed was almost empty. At this rate theyd be out of produce in about fifteen, twenty minutes. Amber glanced in his direction. She gave him a half smile, then quickly returned her attention to another customer. Kane felt his heart swell. Kis, Ginny said, will you grab the sold out signs? Kane groaned. He hated this part. The part where he was the one to tell the people waiting in line that theyd come for nothing. That thered be no more berries left by the time they got to the front of the line. Ginny laughed. Youre big, strong, and the most diplomatic one in the family. Im sure that those disappointed people will rather heard the news from you instead of Willis. Kane had to agree. Okay. Ginny smiled at him as he turned and headed toward the barn. By the time he had hauled the SORRY SOLD OUT - COME AGAIN THANK YOU signs to the edge of the road he was already hearing the loud honks of peoples car horns. Kane gave the crowd of people parked in their cars a genuinely regretful smile.

Amber had little time to watch Kane handle the surprisingly rowdy crowd of disappointed people. For a second she thought hed get run over, but within a few minutes he had everything under control and people were pulling their cars out of the long line and heading back toward the highway. Amber smiled and said thank you to the last of her customers. The racks were empty and the tiny cash register was full. Ginny waved goodbye to a man and a woman who had just bought the last three baskets, then sank down onto the lawn chair behind the fruit stand counter. Kane joined them at the stand after putting the signs back into the barn. Amber wiped at a bead of sweat that was trickling down the side of her face. She smiled at Kane.
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He smiled back. I dont think weve ever sold out so fast. Ginny grinned. Youre really good for business, Amber. Amber glanced at Ginny. Thanks. Im sure the fact that she took off her shirt and started serving the customers in her tank top, didnt have any affect on the sales. Ginny gave her husband a wry smirk. We just give the customers what they want. Yeah, the male ones. Willis snorted. Kis, here can vouch for that. Amber saw Kane swallow. Willis bent to kiss the top of his wifes head. Amber quickly put her worn check shirt back on. She looked at Kane again. He looked good. Too good. Standing in his pressed trousers and his dark grey shirt with the sleeves rolled up over his forearms and the buttons opened at his collar. He winked at her. Would you like to grab some lunch? Ambers stomach growled. Kane laughed. I take that as a yes? Amber wet her lips. Ginny smiled while Willis opened the cash register. He handed Amber her pay for her hours of work. Thanks, Amber said. Ill see you back on Monday. Have a good weekend. You too, Willis and Ginny replied. Im parked down the road, Kane said. Would you like to meet me somewhere, say the diner? Amber shook her head. No, actually- Hey, Amber! Sam shouted. You coming to the point? Kane stiffened beside her. No, not today, Sam. Amber bit her lip. Kane and I- Aw, come on, Sam pleaded. The guys really like it when you come. We were going to play volleyball and then have a dip in the lake. Amber looked at Kane. She noticed that he wasnt looking at her. No thank you. Amber slipped her hand into Kanes. Another time.
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Kane looked at her. She saw the surprise in his eyes. Youre coming with me? Amber smiled. Yes, of course. But first, I need to have a quick shower and a change of clothes. I stink.

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This was not what Kane had intended when hed asked Amber out for lunch. To be riding shotgun in her car with two screaming kids buckled into the backseat. But when it came to Amber, life had a way of turning his world upside down and sideways. Kane didnt mind. He was used to kids. He may have only been eight when Hanks oldest son Sam was born, but by the time Fred and Jason had come on the scene and then of course Williss girls, Katie and Holly, hed become a real pro. What he also hadnt expected when suggesting they eat at the local diner was a quick change in plans. Lunch had instead consisted of grilled cheese sandwiches and a hunk of white cake, no icing, no sprinkles and definitely no ice cream. But the cake, plain as it was had been absolutely mouth watering, and Kanes stomach had growled for want of a second piece. He however, didnt even get to finish the first since hed insisted on Amber sharing it with him. Sitting in the kitchen of the Ryersons old house, hed had flashes of memories from when hed sat at that very table watching Mrs. Ryerson make grilled cheese sandwiches for him and his friend, Melvin, Mrs. Ryersons son. Those had been happy days, and so was today. Hed enjoyed watching Amber make lunch for him and Melissa and Toby. Ambers mother Lori had opted out for any food, complaining that she had a headache and preferred to sit quietly out on the back porch in the sun flipping through a magazine. Amber had appeared worried at her mothers sickened condition and had commented to him that Lori did look a little pale. Kane couldnt see how Amber could tell. Lori was more tanned than most farmers were at this stage in the season. So that takes him back to where he was right now. Sitting in the passenger seat of Ambers car, driving down the highway toward the nearest town, on what had been a spur of the moment road trip idea by Lori to get the kids out of the house. Kane glanced at Amber.
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She was concentrating on the road, and chewing at the inside of her cheek. Something he was beginning to discover she did when she had something on her mind. So what was she thinking about? Amber had changed out of her strawberry stained jeans and long sleeve shirt and tank top into a pretty floral blouse and a pair of beige shorts. Shed also showered and tied her wet hair back into a ponytail. Her hair was just starting to dry and tiny strands were beginning to curl at the nape of her neck. Kane swallowed, hard. The kids were still screaming in the backseat and now little Melissa was pounding her feet against the back of his seat, jarring him with every little stomp. Kane thought of pulling his seat forward out of reach of the kids little legs, but he was already so far forward as it was, if he went any further, hed have his knees crammed up against the dashboard. Okay, he didnt mind the cramped quarters, but he did however find that hed forgotten that kids at the ages of Melissa and Toby had no volume control. Aside from still being hungry, if he didnt do something real fast, he too would be complaining of a headache. Okay, okay. Kane groaned loudly. The kids didnt quiet, so he whistled. Amber didnt even flinch at the piercing sound, but the kids immediately quieted. Were going to play a game, Kane informed. Im going to name an animal and you two are going to make whatever sound that animal makes. Okay? A cat? Melissa hollered as she bobbed her head. A cat, a cat. Meowwwww. Meowwww. Amber shot him a look. She smiled. Okay, a cat. You join in too, Toby. Daug, daug. Toby whined. Okay, a dog. Ruff, ruff, ruff. Meowwwww, meowwww. Ruff, ruff. Now a cow. Both kids mimicked Kane. Mooooooooo. Mooooooooo.
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Both kids mimicked Kane. Mooooooooo. Mooooooooo.

For the next forty minutes while Amber drove to the nearest town, Kane continued to keep the children entertained. Which was a good thing because Melissa tended to get a little car sick. Luckily there were no mishaps and by the time Amber pulled her car into the parking lot of the towns local thrift shop, she had heard every possible animal sound fifty times over. Plus, several rounds of I spy, and a new game that she was sure that Kane just made up off the top of his head, called, what food am I thinking of? As she unbuckled Toby from his car seat, she saw Kane take Melissas hand as he slammed the car door shut. A moment later she heard him behind her. Ill take him. Not questioning his kindness, Amber handed the boy over. When Toby didnt even fuss as Kane adjusted the boys weight against his side, Amber grinned. She was impressed. She reached out for Melissas hand, but the girl shook her head. She had a death grip hold on Kanes baby finger. Kane shrugged. Amber snickered. Okay, kids, remember, one toy. And one toy only. Amber only hoped that whichever toy they chose, she could afford it. She only had what money Willis had given her for her mornings work. And she needed it to last as long as she could. Amber headed off toward the thrift shops door. Kane and the children right behind her.

Kane was staring. He knew he shouldnt, but once more he couldnt stop himself. He was just so glad that he was actually out with Amber. It wasnt really so much a date. They hadnt spoken more than a couple dozen words since theyd
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much a date. They hadnt spoken more than a couple dozen words since theyd piled into her car little over an hour ago. But maybe words werent the only way of communicating. Hed noticed her watching him. Studying his interaction with the kids. Observing how Melissa didnt seem to want to stray very far from his side. The child had thankfully released her hold on his baby finger. Now all he had to do was get the feeling back into the digit before she latched on again. Toby on the other hand had practically leaped from his arms to run around the small store. It was a good thing that there were few customers, for Toby wasnt concerned who or what he bumped into in his quest for a toy. Kane flexed his hand as he ambled over to where Amber was looking at a rack of womens clothing. Melissa took a few steps to follow him, then spotting something on a shelf, she turned and headed in the opposite direction. Amber smiled when he came to stand beside her. I need to find a couple of pairs of shorts, and some t-shirts. For work. I cant keep wearing the same clothes night after night. What do you think of these? She held up a pair of black shorts that in Kanes opinion were way too short. Kane wet his lips. They look fine, although I dont think the men who come into the bar will care. Theyre there for your...lets say...lack of clothing. Amber made a face at him. Dont remind me. She picked up another pair of shorts. Kane swallowed. He really didnt want to venture into this territory, but since she had opened up the line of communication, he thought hed just jump right in. No ones tried...I mean...the men, they... Amber turned to him. She looked up into his eyes. Other than the occasional guy grabbing my butt, and the accidental brushing up against me? No. She shook her head. I havent had to grab some guys private parts and twist. Ouch. Kane grimaced. Then he laughed. Thats good to hear. Its not like I want to be there in the first place. I know that the job is crappy, and I hate having to work so late at night. I wish I could say that its only temporary. That I could find other work. Something with better pay and perhaps
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temporary. That I could find other work. Something with better pay and perhaps benefits, but, Ill probably be at the bar for a long while, or, until I get fired. Fired? Amber nodded. Too many nights where I need to suddenly disappear, like the night we took an emergency side trip to the drugstore. It wont take the other girls long to start complaining to management. Kane frowned. But, hey, the job pays the bills. Well...part of the bills. I never did get a chance to thank you for telling me about Willis and Ginny. They really like you, and from what Craigs been telling me youre doing a great job, Kane said. Im glad that theyre pleased. She picked up a t-shirt, and held it out for him to look at. He shook his head. I didnt know what to expect out in the fields down on my knees picking strawberries, but I like it. She replaced the t-shirt. Its good, honest work, and I like the chance to meet some of the people who buy the produce. Yeah, Im sure the customers, the male ones are glad to see you up close and personal. Amber made a face at him. Kanes stomach clenched. Even her funny faces were sexy as all hell. Yeah, well, Ginnys finding it a little hard to stand for long periods of time. Her pregnancy starting to bother her? Kane asked, trying to keep the worry from his tone. I think, a little. Amber nodded. Well anyway, I like Willis, hes been really nice to me. Ginnys nice too, but even though Ive been spending a lot of time with her, I really havent warmed to her yet. Kane raised an eyebrow. Everyone loved his sister-in-law, Ginny. Amber shrugged. I think its because shes too much like Lori. You know, all into the whole idea of having twenty kids. Happily being pregnant. Looking forward to the nursing, the diaper changes, and the sleepless nights. She paused and wrinkled her nose. Although from my experience, Lori has done little of those things. Nursing, yeah, but as for the others, well...Ive clocked more time battling smelly diapers, than she, and Im still having sleepless nights. So maybe
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battling smelly diapers, than she, and Im still having sleepless nights. So maybe Loris not so much like Ginny after all. Kane grinned. Oh, I dont know. Ive done my share of changing diapers for Katie and Holly myself. Amber smiled up at him. Oh, poor Uncle Kis. What, Ginny didnt have you knitting baby booties- Oh, that reminds me. She quickly handed Kane the two pairs of shorts, plus a navy blue t-shirt shed picked out, and then made her way over to a bin that had plastic bags of different colours of yarn. She started to rummage through the pile. The one thing Lori can do besides birthing children, is knit and crochet. She doesnt even need a pattern. Amber found a bag of black yarn and another in a shade of charcoal. She handed them both to Kane as well as a pair of steel knitting needles. What was he, a shopping cart? Kane chuckled to himself. Hed never heard Amber speak so many words. Had the tables turned? Was he now the one making her nervous? Man, he hoped so. Lori should be able to crochet a vest out of each of these balls, she said more to herself than him. Thatll mean I can save a few more loonies. So, from what you just said about Ginny, I take it that you dont want to have any kids. Amber paused. Kane saw her shoulders bunch up. She took a breath and didnt look at him. At this point, I cant see it. So, if thats what youre looking for, Kane, I think its best for you to cut your losses. Kane swallowed. At least she was being honest. Hey, thats okay. He shrugged. I havent thought that much about marrying and having children. This time she did turn to look at him. In fact, she seemed to look right through him. I dont understand why? she finally said. Youre a great guy. Sexy and gorgeous and you have a good heart. Any woman would be crazy not to marry you and have a brood of kids with. Kane felt a hand twist his gut. He swallowed and gave Amber a half smile.
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He saw her blush. He guessed she just realized what shed just said. Kane watched her chew at the inside of her cheek. Yep, he definitely was making her nervous. Perhaps hed also just given her something to think about. Ambee! Ambee! I wanna truck. Toby bellowed. He ran up to Amber and tugged on the bottom edge of her shorts. The moment was broken. Amber reached down to put her hand on Tobys head. Okay, Sweetie, that looks like a good choice. She glanced around. Now wheres Melissa? What toy did she choose? Melissa appeared around the corner of an aisle. She had a pink plastic skipping rope in her hands. Okay, we need to find you two some sunhats, and then well go. She patted Toby on the head and looked around. There was a small table over to their left. They all headed over toward it. Plucking a pink and white flowered one off the table she placed it on Melissas head and tugged. Amber wrinkled her nose. The hat was a little too small. She tried a green and blue one with a paisley design. It fit just right. With a satisfied smile, Amber snatched the hat off Melissas head, then began to smooth the little girls hair. For Toby she chose a dark blue hat in a solid colour. Toby, lets see if this one fits. Toby scrunched up his face. Kane watched Amber raise an eyebrow at the child. The little boy sighed heavily and rolled his eyes. He let Amber put the hat on him, but as soon as she took it off, he shot off in the other direction, out of reach. No second chance for Amber to try another one on him. Amber laughed and shook her head. She gestured to Melissa with her chin. Go. The little girl smiled and ran off in search of other toys to play with while they were still in the shop. As Amber and Kane passed a rack of bathing suits, Kane paused. Sam mentioned that you go to the Point. Its a very popular spot for the
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Sam mentioned that you go to the Point. Its a very popular spot for the young people. Amber frowned at him. You make it sound like youre a hundred years old. Young people? Youre young people. Im almost thirty. And Im almost twenty-four, so? Kane shrugged. Do you like the lake? The water is great, very few weeds out there. Though, I hope you havent tried jumping off the cliffs. I know the guys do it all the time, but theres rocks beneath the water. If youre not experienced in knowing where they are- Dont worry, I aint going to be doing any cliff diving. Kane felt relief wash over him. So you just swim out to the dock and back? No. No? I just sit on the beach, or play volleyball. You dont swim, like you dont drink coffee. Amber suddenly smiled at him. One of her rare but beautiful smiles. You remembered. Kane felt himself flush. I swim. Then you dont have a bathing suit. I dont need a bathing suit. Kane swallowed. The thought of Amber swimming in her birthday suit had his pulse doing the hundred yard dash. You swim in... He couldnt say it. Amber laughed. A pair of shorts and a tank top. That info somehow didnt make things better. Now Kane had the image of a wet tank top clinging to every curve of AmbersYou need a bathing suit. He saw Ambers eyes turn wary. No, I dont. She moved down one of the aisles picking up a few other items. Sure do you. Kane grinned. Its almost summer and youll be spending plenty of time down at the lake. I know we live a lot further north than Hamilton,
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plenty of time down at the lake. I know we live a lot further north than Hamilton, but summers can still be pretty hot and sticky here. I said, no. Kane smirked. This one looks really sexy...I mean nice. He held up a diamond patterned, silver and royal blue string bikini. Ill bet youll look just fabulous in it. Amber took a deep breath. Kane saw her lips press tightly together. Here, Ill get it for you. Do you think Ive gotten the right size? Suddenly Amber returned to where he was standing. She took the bathing suit from his hand and placed it back onto the rack. You are not going to buy me a bathing suit, Kane Stewart. Why not? She grabbed his now empty hand. Because I dont need one, she stressed. Kane felt his heart stop. Her hand was warm on his. Didnt Amber do anything for herself, and herself alone? Shed come to the thrift shop in search of cheap clothing for work, and so far had only picked up two pairs of shorts and a t-shirt. Shed told Melissa and Toby that they could only have one toy, yet in her hands right now, she held a childrens puzzle, a board game that he himself had enjoyed as a child, and three storybooks. Shed picked out a sunhat for each of the kids and dangling from the fingers of her left hand, were a tiny pair of sandals that he was sure she was going to see if theyd fit Melissas little feet. Amber lived for her siblings. She worked night and day for them. Dropped everything on a dime to care for them, and from what hed seen so far, she probably was more of a mother to them than even Lori. No wonder Amber couldnt envision children of her own, and no wonder shed told him that if she fell in love with him it would kill her. There was no way under the sun that Amber would ever allow a man, any man to come between her and the kids. The guy would simply lose out. Everything time. Now he truly understood. Okay, you win. He gave her a forced smiled. No bathing suit. Amber released his hand. Okay, lets see if these fit Melissa. She held up the sandals. And then were outta here.

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As they were leaving the thrift shop Kane paused and turned to Amber. I need a minute before we head back. Thinking that Kane needed to use a nearby restroom she gave him a smile. Sure, well wait for you at the car. Can I come? Melissa asked. Kane smiled. Sure, kiddo. He glanced at Amber. Amber shrugged. So he wasnt going to take a pee. Exactly where was he going then? He better not come back with that damned bathing suit. Melissa clamped onto Kanes baby finger and as much as Amber wanted to watch where the two were headed, Tobys insistent whining for his toy truck distracted her. When she looked up again, both Kane and Melissa were gone. A stab of uneasiness rent her stomach, but only because she wasnt used to not being in complete charge of the children. But she neednt have worried that Kane was taking over what she viewed as her responsibilities, he was only being Kane. A nice guy, wanting to do something nice for her. Like he did with buying her that straw hat and garden gloves. Damn she still hadnt had a chance to thank him for the gifts. Ambee...truuucckk. Okay, okay, Toby. Give me a minute. Amber quickly herded Toby back over to her car in the parking lot. She opened the trunk and put the bags of toys and clothing in. She handed Toby his truck before closing the trunk. She was buckling Toby into his car seat when she spotted Kane and Melissa coming their way. Amber couldnt help but smile. Melissa was skipping alongside Kane. A small ice cream cone in her tiny hand. Amber finished buckling in Toby. She straightened and then closed the back car door. As she got into the car, Kane opened the car door for Melissa and took the cone from her as she climbed in and buckled up her seatbelt. He then handed her back her cone and climbed into the passenger seat. Toby was already reaching for his ice cream, which was in the form of a
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Toby was already reaching for his ice cream, which was in the form of a small cup and a plastic spoon. His tiny hands opened and closed as his truck now lay forgotten on the seat beside him. Kane reached back and handed Toby the small cup. What do you both say to Kane? Amber said. She glanced back at the two children in the backseat. Taaank you, Toby said around a mouthful of the soft serve vanilla ice cream. I already said, thank you. Melissa smiled. Well you can say it again. Thank you, Kane. Amber smiled. She looked to Kane. This is for you. He held out a waffle cone filled to over brimming with chocolate soft serve that had been liberally coated in colourful sprinkles. And I want you to eat every last bite. Amber noticed that hed gotten himself an ice cream milk shake. Amber shook her head and reached out to accept the scrumptious looking treat. Kanes hand closed over her wrist as she took the ice cream he offered her. His grip was gentle and his hand was warm. She felt a tingle run up her arm. But not before I get a bite myself. Kane leaned forward and with his eyes never leaving hers, took a bite of the waffle cone. Amber swallowed as Kane moved away. She really hadnt noticed before, but his eyes were the coolest shade of blue. Like fading blue jeans. Kane licked his lips. Okay, Amber sighed. Thats it. This is the moment she would remember to her dying day. The second she knew beyond a doubt that shed fallen hard for Kane Stewart. The moment where she knew that despite all her resistance, her heart would be, forever his. She heard laughter coming from the backseat. Amber grinned sheepishly, and raised a finger to the tip of her nose. Kane was still looking at her. What? She began to laugh. Youve got sprinkles all over the end of your nose.
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The phone was ringing. Answer the phone, Lori. Amber groaned, half asleep. She shoved her face further into the pillow. The phone kept ringing. Three...four...five times. Alright, alright. She grumbled. Obviously Lori wasnt in the house. Probably gone to the diner with the kids for breakfast with Hank. Hank had spent the night again. Shed known because once more Loris door had been locked when shed come home from work. And to make matters worse, shed found Melissa in her bed in the attic, crying for Molly. Cursing Lori all over again for upsetting the child, Amber crawled out of bed and padded down the attic stairs to her mothers bedroom where the nearest phone was located. The phone was still ringing. There was no answering machine, since Amber had disconnected the infernal contraption the moment shed moved in. She hated people leaving messages. Loris bedroom door was opened. Amber wandered in. She tried to keep her eyes from the unmade bed and rumpled sheets, but she couldnt help thinking that it looked like Lori had had a good time last night. Amber picked up the telephone receiver. Before she had a chance to even say hello a shrill voice echoed over the line. Finally! Someone answers. Do you know how long Ive been trying to get a hold of you people? Ginny? Yes. Amber, I need you. Amber immediately snapped to attention. Years and years of crisis management dealing with ten kids, kicking in.
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The baby! Youre having the baby! No, no, Ginny corrected. Im fine, the babys fine. I need you to come to work. Now! Amber glanced to Loris bedside clock. It was twenty after seven. Again, shed only gotten less than three hours of sleep. I know, I know, youve just come off your bar shift and probably havent had much sleep, but I dont have much choice. Ive tried calling Sam and Hank, but theres no answer and- Theyre probably at the diner. What? Never mind. Amber sighed heavily. What is it that you need, Ginny? I got a rush order for two hundred and three baskets. There was some mix up with the customers regular distributor and the company only delivered twentytwo baskets. They need two hundred and twenty-five for a charity event theyre holding this afternoon. Amber took a deep breath. Ginnys voice became panicked. Theres no way I can have that many baskets of strawberries picked without extra help. Saturday is one of our busiest days, and to have to pick two hundred more baskets, well I- Okay, okay, Amber interrupted. I get the message. Ill be there as soon as I can. Oh, Amber, youre a doll. I swear therell be a bonus in this for you. Amber sure hoped so. Shed been running on adrenaline and beer fumes for the last several days. Sleep hadnt been an option, what with Tobys ear infection flaring up again and Melissas constant heartache over missing her sister. And to top things off, one of the waitresses at the bar up and quit Thursday night, leaving Amber with more tables to handle with only an extra small sum of tips. Ill call Kis and see if he can help. Ill tell him to swing by and pick you up. Is that okay? Wont he have to work? Ginny didnt skip a beat. Ill tell him to get Craig to cover at the shop for the day. Yeah, yeah, sure. Amber shrugged. Tell him to come get me. Ill see you soon, bye.
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Wide awake now, Amber ran a hand through her hair. First things first. She needed clothes and a shower. She hurried back up the attic stairs to her bedroom and opened her closet door. Empty. Amber stood for a moment staring at the empty space. Where were her jeans, shirts and t-shirts? Not to mention the two vests she wore over her tank tops to the bar? Amber turned to her dresser and opened up the bottom drawer. Again, the space was empty. Amber frowned. Where were her clothes? Her frown increased and she hurried downstairs to the basement, only to find her worst fears confirmed. Lori hadnt done the wash. Ambers shoulders slumped. Not only had Lori failed to wash any of her work clothes for the bar shed also failed to wash the filthy clothes shed worn for the past week out in the strawberry fields. And from the looks of it, any other stitch of clothing Lori had brought for the children too. Amber shook her head. She began to rummage through the piles of dirty clothes looking for something to wear. She pulled out her strawberry stained jeans. Too far gone. She couldnt possibly put them on and get into Kanes car in good conscience. She found a pair of her short shorts. Not good either. Out in the fields so early in the morning, shed get eaten alive by the mosquitoes and black flies, and possibly a few deer flies too. She needed clean clothes. Knowing that shed also need clothes for tonight, and clearly she couldnt rely on Lori doing the wash, Amber quickly turned the washing machine on to a quick wash cycle. Then she began stuffing it full with as many of her clothes as she could find in a hurry, including her underwear and bras.
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As the water began to fill the washing tub, Amber added soap and quickly closed the lid. Well, that leaves out the shower. No way was she going to have enough time after she let the washer fill. Okay, next option was a fast trip to the bathroom and a quick sponge bath before she raided Loris closet in hopes of finding something to wear. The task was harder than Amber had imagined. Loris closet and dresser drawers were almost as equally empty. What the hell had Lori been doing all week? Sitting around eating Bon Bons? Amber opened the bottom drawer of Loris dresser and felt her stomach clench. Obviously, she had been. Amber reached in and came away with a half filled bag of pink mints and a handful of individually wrapped chocolate wrappers. A grocery stand tabloid rag was folded on top of a couple of entertainment magazines. Well, now she knew what Lori had spent the fifty bucks on. Amber shook her head angrily. She slammed the drawer shut. She couldnt pick strawberries in her baby doll pjs. What was she going to do now? The washing machine went ding. Not having any time to think about her lack of clothes, Amber quickly hurried back down to the basement and began pulling clothes out of the washer. Since she didnt have time to wait for the clothes to dry and she wasnt comfortable with leaving the dryer running while she was gone, Amber began to hang up her wet clothes.

Kane knocked again. Hed already rung the doorbell. Twice. No one answered. Where was Amber? Her car was still in the driveway, so she couldnt have already left for the strawberry fields. Plus Loris van was also parked in the driveway too.
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Kane tried the handle of the front door. It turned under his hand. He opened the door and stepped in. Hello. He called out as he shut the door behind him. No answer. He walked down the hallway and peeked into the living room. Empty. A little messy by his standards, but hey, with two small children running around, the large space wasnt any messier than Hanks or Williss houses. Okay, yes it was. Amber? He set the bag of pastries and the tray of drinks down onto the kitchen table. In the basement. Kane felt relief flood through him. He headed for the basement stairs. I brought you some Danishes and a cup of hot cho... Kanes words trailed off as he stopped at the bottom of the stairs. Amber stood in her underwear and a frilly pyjama top. She was trying to shove her right leg into what appeared to be the soaking wet leg of a pair of jeans. He could hear her cursing under her breath. Everything okay? Amber lifted her head and shot him a daunting glare. Does it look like everything is okay? Kane tried not to smirk. She cursed again and in the process of trying to wrestle the wet material over her right calve, her top shifted, offering him a spectacular view of her bare breasts. Kane sucked in a sharp breath. Ambers head snapped up. Her eyes narrowed. Dont get any ideas, I...rus. Im in no mood for male hormones. Kane pressed his lips together. Ideas...no. No, he wasnt getting any ideas. He was just getting XXX rated imagines flashing through his brain at lightning speed. Imagines of her, him. The two of them together pressed up against the washing machine. Her legs spread and wrapped around him. The frilly pyjama top pushed up over herKane swallowed painfully. He heard Amber swearing fiercely.
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Damn, damn, damn. She yanked the soaked jeans from her right leg. The action almost sent her crashing to the basement floor. Kane took a few steps forward but she righted herself, and made as if to toss the jeans angrily toward the edge of the washing machine. Amber obviously thought better because she grabbed a couple of clothespins from a wire bin. I have nothing to wear. She cried, as she pinned the jeans to the clothesline beside what Kane could see was a couple of pairs of sexy panties and two bras. Literally, I have no clean clothes. All Loris been doing around here for the last week it appears is eat candy and look at magazines. And sit in the sun? Amber sent him a fierce look. He held up his hands. You have to admit, she was awfully tanned the last time I saw her. Ambers eyes flashed and he was sure he saw her grit her teeth. Kane laughed. He couldnt help himself. Amber just looked so damn adorable standing there in a sexy pair of pink panties with her pyjamas top gaping open. In a flash Amber was across the short distance between the two of them. She poked the index finger of her right hand sharply against his chest. You think this is funny? Funny! Well I dont, I...rus! Kane quickly shook his head. While Ive been working my ass off, Loris been doing squat. She cant even manage to do a few simple household chores. This is not funny. Not funny at all! She poked him again. Three times. Im hungry, I can count the amount of hours Ive slept in the past week on both hands, and Im standing half naked in front of a man I want to kiss so desperately Im vibrating from the need. So dont you be- You want to kiss me? Amber paused. She closed her hand into a fist, and made a face at him. Well yeah, she said, what you think youre the only one who felt gypped at not getting a hot kiss at the end of our date? But- She held up her other hand. Just because I want to kiss you, doesnt mean I should. This. She opened her
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Just because I want to kiss you, doesnt mean I should. This. She opened her hand and poked him again, hard, while waving her other hand between them. Is not going to happen. Kane smiled. He grabbed both her hands. I think it already has. Amber chewed at the inside of her cheek. Her face crumpled into a mask of misery. I know. I couldnt help myself. Youve been just so... A tear gathered in the corner of her eye. Kane lifted a thumb to wipe it away. Dont... She croaked and shook her head. Dont be kind to me. My heart cant take it. Kane felt himself quiver. He couldnt be anything but kind to her. He loved her. Yes, he loved her. Had ever since that very first day. Kanes smile gentled. He slid his thumb over her cheekbone. The tear that was now clinging to her long lashes wet his thumb nail as she blinked. Listen, why dont I run next door? Im sure I can find something for you to wear. Freds fourteen and kind of close to your size. He took a more critical look at her. Okay, maybe Jason. But Im sure one of them will have a clean pair of jeans and a t-shirt in their closet. Amber took a deep breath. She nodded at him. Kane leaned forward and kissed her forehead. And as for you being hungry. I left food on the kitchen table. I want to see at least two of those Danishes gone by the time I get back.

Amber was angry. She again glanced at the money in the envelope. There was too much inside. Way too much and only one explanation. You cant keep doing this. Kane paused as he was about to open his car door. He turned to look at her. You need the money more than I do. Amber gritted her teeth. There was no denying that, but still she couldnt let Kane give her his share of the wages that Willis had handed over, not to mention the fat juicy bonus Ginny had promised.
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Youve already done so much, and this is a good chunk of money. Kane only smiled at her. He opened his car door and started to get in. The bet money, the hat and gloves. The food, and now this. She shook the envelope at Kane. Giving me money and buying me stuff wont make me feel guilty enough to sleep with you. Kane paused. He reversed himself and got back out of the car. He leaned his arms, his bare arms covered in dirt and crushed strawberry splashes against the roof of his car. You know, I may just be a simple country lad, but I never once considered that Id be needy enough that Id have to buy affection from a woman, especially a city girl like yourself. And, besides, havent we already covered the fact that you wont be treated like some whore? Kanes tone had been even and calm, but Amber knew just like the night that theyd taken the trip to the drugstore, the night shed told him where she lived, that he was absolutely furious. Amber sighed. You know what Im getting at. Kane shook his head. No, Im afraid I dont, Amber. Why dont you explain it to me? Flustered that shed made a complete botch of things, Amber pressed her lips together. She walked around the car and came to stand beside him. Kane didnt turn to face her. I didnt mean to hurt you. But I dont know how to make you understand. Her words had him glancing at her. Oh, Irus, Im beginning to really, really, really like you, and you confuse the hell out of me every time you jump in and come to my rescue. Kane raised an eyebrow at her. Amber swallowed and shrugged. Ive shouldered everything for so long that I dont know how to accept help. Im used to relying only on myself. Like with the wash today. I have to keep on top of everything, and I dont want you to begin to feel that Im using you. That I think youre some kind of restaurant, or, that you have to fix things. Amber, I... I know my life is a mess, and youre a great guy. A guy whose heart is so big that I know if I let you, youll try and solve all my problems. But I cant let
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big that I know if I let you, youll try and solve all my problems. But I cant let you. The kids are my problem and Lori...well, shes not fixable. So youre saying that youre a lost cause. Amber snorted. Im not a beaten puppy. No, just an old barn cat, protecting her kittens, razor sharp claws and all. His words made Amber laugh. He wasnt angry anymore. I just dont want you to think that I expect anything from you. What about my expectations? Amber sucked in a breath. What if I expect at some point youll become my girlfriend? Can I expect that from you? Amber felt herself flush. Weve only been on one date. A half date. Amber shot him a look. Kane shrugged. Come to think about it, it really was more like a third of a date. Dont forget I had to share you with two little rambunctious terrors. A smile spread over Ambers lips. She giggled. I had fun. Kane turned to face her. He leaned his back against the opened car door. Do you think I could convince you to finish off the other part of the date? What? Now? Kane nodded at her. Sure, why not? Craigs looking after the shop for the entire day. Kanes suggestion was tempting. So very tempting. Ambers smile widened. Okay, but only if youll agree to take back your portion of the money. She held out the envelope to him. Kane shook his head. No. The only reason I agreed to come and help out was so that I could spend some time with you. I know that sounds stupid, not to mention juvenile, but Ginnys problem gave me the perfect excuse to see you. If she hadnt called I would have resorted to mowing your lawn again. Ambers smile turned to surprise. What, you think youre the only one who is sexually frustrated? Please, Kane begged. He reached out and closed his hand over hers. Take my portion of the money and buy yourself something. Something just for you. Amber chewed at her bottom lip. Her heart tripped over itself as she looked up at him. He was getting harder and harder to resist. Just like shed feared.
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Okay, she finally said. Ill try, but I cant guarantee anything. The next installment payment on my car insurance is due soon. I could really use the money for that. Does that count? Kane shook his head, but he did laugh. He squeezed her hand before releasing it. I guess that will have to do. Good. So what do you want to do for our two-thirds of a date? Kane grinned. Let me take care of that. Ive got something in mind.

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The slamming of Kanes car trunk jarred Amber out of her impromptu nap. She sat up straighter in the front passenger seat of his car. She wiped a hand across her mouth catching a tiny stream of drool. She glanced around. She had no idea where she was. The driveway, the house, and the few other houses in the neighbourhood, they all didnt look familiar. Kane obviously hadnt brought her home. A light rap on her window had her glancing upward. Kane stood smiling at her. Time to get up sleepyhead. Amber licked her lips and unbuckled her seatbelt. Kane opened the door. He held a hand out for her to take. She put her hand in his. Whats in the bags? She gestured with her chin as she got out of the car. Kane quickly manoeuvred the bags out of her line of vision. Well behind his back. Its a surprise. Amber scrunched up her nose. The last thing she remembered was leaning her head back against the headrest and hearing Kanes voice chattering on about not worrying about getting his car dirty, as he pulled out of the dirt path that lead to the highway. She didnt even remember closing her eyes. Where Kane had stopped along the way to here, wherever here was, or, how much time had past, she hadnt a clue. But she did noticed that the bags he carried, before hed hid them from her, had come from the drugstore. I hope theres food in there, she said, cause Im starving. Kane shut the car door with his foot. In a matter of speaking, yes, I purchased some comestibles. Amber shook her head. She moved with him as he headed toward the side door of a lovely bungalow style house with a wraparound porch. As long as whatever it is its edible, its okay with me. Kane smiled and released her hand so that he could open the screen door
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Kane smiled and released her hand so that he could open the screen door and ushered her over the threshold. You dont lock your doors? Kane shrugged. Your front door wasnt locked earlier either. Amber frowned. It wasnt? She always locked the doors. Kane laughed as he put down the bags onto a wooden kitchen table. No. How did you think I got into the basement? A spare key under the doormat? Kane shook his head. The Ryersons spare key hangs in my parents kitchen, by the back door. Oh, thats good to know. Besides, Kane said, theres not much to steal. Amber snorted. Youve gotta be kidding? She glanced around the spacious kitchen. She could see at least five items that she would love to have but could never afford. Like that fancy microwave and the deluxe standalone mixer, complete with an oversized stainless steel mixing bowl and assorted attachments. Oh, man, what she wouldnt do for one of those beauties. Whats this? She reached out and ran her finger along the top of a black and silver small appliance. Its a coffee maker. Not like one Ive ever seen. Kane laughed. Its one that makes other drinks as well, like cappuccinos, espressos, lattes, and even hot chocolate. Hey, I could make you a hot chocolate if youd like. I know you already had one this morning, but since you dont drink coffee. I also have some herbal tea. Would you like a cup? Amber smiled. Kane was back to his endless chatter. No, no, thats okay, she said, but I would like to know whats in those bags. Kane smiled. All in good time. Amber gave him a look. What I need you to do now is get out of those clothes. Excuse me? She watched Kane grab the bottom edges of his strawberry stained t-shirt
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She watched Kane grab the bottom edges of his strawberry stained t-shirt and pull it up over his chest and head. Amber damn near choked on her tongue at the sight of his well defined muscled chest and washboard abs. Whoever knew that underneath his starched dress shirts, and spotless suits and ties that hed have such a rock hard bod? Kane balled up the stained t-shirt and tossed it into a clothes basket that Amber hadnt noticed before. It was sitting beside the back door. His hands went to his jeans. He flicked the metal clasp with his thumb and lowered the zipper. He kicked off his running shoes and in another second he was out of his pants and they too were tossed into the basket. Amber tried to swallow. He looked down at his feet. So did Amber. There was a ring of dirt about three inches on each of his white socks. Those too came off and tossed onto his jeans. Now Kane stood in only his underwear. Briefs not boxers. She couldnt help but stare at him. All of him. The washer is through there. He pointed toward a closed door. Then he picked up the bags and said over his shoulder as he left the kitchen. Ill meet you in the bathroom. Amber watched him go. She finally allowed her jaw to drop. Sweat began to bead at the back of her neck. She felt a shiver run through her. She took a deep breath and closed her mouth. The kitchen was silent except for the tick of a clock in the shape of a rooster on the wall beside a floor-to-ceiling pantry. The counter space in the kitchen was enormous and as her eyes flickered around the room she noticed that Kane had a side-by-side refrigerator/freezer and a stove that had two ovens. Ambers dream kitchen if she ever saw one. The clank of water pipes and the sound of a shower going prompted Amber to snap out of her stupor. Picking the laundry basket up she headed toward the door Kane had indicated. The door opened easily with a slight push, there was no
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door Kane had indicated. The door opened easily with a slight push, there was no door handle. Inside the small room was a front load washer and dryer. Bright and shiny red, and very new looking. Amber set the basket down and opened the washer. She quickly put Kanes clothes in and stood there for a moment. She could put the jeans and socks in, but as for her underwear, well they stayed on. Now, what about the t-shirt? Should that go into the washer as well? Amber sighed. Maybe by the time shed gotten out of the jeans and socks shed have an answer. A moment later, Amber still didnt. She looked down at the t-shirt. It wasnt as stained as the jeans were, but still, considering how immaculate Kanes kitchen was, she could only imagine how clean the rest of his home was. Okay, the t-shirt had to go too. Amber quickly removed the t-shirt and tossed it into the washer. Okay, so now she was standing in only her panties. At least earlier she had had on her pyjamas top. She knew it hadnt been much, but it had been something. Then she thought about how Kane had already gotten a pretty clear look at her breasts. Amber felt herself flush. She closed the washer door and paused to listen to see if the water in the shower had stopped. She heard silence. Okay it was now or never. She had to face Kane sometime.

Kane finished filling the bathtub and lighting the candles. He unwrapped the bar of scented soap and placed it on the wire rack that stretched across his four claw tub. Hed already put a small bottle of strawberry shampoo and an exfoliating rough cloth for Ambers use on the rack. Now all he needed was Amber. In more ways than one, but Kane shoved those thoughts aside. This date was for Amber and Amber alone.
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If she was so bent on not doing anything for herself, well hed just have to take matters into his own hands. He heard the washing machine stop filling and a moment later he heard it start the wash cycle. So where was Amber? Had she put his clothes into the washer and then snuck back out? Since she had never been to his house before, and shed slept the entire journey home, there was little chance that shed be able to get back to her house anytime soon. She must be too nervous to come in? Did that mean that Amber was naked? He sure hoped so, even though he doubted that his private parts could take the added excitement at the moment. Amber? He heard a very low, yes. He poked his head out of the bathroom. She was standing about halfway down the hallway. Her arms crossed protectively over her chest. She was wearing nothing but her panties. Kane swallowed. He felt himself stir. Its okay, Im dressed. See. He stepped out into the hallway to show her that hed put on a pair of cut off jeans shorts and a navy t-shirt. Amber didnt move, although she did look a little more relieved. That was until she glanced at his crotch. Her eyes widened. Sorry, involuntary reaction. Youre the first naked woman Ive had- Im not naked. Kane tried to swallow. He felt his blood surge to his lower region. Close enough. Amber gave him one of her looks. Im not like Lori, I dont have sex on the first date. And in our case, definitely not before its even half over. Kane wet his lips. He brought up his hands in a defensive gesture, then quickly groaned and lowered them back to adjust his shorts. Look, Ill behave. I promise. The bulge against his zipper lengthened, making a lair out of him.
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He sucked in a breath. Ill stand with my back to you while you get into the tub. Ill even close my eyes if that will make you feel better. Amber raised an eyebrow. She didnt look convinced. Come to think of it, neither was he. He released his breath slowly. Why dont I take a little walk. Theres some ice cubes in the freezer. Ambers eyes widened. Sounds like a good idea, she said. She quirked a smile at him. Kane clenched his teeth, gave her a tight nod, and then hurried on by her as best he could, without having her notice that her sexy mouth was making him grow even further.

Amber sighed when she stepped into the bathroom after Kane disappeared around the corner. Hed gone to a lot of trouble for her. And by the looks of things hed made someone very happy back at the drugstore. And probably raised a few eyebrows, if not quite a few tongues to start wagging. Small town, news would travel fast. Choosing to ignore that tiny aspect, Amber peeled off her panties and stepped into the bubbles filled tub. She moaned as she sank into the hot peach smelling water. She immediately picked up the tiny bar of soap Kane had left her and began scrubbing at her hands. Then she snatched up the exfoliating cloth and began to scrub the rest of her body, before uncapping the bottle of shampoo. She put it to her nose and breathed in. A smile came to her lips. Too bad Kane didnt fancy strawberries. It would have been kind of sexy to have him come and help her wash her hair. On second thought that wouldnt be such a great idea. Why torture the guy? And herself for that matter. Amber ducked under the surface of the water and then poured a generous amount of the shampoo into her palm. She worked the shampoo through her hair, working up a good lather. A quick rinse and then she closed her eyes and gripped
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working up a good lather. A quick rinse and then she closed her eyes and gripped the tubs edges with her hands. She took a deep breath and leaned back, letting the warmth of the bathwater seep into her sore muscles. When was the last time shed sat in a bathtub filled with bubbles? Blowing bubbles from her fingertips and allowing her toes to become wrinkled and waterlogged? Probably when shed been a kid. Too far back for her to even remember. Amber swallowed and sat up suddenly. Well, that didnt take long. Back to reality. She glanced around. So where was the towel? And what had Kane expected her to wear? Her eyes spotted the towel hanging over, what else, a heated towel rack warmer. What luxury gadget didnt the guy have? She smiled and got up so she could step out of the tub. As she picked up the towel she noticed something else on the warming rack as well. She picked it up too. The shirt. The silk charcoal shirt shed worn on the day shed met Kane. Hed brought it home? Why? Hed launder it, but she still thought it held a faint scent of her. Ambers stomach clenched. She imagined Kane holding the shirt to his face, breathing her in. Need, raw and demanding pumped through her. It was getting worse. Harder to restrain herself around Kane. Amber shook her head sharply. Get those ideas out of your head, she told herself, and quickly towelled off. She then slipped the silk shirt on. She forwent the panties. Risky, but shed take the chance. A few minutes later, she walked barefoot into Kanes living room. He was seated on one end of a leather sofa. His bare feet resting on a mahogany coffee table. He smiled at her when he saw her. Enjoy your bath? It was divine. She leaned over the back of the sofa and kissed the top of his head. His hair was still damp.
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She liked the smell of him. He reached back and caught her hand. The thumb of his left hand gently grazed the inside of her wrist. Amber shivered. Come sit down, he said. He didnt release her hand. Time to feed you. Amber smiled when she spotted the tray of food. As usual, her stomach took the opportunity to growl. Kane snickered. Bacon, lettuce and tomatoe sandwiches. With potato chips, barbecue style, and dill pickles. And for dessert, I have some chocolate pudding chilling in the freezer. Ambers smile widened as Kane settled her close to his side on the sofa. And while youre eating, Im going to give you a pedicure and then Im going to do your nails. He grinned and reached down to bring a tiny floral gift bag out from beneath the coffee table and began to pull items out as Amber reached for a wedge of one of the sandwiches and a few chips. First, the same bubble bath as was in the tub, a quick scrub with a foot file and then topped off with... He held up a tiny bottle of blue nail polish. Amber choked. Youve gotta be kidding me? Kane didnt seem daunted. Would you prefer the pink? I thought the pink would be more for your fingernails. Amber smiled. Given the choice, shed prefer the blue for her toenails. No sense in igniting the men at the bars already overblown need to gander her attention. Seeing blue nail polish on her fingernails was just asking for trouble. No, blues fine. Good. He set the bottle of nail polish down and snatched a potato chip from the plate before getting to his feet. He disappeared and a few minutes later he was back with a small pan of water. Foamy bubbles were dripping down the sides. He put the pan on the floor and pulled an ottoman close, then he parked his butt on the edge. Your feet madam. Amber laughed. You know my toes are already waterlogged.
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Kane shrugged. Theyll dry out. Now I dont hear enough crunching. Eat.

Kane couldnt believe he was having so much fun. Who would have thought that devoting himself to Amber would give him so much satisfaction? He turned another page and kept reading. His voice was soft, just barely above a whisper. He thought of stopping, but was afraid that Amber was subconsciously still listening to the sound of his voice. She was fast asleep. Her head still damp in places from her bath was resting on his bare thigh. Kane smiled and absentmindedly brushed a now dry section of her bangs across her forehead. Shed kept her bangs instead of letting them grow out like her hair had been that very first day. He wondered why? Was it because he had commented that he had liked the look of them? He hoped so. Amber murmured in her sleep and raised a hand that brushed against his knee. Kane stilled, he paused in his reading. He saw Amber wet her lips, then frown. When she didnt wake up, he took a deep breath and resumed the story. The book was a romance. The elderly woman at the drugstore had suggested it when after giving him several pointed looks and hidden smirks, hed confessed that he was buying some things for his girlfriend. Well, for a woman he hoped would agree to become his girlfriend. The store clerk had given him a smile that clearly showed that hed just won her over and now sitting here with Amber slumbering on his lap, he had to feel very thankful for the womans added help. Her advice on a romance novel, candles and nail polish had garnered unexpected results.
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Hed already figured out that the bars of chocolate would be a winner. He already knew which one Amber liked. The chocolate wrapped in blue paper. Hed remembered. Kane finished the chapter. It was getting late and he still wanted to make Amber dinner before she headed off to her job at the bar. Closing the book, he put it on the arm of the sofa and gently eased himself out from under Ambers head. He grabbed a diamond patterned pillow from the sofa and tucked it under Ambers head before getting up. Before he headed off to the kitchen, he picked up the empty wrapping of the bar of chocolate and Ambers mug, the one that was now empty of hot chocolate. One way to Ambers heart, he smiled to himself, was definitely through her stomach, and in the form of anything chocolate. An hour later, Kane was back in the living room. Amber was still sleeping peacefully on his sofa. He bent down and gently touched her shoulder. Amber, time to get up. Ambers eyes immediately snapped open. She looked up at him in surprise, then glanced around. Boy, that was quick, Kane said. Amber was already sitting up. Do you usually go straight from deep sleep to full blown wakefulness? Try having ten younger siblings screaming in your ear, or, having objects lobbed at your head. Waking up fast is more of a survival mechanism than a want. Kane laughed. What time is it? A little before four oclock. Amber glanced down at herself. I need to get going. I know, but first Ive made you something to eat. Amber snickered. More food? Kane shrugged. Hey, it seems to do the trick. You become quite...shall we say...agreeable when your stomach is full. Amber laughed. You mean Im a glutton? I wouldnt say that. Then a food whore?
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Kane snorted. Thats a new one. But, no. Id say that youre just someone who denies herself everything, including food, to make sure that her family has enough. Amber got to her feet. She started to head toward the kitchen. Its a lot to take on, she informed. What, your family? Amber paused. She turned to look at him. Being a part of my life wont be an easy task. Kane smiled. Does this mean that Ive lured you over to the dark side? That youll agree to be my girlfriend? Amber shook her head in a seesaw fashion. Well...that will depend, I...rus. On what? On how good a kisser you are. Kane laughed. Oh great, like no pressure here. I dont know if Im up to this. Kissing on demand. Which makes me think. What constitutes a good kiss? Hard, but not crushing. Soft, but not mushy. Tongue, no tongue. A little nip on the- Amber silenced him by placing her fingers over his mouth. It doesnt matter to me. Just make my toes tingle. She then removed her fingers and closed her eyes. Kane froze. He had no idea if he could make Amber tingle anywhere, but, hell he was now shaking all over. His palms were sweaty and his heartbeat was racing way, way too fast. He didnt know what he was doing. Hadnt a clue at how to proceed. Amber was like no other woman hed ever met. A woman so special and unique. The last thing he wanted was to blow it with her. And knowing himself, he could easily do just that. Screw things up and good. Kane took a deep breath. Amber opened one eye, and looked at him expectantly. Oh, hell, now what? He just went for it. His lips sought hers in a heated burst of energy. She absorbed his impact. Kanes brain raced into overdrive. He moved his lips. She moved hers beneath his.
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He opened his mouth. She opened hers. Kane swallowed. He moved his hands to her waist and backed her up against the wall. He deepened the kiss. She didnt protest. The silk of her shirt glided beneath his fingertips as he skimmed the sides of her breasts. He heard Amber gasp. She kissed him back, hard. She pressed her hips forward. A fierce hunger ripped at his gut. Kanes hands glided lower. Down to her waist and then to the top of her bare thighs. He kept on kissing her. His tongue grazed her bottom lip, then dipped into her mouth again and again. Her tongue met his. He pressed her further up against the wall and edged his hands up her thighs. The hem of the silk shirt fisted in his palms as he went. When he reached her hips he brushed the material aside and touched flesh. Kane jerked. He broke the kiss and backed away from Amber so fast that he smashed into the opposite wall hard enough that he actually made the house shake. Amber looked at him half startled, half incredibly aroused. Youre not wearing underwear! Amber sucked in a breath. She licked his moisture from her lips. Kane groaned. I left them in the bathroom. Not a wise move. He raised a shaky hand and ran it down his face. Okay, time for you to get dressed. With panties. Amber shot him a look. Then she smirked. I could always leave them as a souvenir. You know, hanging over the doorknob. She took a step toward him. Maybe youd like me to go get them so that I could tuck them into your shorts. Kanes heart stopped. Every ounce of blood he had rushed to his groin. He shook his head. Dont do this to me. You dont know how close you are to me breaking your no sex on a first date rule. Youre this close. He brought his right hand up and rubbed his thumb and forefinger together. Amber swallowed. He watched her take a slow breath. Her breathing still hadnt normalized.
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It was the cramps that woke her. Amber groaned and put a hand over her lower abdomen. She tried to roll over, to alleviate some of the pain, but it was a no go. Another cramp hit her. Sharp and urgent. She wasnt due for another week, but considering the hectic schedule she was keeping, she wasnt surprised that her time of the month was showing up a couple of days early. Especially when she factored in what little food shed been eating, despite Kanes valiant attempts at feeding her, and her continued lack of sleep. Best she get up and take care of the matter. Amber crawled out of bed and headed for the bathroom. A few minutes later she stumbled back out and fell crashing down onto her bed. The bed creaked under her weight. Amber glanced at the clock. Twenty-five minutes after seven oclock. Okay, shed gotten a little more sleep last night, but not much. Tobys ear infection had started to clear up. Amber listened. The house was unusually quiet. Then she remembered. It was the last day of school and Lori had probably already left to head back down to Hamilton to fetch the kids. Amber wondered just how much shed have to pay Birdie to look after Toby and Melissa while Lori was gone? Shed try to get another couple of hours of sleep, before heading on over to Birdies and collect the kids, if only for a few hours. She couldnt afford to skip tonights bar shift. Money was running low. Again. Amber chewed at the inside of her cheek. She didnt want to have to dip into what extra money shed made working in the strawberry fields the day Ginny had needed help, but the way things were going, she knew she may have too. So where would she get the extra money? She couldnt drive without car
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So where would she get the extra money? She couldnt drive without car insurance, and she couldnt get to either of her jobs without her car. Another cramp hit and Amber curled her knees up to her chest. She hoped Lori had some painkillers in her room, because shed just checked her tiny medicine cabinet and found none. Not wanting to move but knowing she must, Amber took a deep breath and levelled herself off her bed. She padded down the attic stairs and into Loris bedroom. She was surprised to see that the bed had been made. Come to think of it now, Amber didnt remember seeing Loris bedroom door closed last night when shed gone to bed. Maybe the door had been closed, but shed been too exhausted to notice, and besides, shed stopped checking to see if the door was locked days ago. It seemed that Hank was staying over more nights than not lately. Anyway, it didnt matter. Hank and Lori were an item, now. Kind of like her and Kane. Yeah, she was Kane Stewarts girlfriend. She still couldnt believe it herself. Shed never been some guys main squeeze before. She had no idea what a girlfriend, boyfriend relationship constituted. Other than lots of kissing, and enough exploring of each others bodies that theyd almost ended up having sex, not once but three times in the last week. However, things hadnt escalated that far. The time restraints on both, Kane and herself had limited their time together, and as according to Kane, when they finally made love, he wasnt about to be rushed. He apparently wasnt into quickies. At least not for their first time. That was okay with Amber. She could wait. She knew that Kane would be more than worth it. Another cramp hit and Amber sucked in a sharp breath. She quickly made her way into Loris bathroom. If she couldnt find any painkillers in the medicine cabinet shed have to raid the emergency kit she kept for the kids. A couple of the small pills may not do the trick, but theyd be able to take the edge of. At least, she sure hoped they would. Ambers bare foot kicked something on her way to the bathroom sink. She glanced down to see what it was, expecting to find another magazine,
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She glanced down to see what it was, expecting to find another magazine, an empty box of chocolate covered peanuts, or, perhaps a box of hair dye that Lori was constantly using to cover her imaginary grey roots. Whatever it was, it however hit the base of the toilet and had bounced off. It now lay beside the wastepaper basket. Amber leaned down to pick it up. Her heart stopped when she recognized what she now held in her hand. She dropped it and quickly dove for the trash. It didnt take her long to find and confirm her worst fears. Ambers head began to pound. She closed her fist and screamed. No! No! No! No! Not again! Not again! Ambers body began to quake. She started to hyperventilate. Not happening. Not happening. She told herself. Its a mistake. A mistake. But Amber knew that it wasnt a mistake. She felt her stomach turn. She turned to the toilet. But, since she had so little in her stomach, she only dry retched. Her head throbbed, her vision blurred, and her limbs felt weak, but somehow without her realizing what she was doing she got up off her knees and bolted out of Loris bathroom. She raced through the bedroom, clambered down the stairs and tore out the front door. Leaving the door wide open behind her. She began to scream, again and again. She kept on going. All Amber wanted to do was run. To run as far as she could, as fast as she could. She couldnt handle this. Not again. Not ever again. She wasnt strong enough. Damn Lori! Damn! Damn! Damn!

Amber had no idea how long shed been running, but the severe stitch in her
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Amber had no idea how long shed been running, but the severe stitch in her side had her coming to an abrupt halt. She stood gulping air, wondering if she just ran a little bit further shed discover that it all had been a dream. A very, very bad dream. She bent over and dry retched again. Her stomach muscles clenched. Her throat ached, but she still couldnt throw up. A morning breeze blew over her sweaty skin, making her shiver even though she was still shaking badly. A moment passed, her stomach stopped convulsing and she quickly sucked in air. The fact that she was standing in only her baby doll pyjamas began to slowly penetrate her panicked mind. She straightened and looked around. Where the hell was she? How far had she gone? She turned and glanced behind her. All she could see was grass. Acres and acres of open field. She couldnt even see a farmhouse, let alone the edge of a road or the street where the Ryersons house was located. Amber tried to swallow. Tried to settle down just a touch, but her nerves were just too jagged. She squeezed her eyes shut. Tried to focus. Thats when she noticed that she was crying. Silent tears of despair. Amber groaned. She didnt even bother to wipe the tears away. What was the use? Lori had landed her smack dab in the middle of yet another pickle. Again. And the thought of exactly what Lori had done only made Amber angrier. And she always cried when she was angry. Amber took a deep breath. She needed to think. Needed to calm down, but first she needed to get back home. Amber looked around again, then took a step forward. The side of her foot collided with a rock and a sharp pain flared up her leg. She cried out and glanced down. Her foot looked okay, but there were trickles of blood oozing from several
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Her foot looked okay, but there were trickles of blood oozing from several tiny gashes on her lower legs. Oh, just great. Thats all she needed. The expense of a trip to the emergency ward for a tetanus shot. No wait, shed had one two years ago, when Alec her younger step brother had accidentally jabbed her with a rusty nail. She was still good. But that didnt change matters. She could barely afford any more mishaps. Her family needed her, now more than ever, and the last thing she needed was to fall and break her leg out here in the middle of nowhere. Amber forced herself to swallow and pay close attention to where she stepped as she carefully made her way across the field. She only hoped that she was heading in the right direction.

Kane was panicked. Hed already driven around the block four times. Still no sign of Amber. Where was she? Where had she gone? He pulled his car into his parents driveway and got out. Half an hour had passed since hed gotten a call telling him that his girlfriend, yes his mother had referred to Amber as his girlfriend, had been seen running down the street, half naked, screaming her head off. Now his mother along with his father stood outside the Dixons house, talking to Jeremy. Kane quickly headed in their direction. Myles Stewart turned to his son. Nothing? Kane shook his head. I wonder what upset her so? Myles frowned. Amber doesnt seem the type of girl that upsets easily. Well, whatever it was. Mildred Stewart huffed. She could have at least put some clothes on. Mother, I dont think- Kane abruptly cut himself off. Hed just spotted Amber emerging from a
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Kane abruptly cut himself off. Hed just spotted Amber emerging from a field at the end of the street. He was off like a shot, racing down the sidewalk toward her. When he reached her he immediately scooped her up into his arms and headed back down the street. Kanes heart raced. Amber was safe, if not looking a little worse for the wear. He said nothing as he cradled her in his arms, and neither did she. She was too busy crying and by the looks of the condition of her soaked pyjamas top, Kane could tell shed been crying rather heavily for quite some time. By the time hed made it back to his parents house, his father was holding the front door open. Kane carried Amber over the threshold and straight through to the kitchen. He set her down on a kitchen chair while his mother placed a glass of water for Amber down on the table. Ill go get something to clean up those scratches. She frowned. Try and get her to drink something. Kane nodded to his mother and put his hand to Ambers cheek. Amber? Amber wasnt responsive. She just stared down into her lap and continued to bawl. Kane took off his shirt. Hed been in the process of getting dressed when his mother had called. He put the shirt around Ambers shaking shoulders, and knelt bare chested in front of her. Amber, honey. Whats going on? Ambers breathing hitched. He saw her swallow, but she still didnt look at him. Her tears dripped off the end of her chin onto his shirt, leaving big, dark wet marks on the darkened material. Im sorry, so sorry. Kane felt his throat clog. Something was terribly, terribly wrong. Sorry? Sorry for what? Amber looked at him. She gulped and fresh tears began pouring down her face.
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I know you wanted... Gulp. that we... Gulp but, I cant... Gulp, gulp. I cant....I cant do it... Amber began to rock herself. Kane was at a loss, and he felt scared like hed never felt before. Are you hurt? he demanded. Are the kids okay? Toby? Melissa? His questions only made Amber cry even harder. Kane looked helplessly toward his father. He needed help. Myles stepped around to the other side of Ambers chair and reached out. He gently grasped her chin in his palm and turned her head to face him. Take a deep breath, he commanded gently. He didnt wait for her to comply. Now, another. Amber sucked in air. Myles offered up a half smile for Amber. Good, now tell us whats wrong. Amber pressed her lips together. Myles shook his head. Ill have none of that, he said, youre scaring my boy, here. Amber instantly turned to face Kane. Im sorry, so sorry, so sorry I...rus. Then she broke into fresh sobs. Gut wrenching sobs. Kane shot his father a dumbfounded look. He raised his hands in despair. His fathers eyes widened. Kanes gaze followed his fathers and he noticed that Amber had opened her right hand. He saw what she held in her palm. So did everyone else. Oh, Kis. Kane glanced up to see that his mother had returned with a pan of soapy water, some peroxide, and some bandages. She had a very disappointed look on her face. Kane swallowed and shook his head. Not possible. We havent. Not yet that is. He grabbed Ambers other hand. Youre pregnant!

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Amber couldnt stop crying. Couldnt stop pouring her sorrow out in front of Kane and his parents. She felt so ashamed. So ashamed for bringing her troubles to the Stewarts doorstep. He didnt deserve this. He didnt deserve her. Hed been so kind and generous, and she loved him so much. Damn Lori for bursting her happiness bubble. Amber began crying harder. She shook her head. Well, thats not what that pregnancy test, pee stick says. Mildred frowned and plunked the pan of water onto the kitchen table. A clear plus sign if I ever did see one. Mother- Amber heard the warning in Kanes voice. Surprisingly he didnt sound angry, just confused. Just like Kane to jump head first into her corner. Always coming to her rescue. Amber shook her head again and tried to calm down. She sucked in more air and squared her shoulders. She licked the salty tears from her lips. She looked at Kane. Not mine. She whispered. Five voices rang out. What? Amber raised her head and looked around. She hadnt noticed that Jeremy and Sam had also joined Kane and his parents in the Stewarts kitchen. Not mine, Amber repeated. She wiped a hand down her cheeks, brushing some of her tears away. I found it in the garbage this morning. Its Loris. Youre mothers pregnant? Amber looked back at Kane. He looked both relieved and crushed all at the same time. She nodded and rubbed her chin. Then she flinched. Mildred was dabbing peroxide over her scratches with a cotton ball. She was still frowning. It was no secret to anyone, including Kanes parents that Hank and Lori had been carrying on a sexual relationship. If it was Hanks child, Lori couldnt have been more than a couple of weeks along, maybe only a few days. Could a pregnancy test even tell that soon? She rather doubted it.
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It cant be Hanks, Mildred announced coldly. She capped the bottle and placed it on the table. Amber looked at Kanes mother. The woman wasnt stupid, shed done the quick calculations. Mildreds right, Amber, Myles confirmed. Hank cant father any more children. He had a vasectomy shortly before Jason was born. Amber wasnt surprised. Not surprised at all. So thats what the argument was about. Amber, along with everyone else turned to Sam. Dad and Lori were fighting last night. Craig said that they were hollering pretty hard at one another. You think Lori tried to pin her pregnancy on Hank? Myles questioned. Amber looked to Kane. She saw the shock and horror on his face. She turned her head to Mr. Stewart. Sounds like something shed do. I told Hank, that first morning that Lori had a habit of latching onto men who already had children. It must have come as quite a surprise when he informed her that the baby couldnt be his? And from what Craig said, Dad was furious, Sam added. Said something about him not being the fall guy. Good for him. Mildred cheered. Myles looked to his wife. Youre not helping matters, dear. Do you know who the father is? Kane asked. Amber shrugged. There was a guy. Id only met his once and only briefly as he was coming out of the bathroom. I cant tell you his name or even what he really looks like. So, well just have to talk to your mother, Kane announced. You cant, Amber stated. She looked around her. At least not now, shes gone back to Hamilton to pack up and get the rest of the kids. I was planning on heading down after my shift at the bar tonight. No one said anything. Amber suddenly felt very uncomfortable. Here she was intruding on Kanes family with problems that had nothing to do with them. She felt herself flush. Not a good start for her new relationship with Kane.
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She felt herself flush. Not a good start for her new relationship with Kane. Especially in the eyes of his mother. Oh well, she hadnt expected the relationship to last. She felt her heart starting to crack. She couldnt look at Kane. Amber stood up. She shoved her arms through the sleeves of Kanes shirt and began to fasten the buttons. Ill come get the kids, Jeremy. I dont know how much I owe you, but if youll just tell me Ill make- We dont have them, Amber. Jeremy frowned. The kids arent with us. What? No?

Amber bolted from the chair and was out the back door before anyone could react. Kane got to his feet and hurried out the door after her. Toby! Melissa! Kane could hear her hollering the childrens names as she rushed through the Ryersons front door. Her voice had reached a shrill pitch by the time he reached the doorway. Amber raced down the stairs and whipped past him on her way to the kitchen. Kane stood in the kitchen doorway and waited for Amber to climb back up the basement stairs. He didnt have to wait long. Amber appeared at the top of the stairs. She looked at him. Her face a mask of fury. Theyre gone. She took them. Kane stepped into the kitchen. He looked around at the disarray. Empty cereal bowls, spoons with dried milk caked to the shiny surfaces, glasses of half drank orange juice, all littered the kitchen table. While toys and bits of childrens clothing were strung over the table, chairs and floor. Amber reached for something amongst the mess. She didnt even take Tobys medicine. Kane watched her finger the tiny bottle. Maybe because she doesnt expect
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Kane watched her finger the tiny bottle. Maybe because she doesnt expect to be gone long. Amber shook her head. The other children finish school today, and we have to be out of the house by the end of the weekend. Maybe shell drive back with a load of kids today. Just to leave them here alone? It doesnt make sense. Im sorry, Amber, I dont know. Neither do I, Amber fumed. She put the bottle of Tobys medicine back into the refrigerator and collapsed into a chair. She dropped her head into her hands. I dont know how much more of this I can take, Kane. Another baby. Thatll bring the total to twelve. An even dozen, of us. Kane pulled out a chair and sat down beside her. Maybe the father of the baby will want to be apart of your lives. Maybe hell even marry your mother. Amber raised her head and snorted. Oh, that would be just wonderful, now wouldnt it? I know nothing about the guy. Not his name. Whether he has a job. Hell have kids though, thats a given. So how many more mouths am I expected to feed? Just with the baby alone, Ill need another job. Preferable one with a decent salary, because Im making just above squat at the bar. She looked at him. Tell me I...rus. How long can a body go without sleep and proper nutrition? A couple of years? Maybe until the kid is in school? Do you think I could last that long? Kane sat there staring at her. He had no idea what to say that would be of comfort to her. He watched Ambers face fall. She averted her eyes from his. I told you that if I fell in love with you, it would kill me. I just didnt think it would happen so soon. Kanes heart jumped. Hey. He reached out and grabbed her chin. He turned her face to his. You think Im going to cut and run? Tears glistened in her eyes. She swallowed. Youre mother would want you too. Kane suddenly laughed. My mother doesnt know you. Neither do you. Not really.
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Kane found himself smiling. Isnt that what dating is all about? Two people getting to know one another? But, Kane... No, buts. Im your boyfriend, and well figure this out together. As a couple. Amber looked doubtful. But, first things first. I think you better put a call into back home. Just to make sure that your mother is headed to Hamilton. What? You think she took off? I have no idea, he said. But I do know that if she and Hank were arguing last night, she may not have been in a favourable state of mind this morning. Hanks very sharp with the tongue, and hes prone to say things that the other person doesnt want to hear or accept as the truth. Words that are often not easily retracted, or forgiven. He gestured toward the telephone on the wall. Make the call.

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Kane had told Amber that dating was two people getting to know one another. Again, this wasnt exactly what hed envisioned. Driving down a busy four lane highway with a bunch of kids once again in the backseat of the car. Only this time he wasnt riding shotgun. He was the principle driver. And it wasnt Ambers car he was driving, but his own. Amber was two vehicles in front of him. Loris silver van separating him from her view like a concrete wall. Behind him, Hank was driving Williss pickup truck loaded with bits and pieces of furniture while hauling an equally loaded down delivery trailer. The trailer looked more like a trailer equipped to transport horses, but without the slits. Stewart Berry Farm was splashed across the sides in bold black lettering, while baskets of bright red apples, strawberries and raspberries, along with blueberries and pumpkins gave the trailer a festive look. Four vehicles, fourteen people, fifteen if you counted the baby. Oh, yeah, the baby issue was out there. Front and center. And more than just Hank and Amber were not talking to Lori. Half of the kids, mostly the older ones, the ones that understood exactly what another baby added to the family really meant. Well, they had shut Lori out, and good. So thats why Kane was chauffeuring Ambers half brothers Alec and Conrad along with her step sisters Sara and Melissa. Betty and Veronica had refused to even join Lori in the van, even for a few miles and therefore had volleyed back and forth from his car to Ambers at every stop theyd made along the long trip back from Hamilton. Melissa had insisted that she ride with him the entire way, refusing all attempts at coaxing her to switch vehicles. The taillights of Loris van flickered on and off as Lori put her foot to the brake several times.
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Amber in the lead was once again signalling that it was time to pull over and Lori was passing on the message. Kane tapped his own brake pedal and glanced into the rear view mirror. Hank flashed his high beams and gave him a thumbs up. Message received. Good idea, because Kane needed to stretch his legs almost as badly as he needed a break from Melissas endless singsong chatter of what food am I thinking of, and I spy. The two front vehicles turned off at the next exit. Kane followed. Minutes later he pulled his car into an empty spot in the enormous pit stop parking lot. One of those fast food, snack joints where you could get a quick gas fill up and the use of relatively clean restrooms. Kane got out of the car and stretched. Theyd gas up, make a trip to the restroom for those who needed it, and with fourteen people, drinking copious amounts of coffee and assorted soft drinks, theyd all be needing to use the facilities, and then be back on the road again. Melissa ran around the back of his car and latched onto his ring and baby fingers before hed even had a chance to close his car door. The little girl looked up at him expectantly. Kane looked down at her. Theyd been through this before. Three times already. You know I cant take you to the little girls room. As before, Melissa just shrugged. Gotta go. Kane glanced around. He spotted Ambers other half sister, Fawn. Hed met her briefly, but hadnt yet had the opportunity to ride with her. Fawn? The fourteen year old was just getting out of Loris van. She glanced at him. Would you please take Melissa to the restroom? Fawn wet her lips, then she smiled at him shyly. Sure, no problem. Come on, Melissa. Melissa frowned. She looked up at Kane. Kane nodded and gave her a smile. The little girl sighed heavily, made a face at him, but she did let go of his fingers and followed the older girl. Looks like more than one of my girls are smitten with you.
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Kane stiffened at the sound of Loris husky voice. He really didnt like much about the older woman, but she was still Ambers mother, so he replied politely. What did you expect, shes a child without a daddy? I hope she hasnt been too much of a bother. Kane felt sudden anger boil through him. How could Lori even think that little Melissa would ever, ever be a bother to him? Hed only known the kid a couple of weeks and yet already, when she was around and her little hand wasnt reaching for his, he felt oddly, alone, as if he was missing a limb. Hadnt taken him long to become attached to Melissa and Toby, he inwardly noted. Watching over the two of them like he was a father penguin, protecting them even from their own mother. Kane turned to look at Lori. The woman was patting her hair and checking her appearance in one of the vans side view mirrors. Kanes stomach clenched. Thankfully Amber appeared and Kane was happy to trot off with her toward the fast food outlet. Dont let her get to you. She said, slipping her hand in his as they walked. Howd you get along with the boys? Kane squeezed Ambers hand. I think pretty good. At least Conrad talked to me. Which is more than can be said for Hank. Yeah, Kane had noticed that Conrad had kept his distance from his older half brother, only shooting him a dozen or so tentative glances. Alecs is a jokester, isnt he? Hes kept me laughing for the past hour. In between bouts of Melissas chatter, and Saras questions, that is. Getting a little personal was she? Kane grimaced as he held the door open for Amber and Brice, Ambers step brother. Just a tad. Brice shot Kane a look. Yeah, my sister is a real nosey kid, but hey, youll get used to it. That is, if you stick around. Kane didnt skip a beat. Oh, I plan too, Brice. Like sticky tape waiting for
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Kane didnt skip a beat. Oh, I plan too, Brice. Like sticky tape waiting for flies. Brice gave Kane another look. The boys eyes flickered from Kane to Amber and back again. Then the kid took a breath and ducked under Kanes outstretched arm. Tough cookie, Kane commented. He watched Brice walk away. You dont know the half of it. Amber smiled. You mean Im only a quarter of the way there? Amber laughed and paused to give him a kiss. Youre not even a tenth of the way, I...rus. She smiled again. But Id say youre getting there.

Kane felt ambushed. Oh, yeah, pinned in on all sides with no place to run. He was in the lead now, driving Ambers car. Beside him was Veronica while Betty and Melissa sat in the back with Toby strapped securely into his car seat. He had expected that Betty and Veronica would switch cars like they had before, but when Amber had begged him to please take the next leg of the journey behind the wheel of her car, and give her a rest from Tobys insistent whining for Ane...Ane, the teenage girls had opted to stay in Ambers car. Now, Kane knew why. You didnt answer my question. Veronica pouted, her lower lip sticking out just a little too far. Kane swallowed and tried to concentrate on his driving. He darted a glance in the rear view checking to see if Toby and Melissa, who had switched cars along with him, were paying attention to the conversation. Luckily the two of them had fallen asleep, hence why Veronica had cornered him with such a loaded inquiry. Come on, Veronica demanded. We all saw you kissing Amber. And it was a real juicy kiss. All I want to know is, have you two done the dirty deed? Kane clenched his jaw. Although his mood had just taken a nosedive, he kept his cool. That is an inappropriate line of questioning.
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Veronica snorted and raised her bare feet up onto the cars dashboard. She hung her right hand out of the opened car window and snapped her fingers to a soundless beat. Hes right, you know, Ver, Betty added from the backseat. Kane glanced into the mirror again and made brief eye contact with the teenager, who for as dark haired as Veronica was, Betty was blonde. For a second he felt like some new character that had been dropped in the middle of the popular comic book, caught between the two girls, who incidentally he found had very similar personalities to the matching fictional duo. But no, he was squarely in the middle of reality. Veronica laughed. I guess the answer is a big fat no! Kane gritted his teeth. Veronica continued. I cant see why not? Youre hot! And Ambers a pretty hot babe herself. I dont see why you two arent doing the bedrock, if you get my meaning. Which you should since you seem like a bright enough guy. Not like the jackass who got Mom knocked up. Veronica pounded the dashboard with the heel of her foot. Another kid! I cant believe it. Ver... Betty warned from the backseat, stop. But it appeared that Veronica was on a roll. I hope you and Amb use some kind of protection. Maybe a condom plus some birth control pills. She has enough on her plate as it is, you know. Kane shot Veronica a look. She just shrugged at him. But hey, if you two get carried away, and you forget to glove before you love, you could always get one of those morning after pills. Kane damn near slammed the brakes on. Right there in the middle of the packed highway. He wanted nothing more than to pull the car over to the side of the road and boot the smart-ass kids ass out. Thankfully his rational side prevailed. Amber and I have only started dating. So? Veronica scoffed. Kane continued to drive, but his tone changed. He gave Veronica a quick, hard look before facing forward. Look, I dont know what kind of example your mother has been setting for
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Look, I dont know what kind of example your mother has been setting for you girls, but where I come from, a man treats a lady with respect. And jumping into bed, for a quick roll in the hay, without first giving her the opportunity to get to know me as a man, isnt the way I operate. So put your snide remarks about Amber and my sex life, back in your panties! And we are never, and I mean never having this topic of conversation again. Ever. Kane looked pointedly back at Veronica and then at Betty in the mirror. Do I make myself clear? When neither of the girls responded, he repeated himself. Are we clear? Yes, sir. Betty quickly nodded. Kane glanced again at Veronica. He raised an eyebrow. The teenagers eyes had widened. She nodded. I need to hear it, he said. Yes, Kane, Im shutting my mouth. Good. Now, I have a nephew who is about a year older than you both. Hes working in my shop for the summer, but he like most of the young people in town like to swim out at the Point. Do you girls like to swim?

For the first time in almost four and a half hours Amber felt herself relax. Not much, but just a tiny little bit. Alec and Conrad were in the backseat of Kanes car, absorbed in a couple of comic books that shed seen Hank impulsively take off a rack along with a handful of bubble gum trading card packs back at their last pit stop. Hank was trying. Amber didnt know why. He still hadnt spoken to Lori. In fact hed made an exaggerated point of being aloof and distant toward Lori, while at the same time being very, very helpful to her. From the look of things Amber doubted that Hank would allow Lori to patch things up between the two of them, and Amber couldnt blame Hank. Lori had hurt him. Maybe even beyond repair. As much as she wasnt a big fan of Hank, she still didnt like the fact that
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As much as she wasnt a big fan of Hank, she still didnt like the fact that Lori had tried to pin her pregnancy on him. Especially since her mother had confessed that she had suspected that she was already pregnant again, long before shed even met Hank. Still Hank had agreed to travel to Hamilton, along with her and Kane, to help pack up the kids. Hed even provided a mode of transport for what little belongings Ambers family had, when it was discovered that Lori had failed to make arrangements for a moving company to pack up their stuff and have it shipped north. Amber was thankful for Hanks kindness. Lori didnt deserve him, and Amber secretly hoped that the two of them didnt get back together. Hank was more like Kane than shed first thought. Beneath his rough and gruff exterior, he had a good heart. Just like Kane. Amber? Hmmm? Amber said, Brices voice pulling her out of her thoughts. He was seated in the passenger seat beside her. Is Mom really going to have another baby? Amber felt her chest tighten. She glanced into the rear view mirror and noticed that Alec had lifted his head, making it clear that he was now avidly listening to what she was about to say. She nodded. Yeah. Out of the corner of her eye she saw Brice press his lips together. He was quiet for a long moment, then he asked. Does Kanes brother, Hank, really have a farm? She gave Brice a quick look and nodded again. Kanes half brother Willis does. Hank who is Kanes half brother also, is a teacher. I heard you talking to Hank about picking strawberries. That you pick strawberries for cash. Yeah, I go out to the fields four days a week. Amber saw Brice turn half in his seat and give Alec a brief glance before he continued. Do you think if I asked Kanes half brother Willis for a job picking strawberries, hed give me one? Ambers throat clogged. She wanted to cry. To reach out and stroke her younger step brothers sandy blonde hair. To tell him that everything was going to be all right. That he didnt need to get a job. That shed find a way to support them
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be all right. That he didnt need to get a job. That shed find a way to support them all, including the new baby. She glanced again to Alec. He was still listening. Brice at the tender age of thirteen was the oldest male in the family, and Amber had recognized that over the last year the boy had matured. She hated to see him at such a young age trying to take on the role of provider and protector of the family, but she couldnt deny Brice his need to prove himself. She gave Brice a watery smile. Why dont you come with me tomorrow? Well have a talk with Willis. Really? The hope in Brices voice made Ambers heart ache. Strawberry picking season is almost done, but then there comes raspberry and blueberry season, and then in the fall theres apple picking as well as harvesting the pumpkins. Brice gave her a wary nod. But Im warning you. I leave before six oclock in the morning. So you have to be up, dressed and waiting for me. No tardiness. And the work is back breaking hard, and no one complains. Brices face broke into a smile. And. Amber held up a finger as she continued to grip the steering wheel. Ill make the same deal with you that I have with the girls. Fifty percent of what you make goes into a college/university fund. No expectations. Twenty-five percent you can spend as you see fit and the other twenty-five percent you can put into a jar, that will be used to help with the grocery bill. Brice suddenly frowned. Only twenty-five percent toward helping you out? An invisible hand reached into Ambers chest and squeezed her heart. She forced a bright smile to her lips. Youd be surprised how far I can stretch twentyfive percent. And besides, Brice, I cant afford to pay for schooling. Youre going to have to do that on your own. Fifty percent of your earnings put toward tuition will go a long way. But what if I dont want to go to college or university? Amber again glanced at him. Thats your choice, but thats the deal. Fifty percent toward school and only twenty-five percent into the jar. Brice was quiet for a moment then he said. Deal.
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So I hear that Brice is working out at Williss. Amber climbed up the last few rungs of the rope ladder that lead up into the Ryersons backyard tree house. She pressed her hand against Kanes bare knee and hoisted herself up onto the wooden plank floor. Yeah, she said. I couldnt say no to him. Especially when Ive spent so much time picking strawberries right next to Hanks son Fred. Kane leaned back and crossed his arms behind his head. He let his lower legs dangle over the opening in the tree house flooring. One of his sandals fell off, but he didnt appear concerned. Itll do him good, Kane said. Give the boy a sense of pride in putting in a good days work. Amber smiled and pulled her legs up to sit crossed legged beside him. It was a belated Canada Day family celebration. What with strawberry season in full gear and the fact that it poured insistently for the entire day, everyone had agreed that theyd hold off their celebrating until the following weekend. Having just finished consuming massive plates of crispy fried chicken, home cut fries, and spoonfuls of potatoe, macaroni and various coloured jelly and vegetable salads, Amber and Kane had decided to climb up into the tree house and take a breather from all the noise and chaos that had stretched across the three backyards. You should have seen the look on his face when he put his share of his wages into the jar in the kitchen. Im so proud of him...but... Kane turned his head to face her. He shouldnt have to work. Not at his age, right? Exactly. Amber frowned. Hes too young to shoulder that type of weight. Something tells me that you werent much older when you started too. Amber swallowed. Kane was right. Shed been only fifteen when shed gotten her first grown up job. And only eleven when shed started babysitting the
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gotten her first grown up job. And only eleven when shed started babysitting the neighbourhood kids. But still, it bothered her that shed had to show Brice where shed decided to hide the grocery money jar. Back behind a stack of cleaning products and a box of garbage bags in the pantry, out of sight and hopefully out of notice from Lori. Amber had discovered the hard way that she couldnt trust Lori to keep her fingers out of the money jar. Knowing that Lori had pillaged the fifty from the bet money envelope, only proved that Lori hadnt changed. Better safe than sorry, so, as shed done back in Hamilton, Amber kept the jar hidden. Now that Brice was adding to it, shed make a point of emptying it out every night before going to bed. Just in case. And something also tells me that Im about to lose my lawn mowing gig. Kane chuckled. I saw Brice talking up my Dad. Ill bet hes making a good case for having my Dad switch his loyalties. Amber laughed. Hey, dont laugh. Now I dont have an excuse to see you every Saturday. I thought boyfriends didnt need an excuse. Kane smirked. Yeah, youre right. I dont need to hide the fact that I think about you 24/7. Amber laughed again. Youre just worried that youll miss out on all the exercise and that your waistline will go to pot. She leaned forward and whacked him with the back of her hand against his washboard abs. Kane grunted at the impact. Ohhh, I think I ate too much. Amber shook her head and looked around at the tree house's swept clean floor, the cobweb ridden walls and rafters, and the washed down plastic milk crates that had been turned upside down so that they could be used as small tables. The boys did a great job in cleaning this place up. Kane nodded. I didnt know that the Ryersons had kept everything up here just about as I remembered it being. You spent time up here? Oh, yeah. Hours and hours. Mostly playing board games and reading comic books. Here let me show you. Kane sat up and pulled over a small trunk that had been tucked into a corner. Amber noticed that the trunk had a combination lock. Kane gave the dial a quick twirl and then turned it to the correct series of
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Kane gave the dial a quick twirl and then turned it to the correct series of numbers. The lock came easily away in his hand. As he opened the trunk a smile spread across his face. Man, Id forgotten all about this stuff. He reached in and pulled out a baseball and three or four old worn baseball gloves. He set them aside. He reached back in and pulled out a batch of old comic books, dusty, faded, and filled with a variety of superheroes. He handed a couple to Amber then settled back down on his back to flip through one. I bet Alec and Conrad would like to play with those gloves and ball, he said. Remind me to take the lock with us when we go. I dont think that would be a good idea. Kane glanced at her over the top of his comic book. Amber held up a copy of a mens magazine. One with naked women in the folds of the pages. Amber snickered at the blush turning Kanes face red. Sorry, now I remember why we put a lock on that trunk. Amber shrugged. Could have been worse. I could have found a pack of cigarettes or even a bag of marijuana. If you look closer, youll find some. What? Marijuana, you? Really I...rus, I didnt think you were so naughty. Willis maybe, Hank probably, but you? Kane made a face at her. I was a healthy boy. Interested in the usual things young teenage boys are interested in. Amber flicked the magazine open with the snap of her wrist. The centerfold picture popped out like a jack-in-the-box. Id say. A healthy dose of smut never hurt anyone, and by the way, its cigarettes youll find if you dig a little deeper. No joints? Not a one. Never tried the stuff, or, in fact any kind of drugs. You? Amber raised her eyebrows. Considering what you know about me, do you honestly think I could afford any form of mind altering drugs, alcohol included? Kane gave her a shrug. Lots of drugs in schools. Amber tossed the magazine back into the trunk.
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I never partook. I was too busy working my ass off trying to help feed my family. My stepfather at the time, Brice, Sara, Alec and Conrads father, he drank a lot, and along with Lori partied way too much. Kanes expression changed from playfulness to overly serious. You see Lori hasnt had much luck with reliable men. Or men that arent looking for a good time and then a place to dump their baggage, as in kids, after they disappear. Kane set the comic book aside. Im sorry, Amber. Sorry that I had time to laze around and fantasize about naked women in smut magazines while sneaking a few puffs off of a cigarette. I wish Id known you back then. Amber shrugged, then suddenly smiled. Well at least you gave up your smoking habit, if not your lust for naked women. Kane snorted. No, I havent given up on women. Which Im so glad because right now Im lusting something fierce for you. Amber giggled and shook her head. Back in high school you wouldnt have paid any attention to me. Kane wet his lips. Dont be so sure about that. He then made a face. Well, maybe, theres the whole age difference. But if wed both been a little closer in age and both in high school, I doubt Id have been able to keep my hands off you. Amber leaned forward. He was so kind, so nice. And she bet back in high school hed broken quite a few hearts. She pressed her lips against his bare pectoral muscle, just above where his heart was. Kane sucked in a sharp breath. So, youre saying that you wouldnt have had any need for girly magazines? She flicked her tongue over his left nipple. Definitely not? He croaked. Amber felt a quiver ripple through Kanes chest, underneath her cheek. A couple dozen of cold showers, oh, yeah. Amber finger walked the tips of her fingers down over his abs to his bellybutton. She heard Kane swallow.
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And a box or three of condoms. Speaking of which. Amber whispered as she edged her hand under the waistband of Kanes cut off jeans shorts. Do you have any left? Of what? Condoms or self-control? Amber laughed and raised her head to kiss him on the lips. Her hand found its way into the opening of Kanes briefs and closed around his warm shaft. Both, she said seductively. Kane sucked in another sharp breath as the pad of her thumb grazed the tip of him. Havent even cracked open the box you commented on that night at the drugstore. His breath came out in a rushed gush. As for my self-control, youre coming awfully close to punching a hole the size of a tractor through it. Well, then I...rus. I suggest you put those magazines away and follow me.

It took exactly eight minutes and forty seconds for Kane and Amber to reach his back door. Another five seconds as Kane kicked off his sandals and Amber stepped out of her pink flip flops. And less than one for the two of them to come together in the middle of his kitchen. Their mouths met. The kiss deep and urgent all at once. Kanes hands reached for Amber. Glided over the smooth skin of her bare shoulders and snagged the knot of her halter top in his fist. With a yank, the knotted material gave way. Kanes hands moved to cup her, his thumbs teasing the swollen nubs of her breasts as she reached for his shorts. Their kiss deepened further as Kane rolled his tongue along hers while his shorts and briefs hit the floor. He stepped out of his clothes and slid his hands down Ambers stomach to weave their way into her shorts. Shorts, panties, they were gone in the blink of an eye. They stood naked, pressing themselves, rubbing themselves against one another. The heat of their skin igniting sparks of passion between them. Without breaking the kiss, Kane picked Amber up and wrapped her legs around his waist. He headed toward his bedroom.
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Afterwards, Kane and Amber lay panting. Sweat gleamed on both their bodies. Theyd come together in a heated rush of pent-up need. So quick and fiery, Kane was surprised that hed even had the presence of mind to rip open the box of condoms and put on protection. He licked his lower lip and gasped a few more times. He reached out and brushed Ambers bangs away from her forehead. Whoa His breathing was labour intense. I knew it would be good, but that... That was more than incredible. Amber smiled and she put a hand over his heart. Kane wet his lips. Her breasts, engorged and flush a deep rosy pink, with the nipples still hard as tiny pebbles, begged him to take them back into his mouth. They teased at what little strain of sanity he still had. I told you, you were going to kill me. Kane chuckled. He couldnt resist so he leaned over and ran his tongue over her extended orbs. Then he kissed her. Long and deeply. Back in a sec. He rolled out of bed and headed for the bathroom. He wasnt gone more than half a minute, but when he returned it was to find Amber sitting up, her back against the pillows. Her legs bent underneath the rumpled sheet. She smiled when he paused in the doorway. She slid the sheet down over her body and away from her legs. She spread her knees, offering him a perfect view of herself, all of herself. He was hard again in an instant. She held up a condom in between her fingers. Again? Kane was across the room in a flash. He took the foil packet from her fingers, tore it open and sheathed himself. He kissed Amber and as he slid inside her once more, he swore this time hed take it slow. And he did.

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The bar was packed, again. Noisier than shed ever heard it, and filled with more men than she could shake a stick at. It was Friday night, less than a week since she had awakened in Kanes bed, his hard body wrapped around her like shiny Christmas paper over a treasured gift. Amber smiled. She still couldnt believe that sex with Kane had been so mind-blowing fantastic. Days later and she was still tingling from just the thought of his hands touching her in places that only a lover should be touching. She swallowed. The need for him again rose within. She couldnt wait until she had a chance to spend some more time with him, but he was so busy at the shop, with two weddings, a funeral, a young graduate needing clothes for upcoming job interviews, and an elderly man who was in need of evening wear appropriate to dine with the ships captain on a cruise to Alaska with his wife. A loud roar went up and if it was possible, even more men piled into the bar. Amber glanced around. So what was going on? It wasnt playoff time for any sport that she knew of, and it wasnt the silly Christmas season, so what were all these men celebrating? Amber adjusted the pouch she wore on her belt and took a deep breath. She glanced around again. She didnt see any of her usual customers. In fact there was hardly anyone that she recognized. Oh, wait. She spotted Hank and Willis. They both waved at her when they noticed her. She headed their way. Hank, Willis. She nodded. What are you boys celebrating? Who says were celebrating? Hank asked with a shrug. Amber raised an eyebrow. Okay, okay. He gestured with his hand. Larry over there is getting married tomorrow and Willis here, hes the best man. Amber nodded.
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A stag. A bunch of oversexed men, drinking fountains of beer? She could handle this. No problem. She hoped that the tips would be good. Only a few of Larrys closest friends. Willis smiled, and gave her a wink. Only a few? What did you do, bus a few more hundred in from the next county? Hank and Willis laughed. Some guy, a complete stranger saddled up against her. Amber stepped back from the guy. Sheees funnnny. The guy slurred. Do you know youre funnyyyy? Amber shot Hank a look. I see that some of you boys started early. She brushed the guys hand away from her ass. Then said to Hank. Keep this one away from me, or his nuts are going to end up in a glass. Something like a bloody Mary? Another guy she didnt recognize snickered. Amber gave the guy a tight smile. Something like that. Now what can I get everyone? Beer, Willis announced. And keep it coming. Amber waggled a finger, encompassing the group in its entirety. And just how is all that beer going to get paid for? Oh, right. Willis pulled out a thick envelope and smacked it down onto the table. Well start with a thousand dollars, and see how far that takes us. Amber pressed her lips together. She sure as hell hoped that that wad of cash wasnt from the proceeds of the strawberry sales. If it was Ginny was going to have a fit and rightly so. Each guy gave Willis a hundred bucks before coming in. Amber nodded. A hundred bucks of beer? That was a lot of beer. She picked up the envelope. Okay, beer coming up. She started to turn away, then looked back over her shoulder. So, why isnt Kane with you? A look passed between the brothers. Then Hank went real still and Willis averted his eyes. I dont think that this is his thing, Hank eventually answered. Amber raised an eyebrow as she turned back around. What celebrating a friends upcoming wedding, or drinking like a drunken sailor?
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Having a gooood timmme. This comment came from a squat heavy-set man with a moustache. Amber noticed that the guy was balding. Put a sock in it, Larry, Hank warned in a low voice. He tried to steer the man away, but Larry shoved at Hanks arm. The man turned to Amber. Old Kis would rather sit in his shop, sewing, than spend his time out having a good time. Or better, yet, hes probably sitting in his room reading a boring book on Roman theology. He thinks hes so smart, so much better...but hes not. Im better...Im a lawyer now and I got his- Its Roman history, Willis corrected, cutting off Larrys drunk boast. And you better watch your mouth, Larry, Amber here, is Kiss girlfriend. Girlfriend! Larry boomed. This gorgeous babe? No damn way. Shes too fine a piece of ass for old Kis. Amber gritted her teeth. She shot both Hank and Willis a look. She hoped that Hank would clock old Larry, but instead Hank just shrugged. Willis nodded. She sure is, Larry, and dont refer to Amber as a piece of ass. Larry hooted and swayed. Surrrre, surrrre, whatever you saaaay, but I dont believe you, youre just, burp, just jerking my chain. A couple of men started laughing. One whacked Larry hard on the back. Another grinned. Shes a hell of a lot prettier than Susan, Larry. Maybe you should get her to marry you instead. Amber saw a mean glint flash in Larrys eyes. He leaned toward her and sneered before asking loudly. So, how much is old Kis paying you? Must have been a gooood chunk of cash to get you to sleep with him. Amber gasped. The men closest to Larry started to hoot and holler. Hey, Larry, you got money. See if shell sleep with you. Yeah, Larry, give her some cash! Tell her to take her clothes off! She aint got much to take off. More laughter, more sneers and plenty more rounds of rude comments followed. Larrys sneer turned into a bright smile. Amber stood staring at the lot of them, completely disgusted. Grown men
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Amber stood staring at the lot of them, completely disgusted. Grown men acting like a bunch of ass holes. She balled her fists, one around her order pad and the other around the whack of cash she still held. She glared at both Hank and Willis. Neither of them said anything. Amber began to fume. You know what? She snarled and threw the envelope back down onto the table. It opened and the cash spilled out and scattered over the polished surface. I dont think Ill be serving you tonight, any of you. Find someone else to supply your pitifully small egos with a jolt of booze. And as for you, Larry. Im sure as hell glad Im not the woman whos gonna have to wake up everyday beside you. Cause whoever she is, shes a damned fool. Amber threw Hank and Willis another fierce glare, turned, and began to elbow her way through the crowd. Amber, wait. Dammit, Larry, youre such a stupid idiot. Willis swore. Now, look what youve done. Amber! Amber ignored Hank and Willis calling after her. She had to get out of there. Now. Passing by one of the other waitresses, she handed her her order pad. Im not feeling very well. Im going home. But, Amber... What do you care? Amber glared at the woman. More tips for you. The womans eyes widened with greed. Yeah, thats right. Amber sneered. Go get them. She pushed her way past and never stopped until she was out the door and heading for her car. Amber! Damn, girl, wait up. Amber rounded and collided with Hank. She hadnt realized he was so close to her. Her anger flared, and before she realized what she was doing she punched him hard on the upper arm, then his other arm, then his chest and finally his stomach. Then repeated the pattern twice more for good measure. Hank just stood there absorbing her blows. How could you? She screamed and stomped her foot in the gravel parking
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How could you? She screamed and stomped her foot in the gravel parking lot. Hes your brother! Your brother! And you just stood there laughing along with the rest of them. Tears began to stream down Ambers face. Kane is the kindest, most generous man in the whole world. Hed do anything for anyone, and yet you all treat him like hes a joke. Whats wrong with a man being good and decent? Hank said nothing, which only made Amber angrier. Her tears started flowing from her eyes in rivulets. Whats wrong with you people? Why cant any of you appreciate him for who he is? I do. I appreciate him and I dont deserve him by far, yet he cant do enough for me. He- Amber cut Hank off. You know what I dont understand, is why he stays here? Why he allows himself to be the butt of all your jokes? Why hes bound to people who arent worthy of him. You might ask yourself that very question. Hanks soft but, gruff tone stopped Ambers tirade. She glared at him. What question? Hank just stared back at her. She narrowed her eyes. This is not about me. Hank shook his head at her. Oh, thats where youre wrong. This has everything to do with you Amber shook her head. Forget damn Larry. Hank swore. Forget all of us. Ive never seen Kis in love like he is now, with you. Hed walk over broken glass, slice his chest open, and lay down his life for you. So just ask yourself, Amber. What are you going to do when push comes to shove? When the chips are down. Are you going to choose Kis? Because I know my brother and despite what you may want, or, the fact that you and Lori might up and leave at any moment, Kis wont leave. He wont follow you, and if you dont understand why, then youre not worthy of him either.

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Amber knew she was wasting gas. But like the other morning, when shed discovered the pee stick in Loris bathroom, Amber couldnt help herself. She wanted to run. Only this time it wasnt running away, it was running to. She wanted to run to Kane. To have him hold her in his arms. To soothe away the fact that shed just made an absolute fool of herself. Hanks words kept haunting her. She knew that Kane was in love with her. That wasnt news to her. Shed known since that night at the bar. The night shed found him out in the parking lot leaning up against his car. The pain shed seen in his eyes at her rejection had told her what his true feelings were, but like so much she had shoved the realization to the back of her mind. She hadnt wanted his love, not back then, but she did now. A set of lights coming at her down the highway, had Amber focusing back on the here and now. The cars high beams were on and even though she flickered hers on and off, the driver of the other vehicle didnt lower his lights. Time to get off the road. For all she knew it was some guy coming from the bar, half pissed and stupid enough to get behind the wheel. Amber slammed on her brakes and made a quick detour into an old farm service drive. The dust clouds hadnt even begun to settle before she saw in the rear view mirror the speeding car whizz by. Amber dropped her head onto her hands as she gripped the steering wheel. She had no idea where she was. She hadnt been paying much attention to where she was going. Now she wished she had. She glanced down at the gas gauge. She was running real low on fuel. She better get back on the road and find a road sign. She needed to get back home. But as she began to shift the car into reverse, she spotted in the light from her headlights a structure in the distance and then she noticed the huge sign Stewart Berry Farm. Amber laughed. Of course. Of course shed end up back at the strawberry fields. Where else would she go? Shed become so wrapped up in Kanes family, that shed actually woven herself into the very fabric of their lives.
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Amber brought her car to a slow stop. She frowned when she noticed that Loris van wasnt parked in the driveway. Amber parked on the road and got out of her car. She glanced down the street noticing that Kanes parents car and the Dixons car was also absent from their driveways. She glanced toward Hanks house. Of course, his was gone as well. Hed probably gone back into the bar after shed finished assaulting him. She hoped she left some bruises. Okay, maybe just one. She walked up the pathway to the front door and the first thing she noticed when she opened the door was that the house was quiet. Really quiet. Amber frowned. She could see soft light flickering from the direction of the living room. Someone had the television on with the sound either off or really low. Ambers frowned increased. She glanced at her watch. It wasnt even ten thirty yet. So where were the kids? Why wasnt the house lit up like a Christmas tree on Christmas Eve? Amber peeked into the living room. Her jaw dropped. Kane? What was Kane doing sitting in her living room? He wasnt alone, which was even more confusing. Before she could take a step, Kane looked at her and shook his head. He glanced down to his lap. Melissa lay fast asleep with her head resting on his thigh. Her tiny hand was wrapped around two of Kanes fingers, and her knees were curled up to her chest. Ambers eyes flickered to the end of the couch. Molly sat on the end leaning against the armrest, her eyes drooping, but still focused on the TV screen. Amber followed Mollys gaze and smiled when she noticed that on the screen was an animated movie about a little girl with long golden hair and a wicked stepmother. One of Mollys favourite stories to watch.
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Amber smiled and came to sit down on the couch between Kane and Molly. She lifted Melissas legs and draped them over her as she settled back into the comfortable cushions of the sofa. Kane brushed his bare knee against hers and raised an eyebrow at her. He was obviously wondering why she was home so early. Amber shook her head and mouthed tell you later. Kane gave her a smile and turned his attention back to the TV. When the movie was over, about twenty minutes later, Kane ejected the DVD and carefully moved Melissas head aside so he could get up. Time for bed, Molly. He said, taking the DVD out of the DVD player and putting it back into its case. Molly nodded and got groggily to her feet. I had fun, Kane, thanks. Kane put his hand on the girls head. So did I. Molly gave Kane a hug as he handed her the DVD. Then she turned to Amber. Night. What you dont want me to tuck you in? Molly paused for a moment. She regarded Amber with a frown. You never tuck me in. Amber rose to her feet. Maybe I should think about changing that. Molly only shrugged. Okay. Amber smiled and leaned down to pick Molly up. Ohhh. She groaned. I think youre getting a little too big for me to be doing this anymore. Kane laughed. Here let me take her. He picked up Melissa and then turned toward Molly. Piggy back style? Molly nodded. Off we go, Kane said. He headed for the stairs with Amber following. When they entered the girls bedroom which was across the hall from Loris, Amber noticed that Toby was sleeping in the same bed as Sara. Where are the boys? Out in the tree house. I went next door and rounded up some sleeping bags. The last time I checked they were having a grand ole time reading through the comic books in the trunk. Ambers eyebrows lifted. The trunk?
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Kane smiled as he pulled the blankets over Melissa and Molly. Dont worry, I confiscated the contraband. Night, Amber, night, Kane, Molly said tiredly. She yawn and raised a hand to wipe at her nose. Goodnight, Molly. Amber leaned forward and kissed both Molly and Melissa on the head. Goodnight, you two. I love you. Molly smiled. Luv you too. Once Amber and Kane were back downstairs, Kane headed toward the kitchen. What are you doing here? she asked. And where is Lori, Veronica and Betty? Kane began to clean up what Amber could see were the remnants of a party feast. Lori took the girls to a bridal shower, but I think its supposed to be more like a bachelorette party. Amber didnt like the sounds of it. She picked up a couple of dirty plates and scrapped a few crusted cheese and pizza sauce chunks and half eaten pizza crusts into the trash can. She put the plug into the sink, turned the hot and cold water taps on and added soap. Please, dont tell me it was for Larrys fiance, Susan. Kane grimaced. So, you met Larry. Amber pulled out a drying rack from under the sink. Oh, yeah. What a total jerk-off. Kane snorted. Thats an apt description. Amber made a face as she turned off the water and stuck her hands into the soapy suds. She felt Kanes hot breath on her neck as he brushed aside her hair. He kissed her nape and reached around her to gently grasp her breasts. He nibbled one of her earlobes. So, what are you doing home so early? Amber pressed her lips together and began scrubbing a glass. I made a complete spectacle of myself, used Hank as a punching bag, and possibly in the process...lost my job at the bar and maybe even with Willis. Kanes hands stilled. A few seconds passed, then he raised his hands to her shoulders and gently turned her to face him.
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Sounds like you had a full night. They made fun of you. Me? Kane frowned and raised his eyebrows all at the same time. How did I get dragged into it? I wasn't even there. Amber swallowed. She turned back to the sink. She washed another glass and then a plate before continuing. Thats the whole point. I asked why you werent. Kane laughed. I bet that opened a can of worms. And then some, Amber thought. She needed to ask, but didnt know how to formulate the questions. She didnt know how to delve into something that obviously was a source of contention between Kane and...well everyone. She heard Kane sigh, then he said. I didnt go the the stag because I didnt want to make Larry, even as much of a jack-ass as he is, uncomfortable. I was engaged to Susan. You were? When? She heard the clank of dishes as Kane picked more up off the table. A long time ago. Amber looked over her shoulder at him. Are you over her? Kane shot her a look. Oh, yeah, I was over Susan way before she stood me up at the alter. I just didnt tell anyone. Amber took her hands out of the soapy water. Why havent you left? And whats this about Roman history? Ive never seen any of the books youre supposed to be so fond of reading. Kane put the dishes into the sink. He scratched his head. Boy, the guys were really busy tonight, werent they? Amber swallowed. You dont have to tell me. Why not? Its not that big a deal. Although from the sounds of what I think theyve all been filling your head with, I can understand your questions. Amber turned to watch Kane as he finished gathering up the last of the dirty dishes. When hed put them into the sink he handed her a tea towel to dry her hands and then guided her to a chair at the table. He got two glasses from the cupboard and reached for a half drank two litre bottle of pop. Amber shook her head at the one hed chosen, and pointed to a bottle
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Amber shook her head at the one hed chosen, and pointed to a bottle containing a red liquid. Kane uncapped the bottle and poured her a glass. Amber smiled. You must have been real popular with the kids tonight. Its not often that they get to have pizza take-out. It wasnt take-out. I stopped by the grocery store after Lori gave me a call and picked up the fixings. Theres still some leftovers in the fridge, if youd like. Youre kidding me, right? Pizza? Who do I have to kill? Kane laughed and retrieved a container from the fridge. Amber had one piece completely devoured and was working on a second when Kane spoke. Susan and I grew up together. He pulled out a chair and sat down. Shes Birdie and Jeremys daughter. Two years younger than I am. Never even gave me a second look until around the time I was deciding what university I wanted to attend. University? Kane nodded. I was planning on majoring in philosophy, with Roman history as my principal course of study. I was looking into going to school over in Europe, either Germany or Italy. Amber swallowed and nodded. Oh, I see Yeah, I kind of got the same impression. It didnt take me long to figure out that Susans sudden interest in me was because I wanted to get out of this town. But, heck, not many girls took that much interest in me so What happened? Amber watched Kane take a deep breath. He didnt answer her. Amber finished her piece of pizza and took a long drink of her soda. Tina, Kane finally said. Hanks wife. She was pregnant during my last year of high school, and just before March break, she went into early labour. Amber felt her chest tighten. Shed never heard anything about Hanks wife. Had no idea who she was or why he wasnt married anymore. Tina was having twins. One was definitely a girl and the other...well the ultrasound couldnt give a definitive answer on whether the second baby was a girl or a boy. Tina was positive that they were both girls, because her pregnancy was very different from the other three. She was sick, and I mean really sick while carrying. She died in the delivery room and the baby girl didnt survive more than
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carrying. She died in the delivery room and the baby girl didnt survive more than a couple of hours, and Jason, he was born with a tiny tear in his lung tissue. Tears swelled in Ambers eyes. Oh, no. Kane wet his lips. Hank went ballistic. He lost his wife, his daughter and his son was hanging onto life by a thread. Jason was four months in the neonatal ward and Hank never left his side. Spent every second he could at the hospital. My Mom drove the forty-five minute drive every day, to try and convince Hank to come home to his other children, but Hank refused. There was no getting through to him. Of course. Jason was his focus. Kane gave her a nod. The boys needed care. Sam was only ten, Craig was seven and Fred was three. Tinas parents were dead, Willis had just married Ginny over Christmas time. Mom had my younger brother and sister to raise and Dad couldnt afford to stop working since there was no one to run the shop for him. So that left you. Kane nodded again. And Susan? How did she deal with all this? Kane laughed. Oh, she wasnt pleased. She wanted me to ditch Hanks kids. To finish high school and then go ahead with my plans to go to school in Europe. She had this fantasy that Id return after she graduated and that wed get married and then Id take her back to Europe with me. Kane reached over, took Ambers glass and took a sip. He made a face and gave her back her soda. Amber watched Kane swallow. It never happened, did it? No. I dropped out of school. Your parents must have been upset. Everyone was, but I didnt care. All I could think about were the boys. Amber took a deep breath. She reached over and took Kanes hand. So what happened when Jason was well enough to come home? Kane shrugged. Hank went back to teaching, and I continued to look after my nephews, then, when Jason was old enough to go to school, I asked my father to teach me his craft. And when did you almost marry Susan? The summer after Jason turned five. I guess she figured it was time that I got on with my life.
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You mean as in a ticket out of town for good. Kane nodded. I cant say that I protested too much. There werent many girls around that paid me much attention. You said she stood you up at the alter. Why didnt she go ahead with the wedding? Kane snorted. Larry. Ambers jaw dropped. Susan threw you over for Larry? The same jerk shes marrying tomorrow? Yeah. It was for the best. Id say. Especially for you. Kane laughed. Yeah, youre right about that. Okay so that explained why Kane hadnt gone to the stag, and Larrys comment about Kane sewing in his shop, but Amber still didnt understand why reading history books would trigger such a sense of ridicule? So whats up with the books? Kane grimaced. He scratched at his cheek with his index finger. Theyre still in my old room in my parents house. You see, Amber, up until recently, I still lived with them. Ambers eyes widened. Well that was news. Not surprising since hed dropped out of school and devoted a good portion of his life caring for Hanks children. Kane poured himself a glass of soda and took a long drink. Im sorry that I embarrassed you. Excuse me? Amber frowned. How have you embarrassed me? Kane didnt answer her for a long moment. A grown man who most people think is still living with his parents, whos never graduated high school and has no ambition beyond cutting fabric for some poor guy whos up and died, why wouldnt I embarrass you? Im almost thirty and more suited to changing diapers than driving a tractor. I chaperon school dances and cant even bring myself to take the risk of jumping off a cliff out at the Point. Amber, Ive never even travelled more than a hundred miles from where I was born. Amber laughed Kane, Im not much different from you. Im still living with my family, and although Ive cut the umbilical cord from Lori, youd think Id given birth to
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although Ive cut the umbilical cord from Lori, youd think Id given birth to Melissa and Toby the way I hover and fuss over them. I barely made it out of high school myself, and Ive only attended a couple of college accounting classes, and as for travelling, Ive done nothing but be on the road since I was six. Its not as great as everyone thinks it is. She had hoped to get a smile out of Kane with her admission. He didnt, however, even snicker. She pressed her lips together. She couldnt take her eyes from him. Then a thought occurred to her. You bought that house for me, didnt you? Kane took a deep breath. His expression was hard to read, but his eyes told her everything she needed to know. Oh, my, she breathed. He had. He had purchased his house with her in mind. Hed moved out of the only home hed know. Away from his family, Hanks kids, and for her. Ambers chest tightened. Her heart swelled. Could she possibly love Kane anymore than she did at this very moment? Amber swallowed the sudden lump in her throat and got up out of her chair. She sat down on Kanes lap. She hugged him close and then gave him a tender kiss. You know what I...rus? Her eyes began to tear as she gave him a warm smile. Someday soon, Im going to ask you to marry me.

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Amber walked determinedly into the bar. It was Saturday night. Larry and Susans wedding day. The noise level was high as Amber snatched a serving tray from a stack on a nearby table. She looked around and recognized some of the faces shed seen the night before. Excellent. Where the hell have you been? The owner of the bar and her boss shouted when he spotted her. It was a few minutes after nine oclock, four hours later than when she should have started her shift. I should can you for that stunt you pulled last night. He hollered at her. But hell, the men love it when you shake your ass, so I guess well let it slide this time. But youre on thin ice, Amber. Razor thin. Amber gave the man a sharp look. Well, then, I guess you better grab yourself a rope, because the ice just cracked and Im going in. Icy water and all. He gave her a look and shook his head. Get to work. Sure, but first Ive got some business to take care of. Amber grabbed the controller for the wide screen television and the stereo system that was pumping out country music that could be barely heard over the roar of rowdy male voices and the clinking of beer glasses. She yanked a wooden chair out from behind the bar and stepped up on its seat. She hit the button on the remote and the television screen went black. A few men glanced in her direction, but none said anything. Next came an end to the music. Still not much of a reaction. Amber took a deep breath. One whistle, two whistles, three whistles and a fourth whistle just to make sure that shed gotten everyones attention sounded from between Ambers lips. The bar suddenly went quiet. I want everyone to listen up, because Im only going to say this once. Amber shouted loud enough so that she could be heard in all corners of the bar.
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Amber shouted loud enough so that she could be heard in all corners of the bar. My name is Amber Heath, someday-soon-to-be, Mrs. Kane Stewart, and Ive got three things to say. She held up a finger. Number one, and this is for all you waitresses. She looked pointed to each and every girl. Starting tonight I keep all my tips. Every last penny. No more splitting the pot. No more of you taking half of my share, by slipping twoonies and loonies into your panties. My tips are my own and if I see any of you removing money from any of my tables, Ill consider that stealing and well be taking things outside. She paused to take a breath. I may be a small woman, not too tall like some of you, but Ive raised ten siblings, yeah, you heard me, ten, and believe me I know how to handle myself in a brawling scuffle. And if that dont work, theres always the bat I keep in the trunk of my car. Amber saw a few men smirk. She held up another finger. Number two, and this is for all you men...or women if the case may be. If I hear one derogatory word said, or catch sight of a back-ass snicker out of any of you regarding my someday-soon-to-be, husband, Kane Stewart, youll not only be picking beer froth out of your hair, youll be toting a few bruises in places that will keep you out of anyone but your own bed for quite some time. And that will be the last drink Ill ever serve you, you can count on that. Amber took another paused then held up a third finger. And number three, and this is for everyone. Starting tonight, I dont work past ten oclock. Ive got more important things to do, like keeping my man happy in bed, than to be serving a bunch of egotistical jerk-offs who dont even have the intelligence of a newt, and who think that the word book is something to be hidden away or to be using its pages as something to wipe your ass after you take a dump. Amber retracted her fingers and closed her hand into a fist. Well, thats all Ive got to say. Now, if theres anyone who has a problem with what Ive just said, well speak up. Amber looked around the bar. She saw lots and lots of shocked expressions, a few dropped jaws, but no sign of anyone who intended on saying anything. Good! She tapped her tray with her fingers. Now what can I get you all?

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Kane was waiting for her when she left the bar. The scene was very reminiscent of the first time shed seen him after leaving his shop weeks ago. He was again leaning up against a car. Only this time it was her car. His arms were stretched out with his hands on the roof. Shoulders slumped and his head hanging down toward the ground. He didnt quite look like a kicked puppy, the way he had before. He looked much worse. A man crushed and devastated. A man without hope. Ambers heart plummeted to her stomach. He knew. Kane didnt turn to her as she walked across the parking lot, though she was sure that he knew she was coming because she saw the muscles in his shoulders ripple as he raised his head. She swallowed as she approached him. Who told you? She wasnt stupid, she knew that hed find out. In a town this small, shed been half expecting him to show up in the bar. She was glad he hadnt. Kane pushed himself away from the car and turned to face her. He didnt say anything, but held out his hand. Amber handed him her car keys. After opening the passenger side door for her, Kane walked around to the driver side and got in. He hadnt touched her. Ambers heart ached. They were out of the bars parking lot and on the road when Amber finally found her voice again. How much do you know? She watched Kane swallow. He took a breath and reached into the inside pocket of his suit coat. He was still dressed as if hed come from his shop. Amber hadnt known hed been working late tonight. He took out his cellphone and handed it to her. Amber felt her heart begin to race. The implication hit her hard. Someone at the bar had used their cellphone to videotape her speech and as
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Someone at the bar had used their cellphone to videotape her speech and as she pressed the buttons on Kanes phone, she knew without a doubt that she was now splashed across the Internet. She wondered just how soon it would take the video of her to go viral? I especially like the part about the sex after ten oclock. FYI, it aint going to happen. Not tonight. Kanes voice was calm, but Amber heard his hurt in each syllable hed spoken. The underlined anger in his tone was self evident. Amber pressed the last button and a grainy image of her standing on a bar chair appeared on the tiny screen. When she began to speak, Amber noticed that her voice was surprising clear. When the video was over, Amber disconnected the phone and held it up to her forehead. I didnt mean... she trailed off. What could she say to wipe away Kanes pain? I sure as hell hope you meant what you said, because if you didnt then I- Kane cut himself off and Amber turned her head to look at him. She saw his hands tighten on the steering wheel. I didnt mean to make you- A laughingstock of the town? My mother sure thinks you have. Amber groaned and covered her face with her hands. Oh, damn. Could things get any worse? Mildred Stewart already didnt like her as it was. Could she possibly make the woman hate her even more? Im so sorry, Kane. She said, removing her hands and looking across the darkened interior of the car. You must be furious with me. Furious? She saw Kane shake his head. No, Im not furious. Angry? Oh, yeah...Im angry all right. Just not at you. Amber was stunned. Excuse me? For the first time since theyd entered her car, Kane looked at her. Kane didnt quite crack a smile, but Amber did feel some of his tension ebb out of him. Im proud of you. You are? Kane nodded and put his eyes back on the road. It took a lot of guts to do what you did. You stood up for yourself and demanded that your share of the tips be solely yours. You also finally put yourself first in informing your boss that you
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be solely yours. You also finally put yourself first in informing your boss that you wouldnt be running yourself into the ground from exhaustion anymore. Kane paused. Amber held her breath. Now, as for my part in your speech. I cant say Im not a little peeved that my girlfriend...no wait, someday-soon-to-be wife, felt she needed to defend me, but I cant say that Im sorry. Again he looked to her. He still didnt smile, however. You were awesome. Fierce and sexy. Like some warrior woman staking her claim on her man. I couldnt care less if those idiots laugh me all the way down to Hamilton, I cant wait to take you to bed. Amber felt confused. Kane certainly didnt look like a man who was eager to make love to her. Yes, he looked raw with emotion, but it wasnt sexual. I dont understand, Amber said. She twirled Kanes cellphone in her fingers. Youre obviously angry. You said it yourself, and if youre not angry with me, then what are you angry about? Kane didnt answer her. He pulled her car into his driveway instead and cut the engine. He exited the car and went around to her door. He helped her out, which was encouraging to Amber. He was finally touching her again. Kane still said nothing as he opened the houses side door and ushered Amber in. She noticed that he for the first time since shed been in his house turned and locked the door. She swallowed as she watched him head toward the sliding doors in the kitchen that lead to the backyard deck. He too flicked the sliding doors locked. Then he kicked off his shoes and headed toward the living room. Amber took off her cowboy boots. The ones she always wore to work and followed him. Kane went to the front door and turned the door latch. Another lock locked. He turned back to her and held out his hand. She handed him back his cellphone. Kane hit a button and then tossed the phone onto his sofa. Next he reached for the landline telephone that rested on a table beside the sofa and switched the ringer off, effectively cutting off any connection to the house and the outside
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ringer off, effectively cutting off any connection to the house and the outside world. Ambers eyes widened. Kane? He looked at her and Amber watched him as he sucked in a deep breath and then release it in a rush. He reached up and loosened his tie, then shrugged out of his suit coat. I need to think, he said in way of an explanation. And I cant think with people traipsing through my house, or, bothering me with insistent telephone calls and text messages. Amber found herself nodding, although she had no idea why. Kane tossed his suit coat onto the sofa beside his phone. Its my life and Ill live it as I see fit. He yanked his tie from around his neck and threw it onto his jacket. He began unbuttoning his shirt. Amber could only watch him. What I want to do right now, is get out of these clothes. He undid his cufflinks and dropped them onto the coffee table. Take a hot shower. He pulled off his shirt and let it fall to the floor. His hands went to his pants. Crawl into bed. The pants hit the floor. He stepped out of them. And tell the world to go take a piss. In only his underwear and a pair of black socks, Kane walked toward the hallway leading to the bedrooms. He turned back to her. Amber stood rooted to the spot. I would really like it if you joined me, but of course thats optional. Your car keys are in my trousers pocket. If you go, Id appreciate it if youd lock the door behind you. He stood there for a moment. Just watching her, his eyes turning sad as he waited to see what she decided. Amber chewed at the inside of her cheek. I...rus, youre scaring me. Kane deflated right before her eyes. She never had seen a man look so dejected. He walked back to her and raised a hand to gently brush her bangs from her eyes. Im spent, Amber. I dont have much left in me. So either come to bed or go home. Amber took his hand. She wasnt going anywhere.
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Kane gave her a nod. He squeezed her hand and together they headed off to the bathroom. Amber opted for a bath while Kane showered and brushed his teeth. He didnt engage in his usual yammering, which frightened Amber more than she thought possible. When she finally got out of the bath and headed into Kanes bedroom she expected to find him fast asleep. He wasnt. He was staring at the ceiling, his arms crossed behind his head. When she finished drying off and went to reach for the silk shirt shed used before as a nightshirt, Kane shook his head, drew back the bedclothes, and held out a hand. She dropped the towel and crawled naked into Kanes bed. He reached for her and drew her close to him, spoon style. He wrapped his arms around her and pulled her closer. They lay like that in silence for a few moments, until Amber felt Kanes sex harden and lengthen against her. Ignore that, its just my body reacting to having you in my arms. He brushed back her wet hair and gently kissed her neck. Then he trailed his hand over her bare shoulder. Now go to sleep. Amber bit her lip and closed her eyes. A few minutes past, but sleep eluded Amber. Kanes warm breath on the back of her neck was even and regular, as if hed drifted off to sleep, but the slight movement of his fingers against her skin, in a slow, circular motion, told her that he was awake. Ambers chest tightened. Tears began to gather beneath her closed eyes. They trickled down her cheeks.

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Kane was mixing batter when Amber appeared in the kitchen. Hed heard the water to the shower turn off minutes ago, so he knew she was coming, but seeing her now, simply took his breath away. She looked exactly the same as the very first day hed met her. Dark hair sopping wet and green eyes as wary of him as they had been back then. She was even dressed in the same charcoal silk shirt hed given her back at the shop to wear. She was absolutely gorgeous. Hed fallen in love with her that day. So very very hard. As Amber took a step into the kitchen, Kane noticed that shed given her bangs a quick trim, since they were a little shorter this morning. He smiled at her. She chewed at the inside of her cheek. He watched her tilt her head to the side. She frowned and wet her lips. Was that a dream last night? Kane laughed. Dont I wish, but no. He gestured toward his cellphone. It was resting on the kitchen table. Youre up to over fifty thousand hits. Ambers jaw dropped. She buried her face into her hands. Kane laughed again. He poured batter onto a slatted surface. Amber lower her hands. Youre awfully cheerful. Her eyes darted to the machine beside his elbow. Waffles, youre making me waffles? Kane nodded. I thought that after last night, we both could use a...treat. Amber came to stand on the other side of the counter from him. She pulled out a kitchen stool and perched herself onto the seat. She leaned forward and put her elbows on the counter, then rested her chin in her hands. Is everything alright? Are we okay? Kane lowered the top half of the waffle machine and set the bowl of batter down on the counter. He reached across the space between them and ran a finger through her bangs. If you want us to be okay, then were okay.
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So its my choice? Completely. Kane retracted his hand. He turned and opened a cupboard. He took out two plates and set them down on the counter. Then he got out a couple of knives and forks. My feelings for you havent changed, he said. He watched Amber wet her lips. The timer on the waffle machine made a tiny ding. Kane opened the lid and lifted the waffles out with a spatula. He put them on Ambers plate. He reached for a can of pure maple syrup. He raised an eyebrow. Ambers eyes widened. She shook her head eagerly. Kane laughed. He poured a generous portion over her waffles. Then he reached for a bowl of freshly picked raspberries. Hey, I thought the raspberries werent supposed to be ready for at least another week? Kane smiled. Early crop, I guess. Amber grinned and shook her head. Brice will be glad to hear that. Hes been itching to put more money into the grocery jar. Ambers mention of the grocery jar, had Kane frowning. Kane? He shook himself. He gave her a half smile. Amber looked at him for a few seconds, then cut into her waffles and forked a section dripping in maple syrup and raspberries into her mouth. Kane watched her close her eyes and chew. He smiled. Another winner. Amber opened her eyes and caught him staring at her. You hit that one out of the park. She grinned at him, then licked her bottom lip. Kane groaned. He felt the now familiar desire for Amber stirring in the pit of his stomach. Amber looked up briefly before cutting another section of waffle off. She moved it around her plate. So I take it that you found your way back from that dark spot you were in last night? Kane heard the caution in Ambers voice. He also saw the wariness in her eyes. Kane stomped down his need. Yes.
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Amber put her fork down. She licked her lips. Are we going to talk about it? Yes...yes we are. He poured more batter onto the waffle machines coated surface and closed the lid again. I got some news last night, news that pretty much floored me, Kane said. It came at me from out of the blue, and I didnt know how to handle it. You mean something more than my video debut? Kane took a breath, he watched Amber swallow and then avert her eyes. She was back chewing at her cheek again. Kane sighed. Amber knew. She knew exactly what he was referring too. And now, he knew that she knew, that he knew too. Amber wet her lips again. Your mother? Kane nodded. So how long have you known? Amber shrugged, then glanced down at her plate. She pressed her lips together and looked back up at him. A while. A while, Kane repeated slowly. Exactly how long...is a while? Amber shrugged again. The waffle machine went ding again. Kane ignored it. Was it before or after we... Before we had sex, but after I became your girlfriend. Kane ran a hand down his face. He let out a breath. He didnt know how to process that info. Why had Amber stayed his girlfriend, and why did she have sex with him if...? I didnt say anything because it doesnt matter. Kane sucked in a breath. The waffle machine began to emit a little too much smoke. The ding went again. Kane absentmindedly reached for the handle of the waffle machine and lifted the lid. Steam billowed out. How could it not matter? he asked. Amber went back to pushing another section of waffles around her plate. Did you intend me to be just a pleasant memory? Amber looked up. She gave him a beautiful smile. Youll always be more
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Amber looked up. She gave him a beautiful smile. Youll always be more than just a memory. Youre my future. He felt like a fist suddenly slammed into his gut. Yet youre still moving. Amber shook her head. Im not going anywhere. Kane took a deep breath. Isnt it going to be kind of hard to occupy a house that the Ryersons are going to move back into? Amber gave him a look. It was the most daunting look that Kane had yet to see. She reached over and picked up the spatula. She lifted the slightly crispy waffles from the waffle plate and put them onto his plate. She poured maple syrup over them and then lifted the spoon in the raspberry bowl. She lifted an eyebrow at him. Yes, please. Amber scooped several spoonfuls over his breakfast, then set down the spoon. She picked her fork back up and put another section of her own waffles into her mouth. She chewed. Kane stood there gawking at her. He couldnt help himself. It appears, Amber said when she was finished chewing. That your mother left out an important piece of information. Kane lifted his shoulders. He waited for her to continue. Yes, she said, the Ryersons are returning home. Yes, I was informed of their decision, since I pay them rent. But, no, the Ryersons are not moving back into their old home. Theyve bought another house, one very similar in design to this one. Kane released the breath he hadnt realized hed been holding. So my mother lied to me. If the Ryersons told her why they were coming home, then, yes, she lied. Amber pointed her fork at his plate. Kane picked up his knife and fork. He cut off a large section and positioned it at his mouth. His chest felt a little lighter. Amber wasnt moving away, but he still had questions. Why are the Ryersons coming back? I know that the company Mr. Ryerson worked for closed up shop and moved their operation overseas to take advantage of cheap labour. Does this mean hes found another job? Kane put the waffle wedge into his mouth. Amber shrugged. Yes, and no?
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Kane finished chewing. Is this going to be one of those cyclical riddles? You know, he has a job, but its not a job, therefore, he cant have a job, yet its a job. Amber laughed. Something like that. Kane shrugged. Mr. and Mrs. Ryerson are returning, but theyre also bringing Mr. Ryersons mother and Mr. Ryersons younger sister back with them. Kane nodded. I remember her...Mr. Ryersons sister, Sally, if I remember correctly. Yes, Sally is her name. Kane forked another wedge into his mouth and chewed. A faint smile crossed his face. I was about thirteen, fourteen at the time, if I recall when she and Mr. Ryersons mother came for a visit. She must have been in her late twenties, early thirties, but oh man... his voice trailed off. He put a hand over his heart, and took another bite of waffles. He saw Amber raise her eyebrows. She still is, Amber said. Kane almost choked. He coughed several times, then croaked. No way? Youre kidding? If she looks half as good now, as she did what fifteen, sixteen years ago, Id say that she had a lot of the neighbourhood boys in no need of those girly magazines you all had up in the tree house. Kane laughed. Then a thought occurred to him. Hey, wait a second. How do you know what Mr. Ryersons sister looks like? She lives way out in British Columbia. Amber smiled. There is such a thing as the Internet and some computers now come equipped with webcams. Kane frowned. But you dont have a computer? Sam does. Kane gasped. Hank knows? Well, yeah. Kane frowned. Then, my mother definitely lied. Hank wouldnt have sat on this. Amber wrinkled her nose. Im not so sure about that.
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Why not? Because I think Sally is interested in him. That shocked Kane. Hank? But he and your mother... Amber gave Kane a look. Were talking about Hank, here, Kane. He slept with my mother after only knowing her a couple of hours, if that. Kane nodded. He had to concede Ambers point. Okay, so Sally likes Hank. Hank is still reeling from your mothers attempt to pin her pregnancy on him, but that still doesnt explain why the Ryersons are not going to move back next door to my parents. Amber smiled. Because the Ryersons need to find a house that is all on one level. Mr. Ryersons mother is almost blind, so its not practical for her to be climbing all those stairs that are in the old Ryersons house. Kane nodded again. He knew exactly how many sets of stairs were in the house. Hed barrelled up and down them countless times over the course of his youth. Well...this is certainly interesting news, he said. Kane watched Ambers face break into another gorgeous smile. Man if she would only do that for the rest of his life, hed die a happy man. What are you grinning about? Ambers smile widened. Sally has decided to set up shop here. What kind of business does she run? She has a pastry shop. But we already have one. Kane frowned. Just down the street from Stewart Tailoring. Amber nodded and put up a finger. This shop is going to be different. It will specialize in cakes, pies, brownies and cookies. Kane shrugged. Baked items that the local diner has already expressed an interest in. Kane suddenly clued in. So Mr. Ryersons new job will be in the pastry shop. Amber lifted one shoulder. Sort of. Hell be doing the accounts and monitoring the incoming supplies. Plus hell be handling the on-line distribution. So theyre going to do mail order as well?
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Amber nodded. And thats where I come in, and why I need to stop work at the bar by ten oclock. Kane found himself smiling. You mean other than to come home and have sex with me? Amber laughed. Oh, thats still my top priority, dont get me wrong, youre not getting away from me so fast. I still plan to do a whole lot of the dirty deed and rocking your bed. Kane grimaced. Veronica? Betty. Amber grinned. Kane shoved the final piece of waffle into his mouth. When Amber didnt continue telling him about the Ryersons, he inquired. Okay, Im not following. You need to be home by ten, for what reason? He watched Amber sit straighter on her stool. Starting in September...or, October, depending when they get the business up and running, Ill be joining them as one of their pastry chefs. Kanes jaw dropped. He was blindsided. No! Amber, that fantastic. She smiled at him with such excitement in her eyes, he could only stare at her. I know, Ive never gone to school and Im not a real chef, but Sally wants me to come work with her. Kane was flabbergasted. He shook himself out of his stupor. Thats great. Now can you bake? Amber raised an eyebrow. She got off of her stool and began unbuttoning her shirt as she walked around the kitchen counter toward him. She opened her shirt and then let it fall from her shoulders to the floor. She stood completely naked before him. Her breasts still slightly pink from her shower. Her nipples hardened. Kane was back to stirring. Pass me an apron, I...rus. Amber whispered seductively as she reached a hand out to cup him. Can I bake, he asks? Let me show you exactly what I can make rise.

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Amber breathed heavily and rolled over. She put a hand on her lower abdomen and tried to slow her heart rate. Hed done it again. Kane had once more taken her to the heights of ecstasy with his fevered passion for her. She took another breath. The water in the adjoining bathroom stopped and a moment later Kane appeared in the doorway. Ambers heart skipped a beat. Kanes body gleamed with a fine sheen of sweat. She noticed from the quick rise and fall of his chest, that his breathing too hadnt quite returned to a normal pace. Good, she was glad that she wasnt the only one who was experiencing mind-blowing sexual activity. Kane walked across the room and flopped down onto the bed. He reached over and entwined his hand with the one she still held over her abdomen. If you bake as good as you have sex, then youll make Sally, a very...very...very rich woman. A warmth spread through Amber. So, in your opinion, Ive just kept my man satisfied and happy? Kane laughed. And then some, and its not even ten oclock yet. Amber grimaced. Am I ever going to live that down? Why the hell would I want you too? Kane chuckled. You declared to the whole bar... hell the whole world, that you think Im a stud. You are. To me. Kane kissed her cheek. I just hope you now understand that every time either of us buys a box of condoms the whole town will know about it. In fact, people will probably hold bets on how many boxes we buy. Ambers chuckle was more of a groan than a laugh. Maybe Ill just drive to the nearest town. And have everyone questioning whether I can please my woman? I dont
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And have everyone questioning whether I can please my woman? I dont think so. Unless that is, you dont think that I please you. Amber felt her loins burn. You mean you couldnt tell from my screams? Kane gave her a cheeky grin. Yes...yes, I...rus. He moaned in an exaggerated groan. More...yes, just like that...give it to me, give it to me, faster...harder. Amber felt herself blush scarlet. She turned her head and buried her face into the pillow. Kanes husky laughter echoed in her ears as he leaned over and kissed her cheek again. Amber darling, when youre in the throngs of passion you sing a song so sweet, that believe me Ill never, ever, ever want to stop hearing it. Amber pushed her head further into the pillow. How am I ever going to face your mother? Kane snorted. Amber raised her head to look at him. You never mind about my mother. You know shes not as uptight as she appears. Amber gave Kane a skeptical look. Come on, think about it. Shes given birth to three kids. Im sure shed done a little moaning and groaning over the years, if not letting out a few screams from time to time. Amber choked on her laughter. Kane thats your mother youre talking about. But now that you mention it, Ive heard Lori shouting a few words that would have best been left unheard, especially when she was with Hank. She felt Kane take a deep breath. His chest rose against her. They still havent patched things up between them yet, have they? Amber shook her head. Given what Kane had told her about Hank and the circumstances surrounding the loss of his wife and baby daughter, Amber wasnt so sure she wanted Lori and Hank to patch things up. And now with Sally, I dont know if they ever will. Maybe Sally coming on the scene is for the best. Kane shrugged. He nudged her so that she turned back over, then he ran his fingertips along her ribcage. His warm hand cupped her breast and began stroking her nipple.
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A gush of liquid heat rushed to Ambers core. Honestly, Amber said huskily. I dont think Lori is ready for a man like Hank. Kane took another breath. He leaned forward and ran his tongue along her collarbone. Maybe not. Amber groaned. Kane chuckled and leaned back. They lay facing each other for a few moments, both lost in their own thoughts. Can I ask you something? Kane raised an eyebrow. You have to ask? Of course, what is it you want to know? Amber chewed at the inside of her cheek, then forged forward. You were so happy this morning, Kane. What changed from last night? Amber watched Kanes face cloud. She saw him swallow. He rolled away from her and stared up at the ceiling, very similar to how shes seen him lying in bed the night before. He swallowed again. It was several long moments before he finally spoke. I already told you about Susan and about how I stepped in to care for Hanks kids. What I didnt tell you is thatthe whole experienceTinas death Jasons health, everything. It changed me. Dramatically. I lost all desire for school, travel, and any kind of adventure. Even the thought of me moving away, out of my parents home, away from the boys made me kind of sick. I kept my distance from everyone who wasnt family and my relationships with women, casual. Even Susan? Kane nodded. The only reason I came close to marrying her was because I knew deep down that she really didnt care about me. She was a safe choice. I knew she could never hurt me. Not the way Tinas death hurt Hank. Amber swallowed and reached out to touch Kane. Hank was right. Shed walked into Kanes life and changed everything for him. Shed shook Kane up, or maybe more aptly, woke Kane up. This really was all about her. And because she hadnt thought to tell Kane about the Ryersons return shed allowed him to think that she was planning on walking out of his life. No wonder hed been so upset last night. Shed been so selfish. Im sorry.
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For what? Kane shrugged, placing his hand over hers. Not being a safe choice for me? For not thinking about the fact that I now live in a small town. That news of the Ryersons return wouldnt somehow get twisted in the gossip mill. You must know, Irus, that Id never do anything to hurt you. Kane smiled at her. I certainly was angry last night, I cant deny that. But in some ways I was more angry with myself than anyone else. Okay, I was pretty angry at Larry and remind me the next time we see him that I clock him one. He had no right to hurt you by attacking me. I can fight my own battles. Amber smiled. I dont know, I might just beat you to it. But why were you angry with yourself? Kane swallowed. I boxed myself up like a suit Ive just made for a dead man lying in some coffin. Cut myself off from the reality that I might someday find someone like you. I was the one who put my dreams away, no one forced me too. It was also me that kept myself from finding a woman who I could fall in love with. Your dreams, Amber said. You want those back now, dont you?? Kane nodded. Yes. More than ever. Amber felt her heart break. She knew her time with Kane would be brief. Shed known from the very start that if she fell in love with him that their eventual break up would break her heart beyond repair. But, shed gone ahead and now shed do anything to see Kane happy. Shed even sacrifice her heart for his. Do you still have time to enroll for the fall session? Or, will you have to wait until next year? Youre old enough now that it wont matter that you haven't finished high school. Your work experience will be sufficient to get you into any school. Kane reached out and stroked her cheek before brushing his fingers through her bangs. Im not talking about school. Amber swallowed. She didnt understand. Kanes dreams had been of university. Kane smiled gently. Im talking about you. I love you, Amber. Amber felt her heart skip a beat. I realized last night that you bring a sense of clarity to my life that Im
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I realized last night that you bring a sense of clarity to my life that Im astonished I couldnt see before then. Amber looked at him. She couldnt hide her confusion. Kane smiled and pulled her across the bed so that he could kiss her. It was a sweet, long, sexy, soul searching kiss. When he ended it, he leaned back. That day. That rainy day, when I first saw you across the street, soaking wet and looking lost. I cant tell you why I felt compelled to wave and get your attention, or, why I wrote those words need directions, on a piece of old cardboard. He laughed. Or, why I found myself talking gibberish and yammering on a mile a minute. Why the need to run down to the coffee and pastry shop to get you that bottle of water and some Danishes was so urgent, or, why I went into the real estate office and bought this house for you... Kanes last words shocked her. You bought this house the day we met? Kane nodded. While you were having your interview with Paul. Amber thought back and remembered seeing this house, this very house with a red sold sticker over the picture on the closed window of the real estate office. Was the reason why the door had been locked because Kane and the real estate agent had left so that Kane could view the house? But, you didnt see me again until weeks later. You bought a house without ever knowing if Id share it with you? Yes. Why? Kane raised a hand and stroked her jaw. He shrugged. My heart knew youd walk back into my life. I just had to wait. Tears sprang to Ambers eyes. Kane... You see, Amber, I cant tell you why I did those things, the day I met you. All I can say is that my heart was way, way ahead of my head. That it was my heart that recognized even before youd said a word to me, that Id love you forever. And if I had been set to move? Kane grinned. Id have followed. I was set to tell you this morning, that no matter where you went, Id be right there beside you. Across the province, across the country, and most importantly across the world. I had decided that I wasnt
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the country, and most importantly across the world. I had decided that I wasnt ever going to be apart from you. A tear fell from Ambers eye. Kane reached up to brush it away with his thumb. You once told me that if you fell in love with me, it might kill you. Well its the other way around, Amber. It would have killed me, if I had let you go. Tears began to follow freely from Ambers eyes. Thats the most romantic thing Ive ever heard. I love you, Amber. I love you so very much. Kane kissed her again, this time more deeply, more reverently than hed ever done before. He pulled her flush up against his body. When their kiss broke, he smiled. This would be an excellent time for me to ask you to marry me, but I somehow remember that you told me youd be the one doing the asking. Amber laughed through her happy tears. Dont go picking out china patterns just yet I...rus, she said teasingly. Im not quite there yet. Kane chuckled. He kissed her again, and then again and again. Each time when he paused Ambers heart raced faster and faster. Are we getting closer? Kane whispered. Amber breathed heavily. Her body was tingling all the way down to her toes. A little. Kane laughed. Just a little? Okay, maybe more than a little. Kane chuckled. Well, lets see if I cant speed things along. He moved his hand between her legs. Would you like me to whip your eggs into a froth? He slid three fingers into her while his thumb found the nub of her core. Or, would you like me to stiffen those peaks? Amber moaned and shifted her hips to give him easier access to her body. Kane leaned over and licked her nipple before slowly blowing on it. Maybe Ill just jump ahead- Ahead- Ahead- Amber gasped. Kane rubbed his thumb over her like there was no tomorrow. He kissed her again. Amber shivered. She was about to come undone. Kane withdrew, he rolled over and grabbed another condom from the box.
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Kane withdrew, he rolled over and grabbed another condom from the box. He tore open the foil packet and slipped it on. Now, where was I? He kissed his way from Ambers stomach up to her lips. I think you were about to put your magnificent creation into the oven. Oh, yeah, right. Kane slid into her. Amber gasped and wrapped her legs around him.

I...rus, Amber breathed huskily as the two of them lay panting in each other arms. I think I was a little hasty. Kane lifted his head and looked down at her. He lifted an eyebrow. This is a great time. She watched Kanes eyes light up. He cracked a sheepish grin. Marry me. Please. Ill make you happy. Kanes chuckle was the best sound shed ever heard. You already do, Amber. You already do.

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Amber stood watching the rain clouds roll in. The forecast hadnt predicted rain, but Amber could hear the distant rumble of thunder. Amber opened the balcony doors to Loris bedroom and stepped out. Down in the Stewarts backyard, Myles, Willis, Sam and Brice were hastily repositioning one of the several large canopies that had been set up earlier. They centered it over the front rows of chairs. Amber smiled when she heard Mildreds voice shouting from the back door of the Stewarts home. If theyd only waited until Saturday. Saturdays supposed to be a sunny day. Behind her, back in Loris room, Lori and Veronica were having an argument over whether Amber should wear her hair up or whether they should just weave the babys breath into her curls. It was her wedding day, and Amber couldnt have been more happy. It seemed fitting though. She and Kane had met in the midst of a downpour, and now it would appear that it was going to rain on their wedding day, despite all of Mildreds objections. Amber knew that Kane wouldnt be put off. Hed declared that since she had been the one who had popped the question last summer, it would be him who decided the actual date of their wedding. One year exactly from the day theyd met. Kane had even gone so far as to set the time for their marriage vows to be exchanged exactly at a quarter to nine in the morning. Loris voice rose. Amber, get back in here. Amber gave one last look to the men down on the ground and then turned back to the house. As she stepped back into the room, Betty appeared from the hallway. She had Ambers wedding dress in her hands. Do you think the rain will hold off until after the ceremony?
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Amber secretly hoped not. Lori took the dress from her step daughter and hung it up. She then began to peel the protective bag away from the dress. Veronica waved Amber over and quickly sat her down before Loris vanity table. She brushed out Ambers dark hair, and then began to twist thick sections into an intricate, beautiful style. Lori fussed over every imaginary wrinkle in Ambers wedding dress. I still cant believe you picked such an odd colour. Amber grinned inwardly. Her wedding dress was the softest of grey colours. A sleeveless silk gown, trimmed around the scooped neckline with charcoal satin, and a matching charcoal sash around the waist that would tie into a bow. The train of the dress was only three feet long, and was also trimmed in the same charcoal satin. This is your first wedding- My only wedding, Amber corrected. Lori ignored Ambers words. You should be married in white. Who cares, Betty commented. Id be married in dirty old coveralls. Be careful what you wish for. Veronica laughed. Amber smiled. She caught Bettys eye in the mirror. Betty who was graduating high school in a few short weeks had decided that shed continue to work at the diner part time while helping to work on the farm, her boyfriend, Artys family ran. Veronica on the other hand had opted to go off to college to learn hair and makeup design. When she graduated she wanted to come back home and open her own salon. Amber couldnt have been more proud. Her family had come a long way in the past year. Lori had given birth to a little girl, that theyd named Valentine. Lori had also been convinced to get a job, which she did. A part time job at the diner, along with Betty, since Sally Ryersons pastry shops delicious mouthwatering pastries had boosted the diners traffic and clientele by forty percent. Fawn and the rest of Ambers siblings, both half and step were thriving well, and helping out with the household chores that were awarded in the way of chips.
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and helping out with the household chores that were awarded in the way of chips. Poker chips. Each colour, red, blue and white indicating the level of time and energy put into each task. A monetary reward was handed out at the end of each week and as with Betty, Veronica and Brice each child was presented with the same arrangement. Fifty percent put aside for a college/university fund. Twenty-five percent for themselves and twenty-five percent for the grocery jar. The jar now lay on the kitchen counter, in full view. And with the privilege of adding money to the jar came the ability to once a month choose a special Saturday night meal. It wasnt a surprise to Amber that the special meal requested, more often than not, was Kanes pizzas. Especially since Kane himself had to come over to create his masterpieces, which would then lead into a marathon of board games for the older kids and an array of animated movies for Molly, Conrad, Toby and Melissa. All done. Veronica smiled, giving Ambers hair a final pat. A loud thunder clapped and Lori groaned. The rain had started.

Kane stood watching the rain. It was only lightly drizzling, but he could see that the storm clouds threatened a more substantial downpour. Kane smiled. He adjusted the lapels on his tuxedo, tugged at his cummerbund, and lowered his hands to his sides. A hand brushed his. The baby and ringer fingers of his right hand tingled. Kane glanced down to the top of Melissas head. Her soft hair had been curled into tiny ringlets and interwoven between the curls were sprigs of babys breath. Kanes heart swelled and he sadly wondered when Melissa would stop reaching for his hand. She was now six years old, and he knew the day would come, but he hoped it wasnt going to be anytime soon. Melissa looked up at him. You got my bed, right?
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Kane smiled and nodded. A bed all to myself? I dont have to share with Molly or Toby? Kane nodded again. Thats right. The princess bed. Just like we promised. Youre a big girl, now. His suggestion of fixing up one of the bedrooms for Melissa and Molly to help with the transition of Amber moving into his home after the wedding, had sounded good at the time. Melissa hadnt been so easily to convince. It had taken the bribe of a bed all to herself that had finally clinched the deal. Melissa smiled. She was missing one of her front teeth. Kane remembered that night well. The night where hed been called at midnight because Melissa wouldnt let Amber, Lori, or, anyone else but him to remove the baby tooth from the last strand of flesh that had stubbornly clung to her gum. The tooth fairy had given her five whole dollars for that tooth. Melissa squeezed his fingers. Amber told me to give this to you. Melissa held out a small folded sheet of paper. Kane took the paper and flipped it open to read.

COULD WE MAKE THE CEREMONY A LITTLE EARLY? I WANT TO MARRY YOU IN THE RAIN

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FYI - Ambers video dubbed Barmaid Demands TIPS, SEX AND RESPECT, has now topped 3,000,000 hits, and the Condom Box Count down at the drugstore has reached 17

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