Sam Wellington I am surrounded by strangers. I try to get by. I want some answers. I like it when a mans in charge.

I like things well-organized. Ok! I HAD some drug problems OK? But its a thing of the past now. I said goodbye to this drug nuisance and everything is alright now from my point of view As far as I know . drugs are a sin religiously speaking at least they were the last time I checked. Parties? Of course I partied! I liked to throw a barbeque party to entertain the gang to get wasted when I was shitfaced chicks looked hotter if you get my drift so why not? Is it written in some holy book: thou shall not drink beer, thou shall not like skanks? ya, I said skanks Of course I had sex. but every time with the partners consent but I never touched kids, God forbid! I didnt give beer or pot to minors. And if I ended up with some married woman I didnt make any commitments while I was fucking her and I never touched a man. So I dont have any CAPITAL sins. I would usually drink, get drunk, barf, barf, crawl on all fours home . and I hoped to God Id find a gun and blow my brains out! Suicidal thoughts! But I never killed anybody. I didnt worship false idols!... I didnt worship cows except for those who happened to be women! I never bought satanic products I broke the law. Sure. I was so broke one year, I stole some meds. I was sick. I had an asthma crisis. So I stole some inhalers if thats a sin alright, its stealing, of course its stealing you got me there. I remember that our religion teacher used to bring to class a picture of a quarter filled glass of milk. The milk was the pure part of the soul. And sinners would have black strains in their milk. So, for the better part of them, sinners have missed their chance to meet the Almighty Maker up in Heaven!

However, I hope Ill get this meeting. And of course the stealing thing will show in my quarter of milk! But its unfair, I tell you! I was hungry, I had asthma attacks . And I wasnt greedy, I only stole what I needed and I broke the law, but I broke mans laws and I believe that something as small as mans laws doesnt have a long term effect like the laws of the soul do. Thats my opinion, the opinion of a man that now makes an honest living. So I will look straight into the eyes of our Lord, Jesus Christ, and I will find understanding for the small imperfections of the world of man and its laws. I think I covered the entire range of known sins well maybe I did one more thing.. while my father was sick I didnt visit him its not that I didnt have the time, or I couldnt afford it or my car had broken down or anything I just didnt go to see him on his death bed with no legs his right arm paralyzed from the stroke he couldnt talk he couldnt control his face to watch him all day long as he sits in front of the TV and yells the only word he can still articulate? Maa calling for my mother. Ma! Every time he needed her to turn him on the other side. MAA or when there was a game on. Maaa! To turn off the lights. Maaa! To put the baby Jesus picture just a little bit closer! Maaa! Closer! Maaa! Maaa! Maaa! Im sorry, but I couldnt witness that, so I didnt go. For a few years. I kept away from all that misery, I went on not knowing, not asking, not doing anything to help poor dad I only had fantasies in which I would smother him with his pillow until he was dead, so I could stop reading the Bible, stop speaking foreign languages, stop hoping in vain FOR GODS SAKE, I let the poor man die in peace. Wouldnt you have done the same? To let him die in peace? Respect your mother and father, Jesus.