SHADOW WORKS

SEEING YOU
I see you differently now, gaining understanding of who you are
Your pale blue eyes filled with tears, and formed small rivers
While I helpless and stricken looked from afar
Pain and sorrow a cage of glass which exploded
Sending slivers of disbelief and anger down the center of my being

The messenger of death proclaimed his sentence, and you tried to be brave
It seemed cruel to tell you something you suspected, but hoped would not be
All your hopes destroyed, leaving you broken and grave
I wanted to hold you, protect you, but my body was lifeless
Propped up by a wall in a far flung corner of the room

The time stated had no specific limit, a clock without arms

The world still moved-the sand slipped through a broken hourglass
A mask of sad composure slipped into place
Arrangements needed to be made others rushed in haste

I never understood how you always seemed so close

But always beyond my reach, never close enough to touch, to hold
Perhaps my fault space, invisible barriers became comfortable
Not wanting to trespass on your feelings, feeling more angry than bold
Childhood emotions still firmly cemented, a cold embrace

I have to bear seeing you wander into dark meadows

Your journey has already begun I saw you take the first tentative steps
I will watch you stir the leaves, set the flowers gently dancing
The wind will carry the sound of your laughter
Knowing I will meet you in the shadows

My only regret is simply that you did not grasp my hand

And felt the warmth the slight tremble that emotions display
That you will not know how much I am like you
Emptiness will take hold
Always near and yet unreachable as you have always been
And I present but never seen
 THOUGHTS

Thoughts of you shatter my existence

Quite unexpectedly at times
Brings tears to my eyes
Thinking of the times we spent

Things unsaid
Too late to repent
My heart shattered the loss was so great
No one knew your fate

No time for brief goodbyes

Rushed words to bid you farewell
Saying those last words..
Pure hell

Thoughts of you still hurt

For a better man there will never be
I loved you not for your greatness
But for your lessons in humility

Images of you are still firmly in place

Pulls at the corners of my lips
Bringing a sad smile to my face

For Dad
 The Battle
Emotions are like unmanned chariots, floating in the sky
With nobody to steer the path goes awry
Thunder t urns the sky into a battlefield
We are left vulnerable, warriors without a shield
Crashing through fates deceptive cloud
Wandering blindly without certaintys shroud
Solid walls of control do not surround us protectively
Leaving us free to seek, not knowing where we should be
No compass pointing towards happinesss direction
Wounded we proceed still striving for elusive perfection
 Little One

Sleep tight little one

Let your dreams take flight
Rest your head upon my breast
Without you our lives would not be bright

Stay close my little one

Let your smile shine upon us
Close your tiny hand around my finger
Without you we wouldnt know complete trust

Dont cry my little one

Let your innocence bring light
Snuggle up against my arm
Without you we wouldnt know that sweet charm

Stay as you are my little one

Teach us to have insight
Curl up in the safety of my embrace
Without you we wouldnt know Gods grace
 Happiness

It sneaks upon us
Overrides all logical thought
Whispering in our ear
Beckoning us to hear

It anchors us
Teaching us things of great beauty
Showing us all we can be
Beckoning us to see

It evades us
Asking us to search
For it is something we all seek
Beckoning us to speak
 To Me You Are

To me you are.

Stability when others abandon me

Wisdom whispering in my ear
Comfort calming every fear
Strength rooting my feet firmly to the ground
Adventure discovering something new in every sound
Laughter forbidding me to take myself seriously
Harmony turning my life into a symphony
Escape taking me to undiscovered places
Mystery a person of many faces
Beauty asking my senses to awaken
Calm something to cling to when my world is shaken
Safety a shore of refuge in an ocean of deceit
Love Making my life complete